seeing everyone like this,

i almost want to cry.

it's so painful to see the ones around

have their long-time dreams shattered

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`timetopickkupthepieces

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i'm shocked.

quote shawn` god grant me strength to accept those things i can't change.

i really am so, so shocked.

it's almost like what i predicted was true.

and i regret saying it last time.

i heard it from many people too.

but i chose not to believe it..

unfortunately, my opinion also formed in that direction

and i ended up being part of them.

i'm so sorry.

-turn away

it sure seems like it was all my fault.

i feel like someone has just pierced the skin near my heart.

my stone cold heart.

ay.

i feel indefensible.

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oh well, i've got to accept it.

now that i'm feeling less guilty.

i'm about to laugh real loud.

how over-the-edge you were.

when you merely were such a pea in other's eyes.

your ego's too big.

-for the idiot : t*ac*

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today

280205

history was rather fun!

like since when have i found lim's lessons fun.

hoho. i question myself over that.

maybe 'cause i'm in a good mood.

a very good one.

:))

the o's came out today.

the results i mean.

that's not why i'm in a good mood. [duh]

i felt scared for those sec fours.

like i saw them after school at the canteen

gathered in groups, mostly from the same classes.

expectantly looking at the clock.

chatting, pondering what they would get,

some quietly thinking by themselves.

seeing that their dreams could very well be shattered.

i felt kinda pained.

yuppers.

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i didn't eat dinner again.

'cause i took a nap. i carnt really eat after i've had a nap..

mm yeah.

i've got NO mood to blog at all.

just that i hate ms chua.

the stupid new teacher training with mr jo.

her methods are so kindergarten-like.

we felt insulted.

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their pained fragile hearts.

ouchies.

let's say, it's rather pitiful huhs.

i give up laas.

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