Friday, March 31, 2006
Anna Nalick - Just Breathe
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season.
Yeah we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button, girl
So cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"Just a day," he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him maybe I'll just sing about it
There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2 AM and I'm still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand, yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe,just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
Date-
I really hate this about me, I'm lazy, therefore I hate crowded places (jostling with people) and noisy places (yeah I love music, but many music put together is noise). Yeah, so let's be lifeless. Although I kinda like shopping alone now, I get things done, way faster.
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School went past in a blur, really. I guess when we have such a short day (on Fridays) and all, it's cool. Aces was so lame, the sec threes have to bear with skipping (Like what the- So Pre school! Not even Primary school. Hahaha.) I don't understand why. Haha, I know that we're taking turns, like one cohort will do jogging, then physical training, then aerobics and skipping. It's swopped once a term. How unfair. The Sec ones are doing aerobics, the sec 2s are doing jogging, the sec 3s are doing skipping. -_- And the sec 4s are doing PT, and boy, Erica and I watched the sec fours/fives doing PT, it was hell! When we did PT, it was Mr Lee, and he just let us play lame games with the medicine ball. But their teacher-in-charge was Mr Zaman and he was torturing them like, I don't know what. Maybe the beginning was fine. Lol.
Oh yeah, skipping is so embarrassing. Those mocking sec twos were watching us from the 2nd/3rd/4th storey. Aye.
Miss Chan got really peeved with us today. I rushed my English work during recess ;D
A Math was funny, but Hiew checked our books and most of us had empty books, thankfully I had the old textbook, so my questions were different. -_- Yup.
Were supposed to have an extra one-hour lesson, and it got cancelled yeah. In the end rushed my EM homework and handed it up. Dah, had to reach him by 5pm if not trouble.
Mel did her nails in black & green stripes. Coool. Watermelon fingers. Haha!
Do you know I have a date tomorrow, but I don't know who I'm going with. Haha. Crap.
I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by
I heard, I heard, I heard.
Girlfriend #2: Please, ask him to buy a mirror.
Girlfriend #3: Oh my god -faints
Girlfriend #4 cum boyfriend: Eh, that psycho!
Girlfriend #5: Eeeeeee! So gross.
You just got to accept it that I'm not the only person who thinks you're way too egoistic & revolting.
Bang shika snap boom.
I'm gonna waste another Friday away. I've got a lot of work to do. Aye.
I'll blog later. I'm life-less. -_-
'Boyfriend went out with boyfriend and then girlfriend went out with girlfriends'- Go figure ;D
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Rants.
I'm really turned off by weekends. I'm just so stressed, in a way. I know I'm a slacker and all, but weekends packed like that is too routine already, I feel like I'm like a robot. The same old things happen every single week.
My piano teacher calls me a premature grandmother because I go to her lesson with a grouchy face every week, because I'm so worn-out. I take a freaking 1hr and 15 mins bus ride to and fro from her house, why must she stay so freaking far? She used to stay in Hougang. I like music lessons and all, but now I feel like I'm a slave to the piano instead of something else.
Okay I feel like a whiny spoilt brat. Shan't rant anymore about how routine and robotic my life goes, every single week.
Like lsdkoiasdoihjweorijsovijwejkflwiejfolsidjf! Grr.
Clarence tells me to relax, and I get more agitated with how much my life sucks right now. Talk about reverse psychology. Hah.
Haha, and I'm not irritated with anyone, just moody and being totally anal. I was fine in the afternoon, hopefully I'll cool by the end of the night, sleeping with a mood is a no-no for me.
You are, so anal.
I realise this song is, very timely -
Click Five's Time Machine
I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
Baby just say goodnight
'cause I'll be gone tomorrow.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
You think you know me?
And don't say that the contents of my bag are in total pink, because they're all gifts. The small hot pink purse, that purple pencilcase, the pink file, yada. Except for my roxy pencilcase, which I'm not carrying now 'cause it's so big. Plus-sized you know.
I'm a boy stuck in a girl's body.
Honestly, Erica & Song En even thought I was gay.
Chem Monsters & Kel' Thuzad. Cheeky thoughts.
Mel: -grins
Louisa. Me too. ;D
Silly Us.
Wednesdays are long days. That's why I don't like it, and the last period sucks too. I keep getting picked on by that chocolate chip cookie, it's starting to really get on my nerves. I'm practically nameless in her sight, all she does is call me "Councillorrrrrr" and then do some eye-batting thing.
Darren got picked on as well. Haha, and he got punished to do 20 jumping jacks. What creative punishment huh. (MSN Conversation)
Darren: I where got look sleepy just now >.< I looked so attentive
Louisa: Your head was on the table right.
Darren: Kinda. True, true.
Darren: But I was trying to find out if sound travels faster in solids or not.
Louisa: Omg. That's lame.
Darren: Obviously they're the same after she came to the table and shouted at me.
Louisa: Ahuh.
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I just added Kennard on MSN, and then his nickname contained "Kel' Thuzad". I've seen 4 people on my list who have that name in their Msn nicks already, and I was awfully curious. I asked one of them, and he told me to find out from Leonard and Zhanglin. -_- Not very helpful eh?
So I asked Kennard, and he gave me, a very, hahaha, long-winded but indepth explanation of what/who Kel' Thuzad is. Hahahaha.
Oh dota/warcraft freaks.
So, from my understanding. I get it that. Kel' Thuzad wears a cape and it comes with a hood. He serves the Lich King because he's a Lich. His birthdate or place is unknown and he stayed by the Lich King's side when the dark minions rebelled against the Lich King. He helped Arthas on his journey to save the Lich King. He is a hero in the undead legion and is basically a skeleton. He floats to move and is a mage type. He is a hero in dota of the scrouge side. He holds the power of ice and he is, still a pile of bones - But in dota, his cape has upgraded and it comes with a 'fur coat' made from floating snowflakes that emerge from his hands. He is quite a strong hero if you know how to use him. He's quite popular too, and you get to irritate people in the beginning of the game because his early game spells, are well, irritating. He shoots blocks of ice at enemies, and for his normal attack, his eyes are just 2 beams of shiny blue light. His cape moves well with the wind.
Kennard: See my display pic? That's him.
Louisa: What? That doesn't even look like a person!
Kennard: Well, that's warcraft. Come on, it's a game.
Kennard: Oh well, that's what little I have to say about Kel Thuzad.
Louisa: That's A LOT.
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Why am I even posting this when I don't even play dota/warcraft? (Hahaha, so actually I don't really understand all that mage stuff) Heh.
Oh well. I've got homework to do, but I didn't bring home my exercise book. =p
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Pits of the heart.
how much we felt about our school and our current lives.
And I love these guys the most!
Erica, Melissa, Glande, Lina, Joyce, Lydia, Shafain.
Click Five - Time Machine
You've got the best of my heart it broke
And now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what a scene
You know I didn't mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never improve
I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
Hey you yeah I'm talking to you
You lost your love in bed
And now it's just dead
Because it didn't mean a thing
But you're waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game and aint it a shame
I was just a show I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm crying out but I can't give in
Sunday, March 26, 2006
=/ Crazy.
I suddenly feel a bit deaf in my right ear. Eegh.
I just finished mugging for my Physics test & my A Math common test tomorrow. I don't think I'm ready for my A Math common test. Hiew said it's gonna be hard, LLT also said it's gonna be hard, and I'm really, really afraid. I mean, it's my weakest topic, and I was revising and going through all the examples, mostly getting all wrong when I tried them anyway. I feel really stressed! I don't wanna fail math, I don't wanna fail Chinese, I don't wanna fail anything!
I haven't done my chinese letter-writing, and obviously I'm not planning to do it. Guess I have to put my trust in God that I WILL pass. Ah, my sister says for once I'm like feeling quite stressed, although it contradicts that I still dare to come online to blog for a short while, hey, just to take my mind off the whole 'stress!' thing.
Lyn says that I'm the very happy-go-lucky type of person, knowing that I have a lot to do but I'll still be happy, happy, and I will finish the assignments on time. Really? Haha. I think so too, she's the exact opposite, being such a kanchiongmama like Lydia. Heh heh.
I was playing Bridge - until 9 o'clock yeah, then I realised that I got a Physics test along with my Math, so I got really stressed and rushed in and out of the bathroom to bathe. For once, I am not taking my own sweet time to bathe. Ah, I'm such a lazy bum that bathing time is practically like, sleeping-time, just that it's done in the toilet. Hurhurhur. ;D
Study-study-study. I've GOT to be disciplined, and also not ignore my mom this week.
I MUST STUDY. I MUST DO ALL MY HOMEWORK. I MUST SLEEP EARLY.
Oh shucks, I haven't finished my Newsweek assignment. Eh. I hate the weekends when the teachers pile the homework stack high. I've got church on Sat from 2-10pm, including transport time, dinner and fellowship time, then Sundays are packed full too, from 10-6pm. I have care group, then lunch, then rangers, then piano class.
I'm really busy on weekends, but my weekdays are like holidays. -_- Warped calendar eh?
I shall go sleep now. Early, and then take essence of chicken tomorrow. YES. I will be awake and not sleepy tomorrow! YESYESYES.
*What is wrong with me today? Being all enthusiastic about school & tests.
By the way, Sign Language drove me crazy because I suck at such stuff. =/
Feel so fat, feel like a piece of shit.
Hillsong United - From God Above
I begin to dream of the future
What's next to be
Your love so strong for everyone
You made us all in Your image
And You saved the day
When Jesus came
And You took away all my sin and shame
And You made us right again
You came from God above
The Father's only Son
Saved my soul
Made me new
Now I live for You
My heart is alive and my spirit free
In the Saviour
Gave His life for me
By Your Word
We will be the light of the world
My Father
Shine Your light in me
I'll stand on the Word
Be a light in the world
When Your praises are heard
We'll be singing
Bad hair day.
Wilderness Survival & Sign Language. Uhuh.
Music later.
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Pop goes the weasel.
Church. We had CE about Abortion today, not very applicable to me, considering that I wouldn't even come into contact with people who will/has gone through abortion and yada yada, but well, yeah, just general knowledge.
Went for dinner at United Square, and after we ate at food junction, we went to Mccafe (We met a lot of the church people on the way there) and Subway. I ate two Subway cookies. Double Yum! ;D Heh.
Went home straight after that, what a surprise, we always slack around until 10 plus, 11. Haha.
Oh well. I'm so, so tired.
Feeling itchy too.
Rebellious Tendencies.
Let's get up, go play, and stage a rebellion by throwing away our homeworks!
Now that's what I like. Rebellion.
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And if you're bored, you can help me do this. Heh heh.
My Johari Window: http://kevan.org/johari?name=Lxuisa
My Nohari Window: http://kevan.org/nohari?name=Lxuisa
I know I'll have more people doing the Nohari. =/
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Ervin said I was humourless. Haha. But it's okay, 'cause I'm quite humourless to people who I don't really know. ;D
Hahaha. Oh well. I'm prepared to see really horrible stuff on the Nohari anyway, 'cause people have got bad impressions of me.
Carry your heart in mine
Friday, March 24, 2006
Randomness with Msn nicks.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Silly girlayes.
Well school started off weirdly, there was no assembly even though I thought there would be assembly because it wasn't really raining from what I could see from the interior of my classroom. Lessons usually start at 7.45am and the teacher normally comes in late, so start late, end early. But my chinese teacher, my god, and I'm talking about the trainee. She came in 16 minutes earlier and was clad in totally pink. Like my god la! We were laughing our heads off that she already looked like a pig, and the whole pink outfit made it even worse, like she's really a pig as an occupation. Lol.
Erica and I were slacking and talking rubbish the entire lesson, and I don't know why but she (the trainee teacher) loves pinpointing us, because she happens to remember both our names pretty well, and her first impression of Erica was bad. Hahaha, the first lesson Erica was sleeping and the second lesson Erica was eating sweets and lollipops non-stop. Haha. Yeah, and she keeps picking on Alanna too, and hit Alanna's head with her worksheets today.
Double Lit! Song En, Darren and Zihui were busy insulting our co-form teacher and the chinese trainee teacher, hahaha, we laughed like mad. Mel and I have our lit assignment due tomorrow, I've done my part, but Mel has no computer at home, and she refused to stay back today to do it in the library, so I don't know whether, we should just pass up my portion of the character analysis.
Double History! (: Mr Chia was so funny. Heh heh. 3/7 history students want Mr Chia as form teacher next year!
The rest of the day was boring, although we did the cheap version of the Johari window on paper. -_- Therefore it's the 'cheap version'. Lina and Song En just asked me to do their Johari windows on the net. Hahaha. Oh yeah, my group was Glande, Jiayun, Erica and Melissa! They were so cute! Glande was matter-of-factly saying she is fat and short! Silly girl. ;D Never got to talk to Jiayun much but when I talked to her today she was so amusing! Hahaha, another silly girl. We were writing each other's blind area and Erica's view of me was super funny, and she added some extra thing which I cancelled away after Hiew said he was going to check it! Yikes. Lol. Then Erica started drawing retarded smilies and pig faces. Erh. Hahaha.
Went for Math Remedial! Haha, Mel was drawing ninja turtles on Jolene's table, I think Jolene will freak tomorrow. Hohoho. =D
Well, sorry for my boring post. I don't feel like writing tonight. (:
You count the hours before you see me again
#1136
You've got a really sweet smile dee.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Happiness captured in a bottle.
My grin is wider than a pervert right now. Hahaha, I'm really going mad. I need to revise for my Math. I like the new buddy system for Math 'cause I'm with Erica!
Skye Sweetnam - Just the Way I Am
The original
I'm sly
Unpredictable
I'm nearly irresistible
And I don't even try
I'm easily excitable
Completely undeniable
And sometimes
Unreliable
Don't ask me why
Don't ask me why
I'm strange and I like it
That's just the way I am
I can't change I can't hide it
That's just the way I am
You might as well get over it
Don't try to understand
I'm strange and I like it
Just the way I am
From a whisper to a shout
I'm what the buzz is all about
Everybody buggin' out
And I've only just begun
They can't rain on my parade
I'm sunshine on a cloudy day
Make lemons into lemonade
I'm just havin' fun
I'm havin' fun
Cheesebuns
School really rocks when you're awake and not struggling to stay awake. I enjoyed school today, except for the Target Setting period (assembly) that Song En was interrogating me about Timothy.
Triple Lit was frickin' fun. :D How can you hate it! I'm doing Macbeth and Macduff's character analysis with Melissa. Haha, we had to vie for it!
My lovely daddy gave me a lift home, and I saw MichelleQ, Rachel, Cindy, Zhenru, Alanna, Xinyi walking out of school near the flats, hurhur.