Tired. Band today. Councillor Meeting today. Councillor Meeting on Wed. Band on Tues. Oh My God! I'm going to die of exhaustion!!!! Argh! Lazy to blog. Yesterday Band Performance [[Ervin called me a bittergourd because my face as emotionless!!]]. haha! Ms Lim gave us each a folder with a so called remarks piece of paper inside yesterday! Oh, i'm so tired!

Woo... today quite fun.. though every period also nothing to do, only during maths. Then miss chan teaching statistics. Very boring though. She was teaching all about the stem n leaf thing and I was busy drawing trees all over my maths text... [[I'm so sick right.. lol]] During english period, we watched 'my dog called skip'. Okayys, ms lim brought shrek n tt. But timothy loaded 'my dog called skip'. I mean, we weren't really watching it. We were like chatting among ourselves and sometimes take a peek at the projection screen. You know - so that's not exactly watching it right. Jasmine, Michelle and I were like haunting Ms Lim and we abducted her laptop too. Hwee En offered her CD from Eddy and then we were like looking at the pics. Then we attracted a crowd [[have you ever heard tt even small amts of ppl make a crowd? lol]]. Okay. Then we were portraying Bei Yu in a guy's eyes and in a girl's eyes and Ms Lim was trying to keep a poker face, trying not to laugh - heh heh - We were like so mean. Haiz. I'm so bored now. Currently listening to Maroon 5's She will be loved and chatting on msn with my cousin. *Bleaghx* Okay. After school got Band. Then so sick. Queena keep asking me play Timpani *also known to me as the stupid vibrating drum*. She just want to play bell herself.. Wad a selfish pig. Somemore say ppl.... Haiz.. I duno what to say larhhhs..... Okie. I think that's all for today. Ciao...

Hah! Today promotion day!!! HAHA! So free today.. But I'm feeling so bored currently. I tried changing my tagboard to doodleboard but I realize it was so groSs!! HAHA... I'm feeling quite mad now. Haha. All i'm doing now is laughing and laughing and laughing! :p Okayys... I've reallie got nothing to say now! Bored to bitsss --- smuaCKs

I would have done anything to freeze the moment forever.
It was so quiet & peaceful, so simple, so serene.
I turned to see Lucas looking at me.
His eyes shone with a savage sweet clarity that took my breath away.
+excerpt taken from Kevin Brooks - Lucas

Sorry about just now. Haha, accidentally hit a key on my keyboard and then the post was published. Stupid. Thankfully I didn't have to edit it ... HAHA... Today, I spent my day in church til about 2. Then I went with Cheryl to toa payoh library. So quiet. Then got this girl so annoying. Talking on the phone then talk so loud and dunno that she is talking soooo LOUD. She was probably scolding her boyfriend or something for ditching her and not going to the library too.. diaox.. So lame.. She's about 16 but act like a 10 year old boy.. What is the world coming to? After going library, cheryl and I like dun wanna go home so we were contemplating whether to go home, go AMK or serangoon gardens coffee bean. In the end we went Coffee Bean then eat one $2.50 muffin. Very NICE!.. Whoopee! Then later I went to her house and like wu liao a bit.. Then look at her sec 2 class pics.. then we were busy crapping around the house. HAHA... [[do you know she's my cousin?-)]] Then later her father sent me home. So funny. Justin was like beginning to cry but before that when he just woke up frm his nap, he was throwing a fit and was like smacking my cousin [[cheryl]] like mad and her father ... LOL.. so in the end, he tagged along and sit car ride.. Okayy! Whatever... LOL .. *happy pappy?*

Woo so happy!!! Argh!!! I showed my mamma the results tt are gonna be on my result slip.

I feel this song really speaks to me ... and I simply just adore songs from Simple Plan. Maybe this song actuallie explains some of my feelings... *having mixed feelings* -- smUacKS -)

Simple Plan
Welcome to my Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Just drank one can of A&W root beer. Oh my goodness me! I'm feeling so terribly full now! Argh. I think I'm gonna shit soon [[offensive language - haha]] Yay! Monday got no school 'cause got promotion day! I wish can go out but very lazy larhh... Tomorrow is ... hWeE.eN's birthday!!! All must wish her leh. LOL. Today got band - FULL DAY! [[8.45 am to 5.30pm.]] Today got no PT... but got all the NPCC people marching around - seniors.. Their marching is so horrid.. compared to band members.. lOL! Of Course! *braggs* Shikin mam and Jasmine were laughing all the way coz the inspector was quite pissed with his squad. Haha. It was so funny.. and the inspector = ha! = looked like such a dork I wanted to just jump up and cackle with laughter but we all have to keep quiet and stifle laughter. We learned Spanish Overture today, the song is SOO nice! I was playing bell.. Stephanie tagged along to play bell and Bei Yu played the xylo.. It was soo fun. They didn't do strokes today -thk god- .. STROKES is the most boring thing I've ever heard of. Formation Test coming up, Sec One camp coming up, strokes test coming up.. *sigh* There are a lotta tests going on in band! Argh! Scared!!! *currently feeling bored*

"I feel good ta da ta da ta da da" I seriously feel good today!!! I passed my Chinese at a mere 56 but at least it wasn't C6.. I got a C5! Whoopee! I'm elated... Oh, the results for the councillor thingy is out today. Michelle, Bei Yu, Li Yan and I got chosen. Okayys fine. But half of me doesn't want to 'cause I'm afraid that I can't cope with studies, Band and this darn councillor thingy. I want to change my skin... But I can't find a nice & suitable one. HaEH! Today after school Jasmine and I were eating sliced fish bee hoon [[yu pian mi fen]].. I think the way we ate was enough to make the people around us barf! And we were taking so long to eat. We spent half an hour eating and chatting about our families and blah-dy blah then later Jas's dad gave me a lift to my bus stop which is also on-the-way... She had piano lesson from 3-6 [[actually 3 hr intensive theory.. haha]] so couldn't go out with Bei Yu and I or something. Oh and after school, Bei Yu just disappeared 'poof!' from the class immediately after school... so we couldn't find herr... Anyway, piano theory is sooo boring... I finished the 5 year one.. not all the eight years but five years is the minimum and 8 is the maximum [[duh! there are only eight yrs in piano and I'm in my last one!*braggs* LOL.]]

Today results come out. But not really the exact one because haven't added those oral and extra stuff like term 3 and 4. Oh my goodness me! I passed my chinese at 55.5 but I think I'm gonna fail still if they're going to add term 3 or 4 or both... Sod that! Umm... Oh! Today got Councillor Interview. I felt it was a little weird. All the 1/6 nominees got [mdm?] Normila. She was quite funny actually and I was totally freaking out. I was wringing my hands like there was no tomorrow! Lols. She asked really weird qns like 'tell me about yourself.' That sorta thing and you couldn't say like so gross stuff if not they'll just think you're like totally bragging... and I hate those kind of people too. Hmm, I didn't know what to say. Anyway, Nurul and I are positive that Ervin has lost to us! Haha! Now he owes us a meal each.. But I think we have to scratch that out as well.. 'cause he'll probably borrow money from people.. then the people will start taunting him.. How LAME! Lol

A Grid Of Stars

Today your mother dropped by, gavesome of your things to us; staredwistful at our fashions and newsof university; clutching her coffee cupwith white, composed fingers;her calm unhinting voice talksof cupric blueness of Mediterranean, where they'd just returned from-pausing upon the inexorable.

Steam above coffee, rising,
the bright kitchen.
This gentle aftermath of closure.

Tonight I am bound for San Francisco.On the plane, pressing my face, palms to the glass.Takeoff is the moment of vulnerability,where everything seems to fallapart, a roar of lifting wheels and churning, changing air.I watch the forsaking city as neon andfluorescence beneath my leaving feet.Knowing with absolute convictionthat if I were God deciding a grid of stars,the first would never have to be elegy.

-Edlyn Ang-

I feel that everyone hates me. Really. This has nothing to do with Bei Yu and I just finished the Stargirl book. It is marvelous. It is truthfully a work of art and how a person called Stargirl is able to touch the school even though everyone thought she was an old fraud. A story of great bravery I shall say. I'm feeling kind of depressed suddenly as I read the book. I think the story kinda speaks to me in a more mutual way...It is just a very neutral way of talking to people about a guy called Leo Borlock who was the only person who appreciated her. LOL.

[i don't play games of deceit with myself. I play them with the world---]

MY FRIEND

My friend, I stand in judgment now
And feel that you're to blame somehow.
On earth I walked with you each day
And never did you point the way.

You knew the Lord in truth and glory
But never did you tell the story.
My knowledge then was very dim
You could have led me safe to HIM.

Though we lived together on the earth
You never told me of the second birth.
And now I stand this day condemned
Because you failed to mention HIM.

You taught me many things, that's true.
I called you friend and trusted you.
But I learn now that it's too late
You could have saved me from this FATE.

We walked by day and talked by night
And yet you showed me not the light.
You let me live and love and die
You knew that I'd never live on high.

Yes. I called you friend in life
And trusted you through joy and strife
And yet on coming to this end
I cannot now call you "My Friend".

"She was elusive.
She was today.
She was tomorrow.
She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting shadow of an elf owl.
We did not know
what to make of her.
In our minds we tried to
pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly,
but the pin merely went through
and away she flew."
:excerpt taken from Jerry Spinelli's - Stargirl

I love this book so much! It is so nice. I haven't finished it but it's really nice! I recommend you read it. Anyway, I have made a website for 1/6 - 2/6 people. Who knows, maybe I won't promote.. _sux_ I think that I'm gonna fail history! Argh! Today so fun. Band. In the morning I nearly died tho. Omg, there is this stupid crow outside my house crowing away and it has been doing that since yesterday!!! what a horror... I mean normally people living in terrace houses don't open their windows.. But I dunno why my maid has been opening mine.. So what can i do? We and Jasmine were sharing a mini melts ice cream just now. Omg, it's so pathetic for 2 bucks.. Waste our money. First time band end so early. End at 12.... Hahaz... They preparing for Chingay 05 and Concert already.. LOLs... I'm stuck at the dumb Timpani.. Queena keep askin me play.. I don't mind playing for Malay Folk Tunes Medley but not for Without You and others.. Without You i play bell somemore.. Idiotic larhhs.. All thanks to Mrs Chee lorh. Anyway, I ditched the Timpani for Without You 'cause I was so sick of the vibration of the Timpani, I was getting a headache.. Hahas. So Karen Mam played.. Wakakaka, anyway Timpani players always get lost halfway and Karen didn't even tune the Timpani... Haiz.. Percussion is in such a mess 'cause there's a thousand ppl in here........Literally -)

This lyrcis was taken from Timbo one.. I kinda like this song.. quite cute haha - okayys..

Artist: Usher
Album: Confessions
Title: My Boo


feat. Alicia Keys

[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

the.long.way.home

reaching out to those i lost.

it's just a long way home
to where it's warm and bright
it's through many obstacles
to the right path
to where i call home

Haha, I saw this on a blogskin while browsing around for new blogskins for my blogg. I'm so bored to bits! Exams over ler. But aiyah don't count the stupid art and cme.. It's lame and stupid lorhhs.. What kind of sch got CME one.. SuckS! I think i'm gonna fail art coz my art reallie sucks and some people, a girl in our class to be exact keep saying that we will fail, hai, I wonder who is tt... That girl is such a b****... because of other reasons too larh..(".) Anyways, I like this little poem or thingy on hwee en's blog.. It's really meaningful and nice.. Lols.. okayys.. I'm mad!

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off her, am I right??
-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's there??
-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
-It isn't love, it's LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?
-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??
-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?
-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??
-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?The answer is so simple 'cos it's... LOVE

hey guys.. am back after my long time of 'holidays'... Haha. Friday then exams finish... Omg.. Still haven't do art. Wah kao! I sure fail one.. It's soooo bad. Today exam test Geog and Home Ec... Home Ec was soooo difficult! Omg! I wanted to die lorh!!!! OMG OMG OMG! But cannot fail cause my desgn brief got a1 haha!

Percussionists at the Esplanade 

He who goes out weeping,

carrying seed to sow,

will return with songs of joy.

Psalm 126:6 [NIV]

Chinese Exam is over! I was so stressed the last few days. Thank God it's over! Suddenly the black cloud just whooshed away from me after the exam and I feel more carefree! Woo...... Finally back to blog. I've never been offline for so long [i'm online everyday so you get the point?] Yupps. Now back to blog for maybe today, tomorrow and Sunday, after that cannot come online lerrhs... not because mother dun allow but because of my guilt if I do come online... Hahaha. Exams suck! Got maths class at 2pm. Just now after Exam, Jasmine come my house do art... After that I tongpang [urm, help her do something when i'm faster or on the way???] her on my bike to the busstop.. wah lao.. she kept screaming like a mad woman... omg. Haha, feel so happy. Sitting with my favourite pink bear frm Miss Koh! YAY!

It is not how much we have,
but how much we enjoy,
that makes happiness.
-Charles Haddon Spurgeon

Today... went to church, couldn't quite pay attention 'cause I was quite tired. Haha, I actually am quite lazy to type out today's activities.. Bored out to bits.. I'm very very very scared for Chinese Exam on Fri, can't seem to get into the mood for studying. I just keep getting off-focus... It's nearly impossible for me to just study for the Chinese Exam. HOW? I'm DYING...

*Stacie Orrico
Strong Enough

As I rest against this cold hard wall will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out
And start again?
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again?
If I'm healed, renewed and find forgiveness;
find the strength I’ve never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God’s plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out And start again?
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?
He took my life into His hands and turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance its there I've finally found
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out
And start again

That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh thank You for my chance to start again

[*love him ---]

Today was my greatest day... Haha, could say that larh... GOT english exam today... Wow, the paper was sooo difficult but the compo was easy as pie.. lol.. Serious. Don't know la, got a lot of inspiration ya? Haha... I'm going mad already... I feel that I'm changing weirdly tho.. Haha, today chat with PeiShan for quite a long time... actuallie chat with her quite enjoyable too... Haha... Hmmm, I guess I've got nth more to say ... Heehee.

*Excuse me, I'm becoming so damn 'cheeeNA'.. GAWD!