i'm waiting. i always am. either put on hold on the phone. or waiting to meet someone.

this is really, really getting out of hand.

`pointless.saturnine.dazed.dying.

haha.

*

i just untied my tie-and-dye thing and it's great! [of course, duh la, 'cause i did it. -egoistic- hoho] i did blue. so the part that wasn't coloured was purple.

yepps. it's really nice and i did the circle design and it looks like those windows media player visualizations (bubble!!!)

*

i'm crazy, not to mention in a daze.

too much information or traffic going through my mind.

i feel really uneasy.

it is nearly like a state of depression.

maybe unknown depression? -ponder-

i'm so pissed with myself.

i spend school hours thinking loads, counting alphabets on my worksheets [!] and just brooding and slopping around. i've never been so sloppy before. i practically SLOP everywhere i go. it's not slouching away or anything. i feel like a snail. goodness. slop. you get it. Not to mention, i always nearly fall asleep or just message away during lessons.

crap.

*

today i was walking everywhere.

the last stop - j8.

to my horror, i saw so many people.

i saw brenda. winnie. danny and sarah [i think danny was there?]. vicknes.

i don't wanna think about how many people i've seen.

oh yah. i saw pamela too.

junction 8 is such a scary place.

and you perpetually see everyone there.

don't you think it's rather frightening at times?

*

somebody said i talk loud.

in the train.

yeah right.

it was the pair seat okaes.

what do you expect?

it like echoes! [literally yaas?]

-smack

there goes the someone again.

'getting violent/barbaric thoughts'

*throw slipper.

I give up.