my family and i at uncle s.e's house. :)) 

paternal side - grandchildren and great grandchildren. i'm the last grandchild okay. not part of the great grands.. haha 

(from left to right) my nieces & nephew. wei hertz, weiting, joanna and nicola. ((: w.h is totally adorable!  

quote joel` this is what happens when you play too much hip hop gong xi fa cai.  

`dong dong qiangg
.
oh my god. there's this lion dance troupe or something going around my house area... outside. and it's SO annoying. woke me a billion times this morning and i'm feel so tired now. wah lao. still making noise noww. i'm fainting. yep.

`dies. faints. pukes.
oh forget it. TSK. it's not going to change the fact that they're still there.

`old people are monstrosities,

raise your hands if you agree with me.`

-raises both hands like in surrender-

.

i'm mad, crazy, in search of nonsensical people [like lynette]

.

pah. am now at home. tonight there's gonna be a 'party' at my house? yeah

some popiah dinner thingy. woot. all my favourite aunts and uncles are coming [mother's side, basically.]

my favourite cousins too!

i love joel

i love jonathan

i love gerald

i love cheryl

i love bernice

i love abigail.

i dislike benjamin.

. rwahhs .

i know clarissa will comment on how mean i am on the benjamin part. tsk.

he has always been m.i.a in everything laas. so anyway, erg.

i'm so bored.

people say i'm negative, agressive, fierce.

no laas. i mean, at times ya, but i'm a pretty happy person la,

unless -narrows eyes for effect-

you incur my wrath.. hahas. NO!

i'm not that mean.

i'm a nice person and all.

-waves at invisible crowd-

but i've got to still add that -at times only and to chosen people yaas.

i don't exactly like wasting my breath on people whom i don't really like to talk to.

on the phone, i only talk on the phone with people whom i actually am nice to, which are the selected few la.

heard that?

for others, if you happen to call me, and happen to notice that i always seem to be busy everytime,

it's not cause i'm busy. but i don't welcome your chatter. i'm mad. but i don't do that often la. except to really, really annoying people yaa?

pardon mee, i'm mad. so happy yet so negative and ALONE. tsk tsk tsk.

pitiful me, cheryl's eating. no one to accompany my boring self. yawn

i think i'm going to sit back and relax the whole day.

yupyup...

.

`old people are still monstrosities.

-raises both hands and legs in agreement-

hahahahaahahahahahahahaha

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.

.

i'm such a lamer.

.

.

.

.

.

out.

you know, new year actually kinda sucks for me.
it's so boring. please.
and the worst thing is, when we go from house to house,
you've got to plaster a more-than-fake smile on your face
and pretend you're happily receiving red packets.
i do not like to be hypocritical but still, i had to do what's above.
erg. don't remind me, i was pulling a long face every other time i wasn't
receiving anything or shaking anyone's hands. life was so sucky.
i was the FRIGGIN' photographer - literally. i had to use the
cam to take pics of all the families 'cause my dad wanted all the other
families pictures. like that is so UNimportant. i was super pissed and when
i told my dad politely that i didn't wanna take, he flared and like scolded me, which
is totally equivalent to embarrassing me in public. thanks a lot.
i'm currently feeling SO frustrated with myself and everyone else.
---
at night, i went to cheryl's house. that was the only place i wasn't really
pulling a long face 'cause i was quite happy there, cheryl was annoying me
to ashes 'cause she kept wanting to watch tv. like the whole family there was watching
american idol after dinner - how pointless. seriously. i felt so hopeless! so
in the end, i stayed in cheryl's rm with bernice and abigail playing some
game and chatted on my phone. yes, yes, i know that's rude and all but still,
i had to talk to someone. i was bursting. anyway, turned out,
both of us were pissed at our moms. hahas. [dad only pissed me once. mom pissed
me infinity] unfortunately, we were meanly bitching about parents and -sigh-
i felt better later. then i chatted with cheryl on the bed after she finally decided she
didn't want to watch a.i hor? hahahahahahas. -lays off- okayokay!
---
bored outt. erg.erg.erg.erg. i think i'm going nuts from having nothing to do. no
one's online. everyone's kinda pissing me off and i feel so screwed up. ye-aaww-ouch!
i was thinking A LOT today and observing people too [i'm not a pervert okaes.] i was thinking
about olgc times and how mean i was last time. my clique was like full of nice but also mean people but actually, we're all quite sadly, hypocritical .. towards each other? at times yaas? that's what you get when few bitchy people becomes good friends. -hint hint- you get my point. pah :)) but i love them no matter whadds! muack. but olgc rocks anyway.. heh. then i also thought about my kindergarten [long time ago!] and i realise how similar both schools are. i was brought up in a presbyterian kindergarten and catholic primary school. nice. but now i'm in a secondary school that is in my mind, a dump for those who couldn't-make-it. i somehow wished i went back to sjc. it's english, it's a nice place to call your 'home' and you get what i mean? now, i feel embarrassed when i wear the stupid deyi uniform to orchard. it's so ugly and i look half like a janitor. yeah. erg. and next time after the o's, we've gotta wear our sch u's to the jc/i, i feel so grossed out and those my-kind peeps won't mix with me, because of my sec sch. look how secondary schools make a difference. so i made up my mind, i'm gonna buy an sjc uniform!! the whole set. anyway, i got the chij look. it's okay! hahaha -buay hiao bai- and not to mention, the ij accent. it's our trademark.
olgc rocks.
`nothing to change that. :))

ay ay ay, i blogged the jamm gang blog.

ahahahahahahahaha.

you know, this sounds so bitchified la

but seriously,

i realise i've gotta wait for my 'bogay' teeth to be alright

before i cann take any pictures or neoprints.

thanks alot sgh for plucking out my teeth

i'm so gonna look so ugly for new year?

ahahaha.

planetshakers.big
My God is big
So strong so mighty
-
My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
My God is big
So strong so mighty
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand
-
My God is Big
So Strong so mighty
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
There's nothing my God cannot do

oooh. whadd a nice day. woot.

went to school for new year celebration

the dances they put up were so great.

and personally, i love the indian cultural club! hahas.

i liked the performances by the teachers [spasm!!], the malaya, the graduated malay dance group that is so totally cool and also the indian cultural club la.

hahahahahahahaha.

hyper hyper hyper.

I'M HYPER! who can tame me?

so after school, i went heartland mall with jasmine, rachel and nurul.

we were meditating there on the benches 'cause all the shops were closed!

we were supposed to eat pizza hut then it was opening at 11 and we were there at 10.

gosh. we waited a while then decided to kill time by taking silly neoprints. haha.

then okay, we went kfc to eat lunch 'cause we waited so long, we nearly starved to death.

after that, i took train with nurul to dhoby ghaut then change train to orchard. she took all the way to woodlands to meet her dad. so i met cheryl at orchard. i totally love her! aha! we went everywhere. i bought quite a lot of stuff. we chatted loadds and then we walked around aimlessly and i was feeling quite tired. heh. we went to coffee bean and drank white chocolate dream. yumms. we saw ronald with his mum, he looked loads different la, so at first we couldn't recognize him. we can bet 99% he saw us but obviously ignored us la. haha. fyne. then we sat down and chatted loadds again and drinking yaas. after that, shopped more.. hahas. we walked to far east yah. wasted time there but looked at lots of stuff laa. then when we met jeremy, ernest, nicholas and ian. aye. we were walking towards the 'down' escalator, they came up. coincidental. tsk-tsk. ahahahahahaha. ernest cut his hair.. looks even more like a small boy, haha. okay. after that we headed home 'cause cheryl needed to go for reunion dinner at jumbo restaurant -jealous- which is in the middle of both our houses la. we spent an hour chatting about her k.w and k.o friend and even at the interchange waiting for bus so i think we chatted SO much. omg. at the interchange, she was so mortified and grossed out and traumatized by this old man, who sat down and like didn't wear underwear. gosh. i didn't see anything though. she saw EVERYTHING. like yuckks. stupid old man, not enough money to buy underwear i give you la! it's like pollution to our eyes. [imagines whadd jinghan, jeralyn and michelle would do when they read this]. so went home yupp. tried on class jersey. oh yeah! we just got our jerseys. woohoos. fbt. ahhs. it's nice but it's a little on the big side and it's the smallest size so sigh. but it's really NICE. it says : LOUISA - 03. the number's according to index number and i feel quite funny 'cause in soccer or anything, there's no number after 23/24? right. and my class has forty peeps. jasmine was commenting she's the goalkeeper.. hahahas. :))

while walking back, saw siak hui at my house. he was so annoying canns. covering his face with his plastic bag. TSK.

-smackk-

gotta go eat reunion dinner at seven.. woot.

ciaoo.

the year of the rooster
pok pok kairr.
omg, whadd am i doing? embarassing myself in public. hoho.
i'm still on a HiGH.
always high.
-agrees with michelle- skip, skip away.
*kisses my troubles away. :))
it is that sense of self-satisfaction
ilovemylife.

it's the happiest day of my life! :))

i'm gonna scream myself hoarse! i've found myself back! -hugs herself- really, really!

i had so much fun, trust me. my fun level is totally brimming and overflowing despite my maths test results. tsk-tsk. okay, let's talk about maths now - the bad news. mr johari sucks, seriously, i failed my maths test, badly. liyan failed too. i'm so peeved, not with my results or myself, but mr jo, his teaching skills/style is so bad, i'm speechless. firstly, i never ever failed any of my maths test since primary five and the only one i failed was the topic i didn't understand. he is rewarding those with good results and good improvement and you know what, he's using candy and stickers. i felt SO insulted. we are secondary two not primary three and below. thank you. tsk. he's the new teacher and hod for maths - talk about a lousy teacher. he is making people think we do well for our tests to get stupid cheap sweets that we've never seen before, not because they're rare but 'cause they're those chinese-y and weird tasting sweets that are the size of erasers and taste horrible. i know where he probably got them. i saw them sold at two shops in ang mo kio central. oh yes it is from there. definitely. -smacks hand on table for effect- so in conclusion - mr jo sucks to the core. miss chan is ten times better.

i've got this feeling that during sec one they purposely gave all the good teachers so that you won't transfer out then secondary two, you get all the lousy teachers. so pissifying. erg.

*

let's go to the happy part noww. miss chan was being such a joker today. haha. she dressed like a bush - rwahhahahass. she wore this black plain top and dark green 'jeans'. it was quite funny but she dresses quite well basically. ah, okay. -fast forward to the fun part- today after school, we celebrated lin lao shi's birthday. her b'day's tomorrow. heh. cool. jasmine, hwee en, michelle and i were holding her back from going home while the others went to buy the necessary products for the party heh. so rachel was the so called lurer. smsed lin lao shi saying she wanted to talk to her and blahdy blah. lin l.s really thought it was serious. it really did sound serious anyway, that's the point! haha. so we had this flour thing. got her caked with flour and whoever else around caked too but i was the only one flourless. skills man! hahahas. okay, after that we went to fix our chingay costumes. so annoying, my costume - mask and vest- were in perfect condition but i still had to stay back to fix other people's costume. tsk. hahas. -brag- talk about sl standard. haha. no la, just kidding. liyana and shikin were coming late so, wen theng and i were unfortunately left in charge of the whole section. we were making a whole lot of noise outside. screaming and whatever else. later after everyone was leaving [without permission mind you]. we sent the masks for checking - failed 'cause we didn't know must tape all the masks. tsk. so that's what the thick tape i bought was for. so we taped it then we passed. woots. we quickly grabbed our bags and left the room, in hope of yingmei not checking the masks and calling us back to fix the spoilt ones. hahas. okay then was wondering whether to meet my girlfriend [not a church person, thank you] , but in the end, I tossed her aside and went home. haha. so here i am ... happily writing this post. okay. done about band and school.

*

about me finding myself back. heh

i totallie did today, i realised. i love my usual self. in school, i'm no more the "almost-rebecca". i'm not quiet anymore, i'm not prim and proper. call me the fallen councillor. thankss! i've stop being the stupid pair of goody-two-shoes. i've opened myself up, i've become my usual 'in-church- self.

i dance around, i sing, i scream, i jump around, hop to class, it's almost like the joy of the lord. maybe the joy of freedom ay? cool. i'm back to insulting people or annoying people haha, being mischievous and not to mention, childish yet matured. ahh. that's the word.. hahaha! i was insulting ray today during the fixing of costumes. he had five girls against him. definitely he'll lose. he was like so lame. let me show you whadd we say. it was beyond spasm!

ray : i feel raped.

lou : like who wants to rape you?

ray : you la!

lou : who wants to rape you? excuse me, you're so not my type.

bei yu : yee, then you go for which kind.

lou : oh i'm not gonna explain. hahas.

steph : -laughs helplessly-

wen theng : ray, don't try to quarrel with four girls la, you're so definitely gonna lose.

lou : ya, like precisely. tsk tsk.

--

steph asks a question and ray starts blabbering away.

steph : ray, will you shut up? i wasn't asking you.

lou : hey, that's a good one -rolls on floor in laughter-

bei yu : -laughs with pained expression-

lou : ray, i think you need companionship is it? you like to answer even though no one's asking you anything.

steph : -laughs- ya lorh.

--

during science lesson, it was really funny. mr wong was talking about how poisonous iodine solution was, blah. jasmine and i were talking super lame 'cause it was boring.

louisa : he said 'don't drink iodine, you will die', haha, imagine if we drank iodine, we'll all be blue in colour.

jas : -laughs so loudly-

louisa : he's so lame. hahahahahaha.

jas : all of us will be smurfs.

louisa : -gets the joke after two seconds and collapses with laughter-

oh that's a good one!

jasmine : -laughs loudly, madly and with a pained expression-

mr wong : -laughs along at imaginary joke- what's so funny.

--

lame. you cann tell how happy i am. i blogged SO much. rwahhhahahahahahahas.

i'm mee. finally!

LOUISA'S BACK!

okay. was feeling so bored just now that couldn't bring myself to blog anything. -sigh- i was practicing my piano just now and my mom so like chased me away. tsk. who's the one who wants me to pass my piano exam? HER! okay okay. enough about her. ay. i saw my band senior today! lydia!!! ahahas. she was dressed so adorably so young looking aha! gee. i'm so mad today. she called my name then i turned la [duh] then she waved. she's so sweet! :)) she's the nicest saxophonist canns.... woot. okay. er, nothing much to post today 'cause the day was super drab la. i was dying of unamusement and boredom ...
I am SO unamused with myself.
tsk.

okay. was feeling so bored just now that couldn't bring myself to blog anything. -sigh- i was practicing my piano just now and my mom so like chased me away. tsk. who's the one who wants me to pass my piano exam? HER! okay okay. enough about her. ay. i saw my band senior today! lydia!!! ahahas. she was dressed so adorably so young looking aha! gee. i'm so mad today. she called my name then i turned la [duh] then she waved. she's so sweet! :)) she's the nicest saxophonist canns.... woot. okay. er, nothing much to post today 'cause the day was super drab la. i was dying of unamusement and boredom ...

I am SO unamused with myself.

tsk.

kutless.seaoffaces
I see the city lights all around me
Everyone's obscure
Ten million people each with their problems
Why should anyone care?

And in your eyes I can see...

I am not just a man vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Sometimes my life it feels so trivial
Immersed in the greatness of space
Yet somehow You still find the time for me
It's then You show me Your love

And in your eyes I can see...
And in your arms I will be...

I am not just a man vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

If only my one heart
Was all You'd gain from all it cost
Well I know You would have
Still been a man with a reason
To willingly offer your life

I am not just a man vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Just one in a million faces

my computer cd player's making a weird sound. omg, please don't spoil at a time like this.

oh yeah. my blog is so screwed up, erg. like half of my links after pamela is gone. i just filled up phyllis's link. erg. my events are all gone. credits too. yughh. i'm not gonna type them back. so annoyed to the maximum. hey jeralyn, you aren't blogging the other blog.. tsk! =)

`you will never be replacedd girl!! =)

not by a boy especially. thank you!

*

tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.

bad hair day

bad day

bored to tears -sigh- as usual right? okay, so after church i went to have piano lesson - yah yah. so boring. i was choosing my third piece lar. got it! it's called impromptu. heh. i nearly chose this by chopin.. but it was really long and boring. something like a waltz [eh? it's a polonaise!] but please, everytime i go for exams, i try to get out of the room asap. play a five minutes song? no way! C pieces are always such pains in the butts. tsk.

i don't know why people want to learn piano. yes, i know. i love music too but i don't really like the piano, it's such a common instrument - so typical, so boring. haha. i wanna go practice my piano noww. haha. like since when did i start practicing the piano.. heh.

oh crap laas. i haven't done my maths and science homework.

sigh!

i wish i ain't going school tomorrow.

maybe i cann escape stupid mr jo and mrs lim. gee.

`confused.convinced.confirmed?

saw this on some guy's shirt in far east. hahas.

observant ain't I?

today band was really fun.

we did chingay at the start.

then later the percussionists went up to the band room

while the rest of the band learnt the gimmicks for

the school opening. yeah!

i was in ensemble, together with :

beiyu ;

jasmine ;

shital ;

sindiya ;

ray.

we learnt the sax orientale and moonlight kungfu song.

the moonlight kungfu was so cute!

it's a bell solo and you know whadd?

it sounds just like nippon minyo. bwahhs.

so jasmine, beiyu and I kept getting mixed up.

the band's gimmicks are soo adorable!

they were dancing aroundd canns.

*applause

it was quite funny lar. but think about it,

it's really cool when a group of people do lame stuff together.

haha. i'm not saying their dance is lame!

okay maybe it is a little.. haha. -looks around and hides face-

so now the moonlight kungfu thing is done!

the gimmicks, the drumline, the solo, all put together!

woot. okay! gotta runn now. heh.

*

i love hwee en ;

i love rachel ;

i love beiyu ;

i love peishan ;

i love erica ;

i love jasmine ;

i love nurul ;

i love wen theng!

this is the clique i do stuff with.. haha.

they're such nice people!

[except when they turn nasty... hahahahaha.]

:))
quote qiuling `lurrve loadds.

quote jeralyn`

pissifying piece of shit.

i feel like smacking THAT person's face.

she is a girl with a big attitude problem

not to mention, she so cheesed me off.

i controlled myself so hard.

i could've just slapped her across the face or something.

like just because i don't say anything doesn't mean

i'm okay about it.

sometimes when i say don't push your luck too far,

i really mean it.

if you're trying to test my patience,

it's fine here.

you're most welcome in fact.

i repeat again -

she is such a pissifying piece of crap.

oh that's too nice. fine

she is such a pissifying piece of shit.

whadd rubbish.

-snort-

03022005

band was incredibly shiok and tiring today! it really made me feel really good. we went through very intensive training today and -phew!- it was pure torture for all of us. the whole band was getting push ups everytime. i think in total we did about 80-100 male push-ups. oh goshh. excos were the most severely punished and next, the ncos. we did marching and they really killed us then. anyone out of timing ; turn wrong side etc, the whole band will get it. trust mee, we were rather frightened. so at the end of the band practice, they didn't punish the band and ncos (double) 'cause they felt that we went through much more during the practice. they also commented that everyone was so shag-faced and dead looking throughout the later part of the practice - formations! the 'torture' was worse than syf training. now when i think back on the syf and all the sweat we've given to training for it, i don't regret it. it is just that self-accomplishment leaves you feeling really 'full' in your self-esteem(?) that you feel so good about it after all the horrible training that you wanna go for it again. it is just that sense of unity in the section and band. truthfully, i kinda missed it. you get it from nowhere else. i remember the runs at the mrt tracks, seven-ten rounds without stopping. 450m each, the cheering before meals, all the running, all the sweat, all the pain, all the casualties, all the marching, all the cheering during physical training, all the fun we've had laughing at each other, all the honour we felt when our school watched us do our entire syf performance in the field. all these, are such precious memories. our friendships made in the section/band are rather strong because of all these. in my section, no one's sexist and everybody drinks from the same bottle (if they've finished theirs). this is just so, so true.

this is what a good team is supposed to be like.

`pride, honour, discipline

-the percussion motto-

`excerpt

-ashlee simpson.shadow-

living in the shadow of someone else's dream

trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me

living in a nightmare, a never-ending sleep

but now that I am wide awake, then I can finally see

don't feel sorry for me

Looks are so Beautiful written by jamin
I wonder why I judge myself shy,
Looking at others feeling I could die.
Unsure of why I feel so inferior,
Exterior aside flaws of my interior.

I wonder why I stretch others skins,
Irritation of patience pull out so thin.
Unknown reasons why people shunt me,
is it how I look or is it just me.

Wishing I could put this nonsense aside,
the rules of beauty I refuse to abide.
Yet this world is bound to their eyes,
whatever is pleasing whatever is fine.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
a man who looks inside is the man who's bolder.
Sayings of a worldly dreamer,
No man is perfect but we have God the Redeemer.

Maquerade! Paper faces on parade

Masquerade! Hide your face so the world will never find you

Masquerade! Every face a different shade

Masquerade! Look around, there's another mask behind you.

Flash of mauve, Splash of puce

Fool and king, Ghoul and goose

Green and black, Queen and priest

Trace of rouge, Face of beast

Faces!

Take your turn, take a ride

On the merry-go-roundin an inhuman race

Eye of gold, Thigh of blue

True is false, Who is who?

Curl of lip, Swirl of gown

Ace of hearts, Face of clown

Faces!

Drink it in, drink it up

Till you've drowned

In the light, In the sound

But who can name the face?

*

Masquerade! Grinning yellows, spinning reds

Masquerade! Take your fill, let the spectacle astound you

Masquerade! Burning glances, turning heads

Masquerade! Stop and stare at the sea of smiles around you

Masquerade! Seething shadows breathing lies

Masquerade! You can fool any friend who ever knew you

Masquerade! Leering satyrs, peering eyes

Masquerade! Run and hide, but a face will still pursue you.

phantom of the opera.masquerade :))

*

well. i'm feeling sour, bitten, cheesed off and quite frustrated.

tsk. frown at how ungodly i am. whatever. diew.

okay let's go on the more happy things yaa?

school was great today.

jasmine came to school late at 9 'cause she went

for the first braces checkup. [that means not confirmed

going for braces with sgh. ahh.]

okay. so she came during english period and we were doing

our fairytale letter writing competition - if that's whadd you call it.

it's kinda lame and i so like written the whole letter myself with tips

from dearest rachel yesterday and hwee en and jasmine were just

fooling around .. but they were making mee laugh - so i don't mind. heh. ((:

so it was presentation today. we stuck our decorated mahjong paper on the wall

then we had the 'gallery walk' [miss chan calls it that, so lame!]

after school, i went to kfc with jasmine to eat lunch. yumms.

then we took the same bus and headed home.

we were soo complaining on the bus.

talk about fussy & bitchy.

lemme ask you a question :

would you rather be well-liked or well-known?

i chose well-liked.

~

I don't care what people will say

I'm running after You

I won't turn back and go their way

'Cause I’m running after You

`running after you.planetshakers

stuck with ms piss-me-exasperated in the room. i was so happy after school today. heh. oh godd. i carnt be bothered to blog already. my sis is driving mee nuts 'cause she said i like to tell the whole world about my life through the blog. I mean that's true. but i carnt help it, i'm bored to bits and this is for my close friends to read, who told you to go read it.. diew.
FYNE. i don't wanna blog no more..
maybe a little
bwahaha.

i'm mortified by my sister.
she has to do everything to either embarass me, piss me off or just drive me nuts.
as usual. -shakes head in resignation-
yawn.
i'm desperate - think again.
so sorry ar, don't use that word on mee.
i mean, my sister used it on me and last night
she totally pissed me off beyond pissification-ness.
she asked mee to do her rubbish then later asked
someone else to do it, what a waste of my effort!
And not to mention she was sarcastically saying/insulting me
that i was so unhelpful and all. diew. -exasperated-
whatever, i've got my own life.
-sigh- i always feel like telling the whole world to piss off
maybe I should do so myself.
-rolls eyes-

bountiful, bountiful, bountiful.

today is my most fruitful day ever in my history of going out with friends ever! i totally love jeralyn although we sinfully spent loadds of money. heh. let me tell you about the not-so-happy thing first. today, school was kinda fun and I spent half my day laughing my head off or literally rolling on the floor in lame laughter at jonathan, jasmine and ervin's jokes. bwahaha! heh. one of my best days ever! history was so totally boring today, erg. mrs lim was teaching the lesson with those powerpoint slides and you know what, she was so lamely talking to the wall. it was so obvious the whole class can't be bothered to listen to her chatter. the whole class was busy entertaining themselves, chatting away, cutting and sticking their history notes and some, even singing and I was lying on the table, falling asleep. mind you, i do not sleep in lessons, but i just lie on my table with a constipated frown plastered on my face and will be just dreaming away. i shan't talk about the more than agonizing but amusing thing that happened today, bwahhs, it so became my fault even though technically it wasn't la. i don't mind la, i get blamed. people side me anyway.

`little things don't put me down and [little peopledon't put me down too.]

whadd a crybaby, sorry to say. i was too but I've changed already so i believe you can change it!

okay! lemme talk about after school! i left school with jasmine and we walked slowly to the bus stop and waited with jasmine until her bus came. heh. then i went to the mrt and went to meet jeralyn at tp. she was late canns but it was okay la. i waiting for 'bout 8-10 minutes and duh, there was j.k.ps. Oh yarh!! at amk mrt, this disgusting old man so brushed his shoulder against my shoulder SO hard and it was on the escalator, he walked past. it is so totally ergifying and mortifying. he is suchh a true j.k.p (jikopei). the escalator's so wide, he has to brush against me meh?! PERVERT. okay, backk to the story.

jeralyn and i dropped off at orchard and we hung around in wisma and bought quite a lot of stuff. she bought 2 topshop tops [i wanted to buy too but the colour i wanted didn't have my size ..but smaller.. boohoo.] then we went to ig's heaven, oh man, that is one horrid place to go. we were feeling quite disturbed by those dolls. they really looked like voodoo dolls, you gedd whadd i mean? erg. the rest of the things are fine la. we both bought some bag and one box of cute stuff and I also bought a blackk pouch. quite cute and super super cheap. heh! cheapo freakks = jeralyn and mee. bwahahahass!

after that, we went precious thots and jeralyn spent a million years looking for her friend's present. she is like giving valentine's day presents..to girls. she always makes me so pressurized to go buy things. ((: mwahhs. it's some closing down sale and everything is like shupper cheap canns. oh, and jeralyn bought this prince doll at five buckks so adorable! but i prefer the soldier/warrior. CUTER. so after that we were talking about skirts, and we came to the subject of --. we were like so bitching on the way to bugis laa. heh. we were feeling extra turned off by the skirt conflict.

immature, copycat, gross, inoriginal, desperate, typical herself

whadd can i say to describe her?

ERG. like have some integrity please? -gawk-

so we went to bugis and checked out loadds of stuff and of course, bought loads of stuff too! woots. in total, i spent about $40. and I boughtt ... *drumrolll*

`one racer back tank top

`one blue bag

`one black pouch

`one wallet

`three pairs of earrings.

*

oh yeah! i didn't talk about one pair of the earrings I bought. I so got tricked into buying this earring pouch, i feel like killing the sales girl can. she asked if i wanted a pouch .. i said yes 'cause she so totally didn't give me a plastic bag and i had to pay a dollar for it! jeralyn also had to, 'cause she bought a necklace and she so forgot to tell mee loes.. ergg. i felt so cheated. fyne fyne fyne...

whoaa so tired now. am gonna buzz now. =) [not sleep larr]

cheryl's post on friday was one smacking good post. seriously. it was 'touching' in a way and really really full of depth. i never knew she could write that well. i mean, she can write real well but not to this extent of emotional talk and all. what can i say but applaud her. it is really so moving yet so true. i agree with her 'emotional' talk too. it is so good mans. i feel quite miserable too -looks at cheryl and frowns- same here. hey, cheer up! same parents, same genes, same torture, same kind of mortification for us. right?

-sigh-

my mom is kinda driving me nuts day by day and i really, really don't wanna shout at her or scream at her. nowadays, i've learnt to control myself from doing all these not-honouring-your-parents stuff. i learnt to shout/scream less and think positively like that she is scolding me because she loves me or something along that line.

sigh.sigh.sigh

this is just so saddening. i feel so lonely at times.

so lonely, i can cry.

but i enjoy my solitude at times, though.

well, sometimes, i really, really feel like i've got no friends,

i'm anti-social,

i suck at my social skills,

and people think i'm some ill-bred,

proud, boastful, gossipy [er, ok, maybe that's true.]

BRAT.

and I hate it when people start spread it around when they don't even know me as I am yet. all they've heard is just rumours and rumours and rumours with no basis at all. i don't have much rumours in sch going around 'cause i don't really talk much so i'm not quite a bitch there. i used to have them though in primary school and you know whadd? both of us were best friends but friendly-ly spreading gossips about each other. call us best friends. pah.

but it's weird. we can talk to each other (and insult celine. bwahhss!) really well still even though we've gone off to our own separate ways. quite cool actually. i mean, she's a nice girl and all but she's a bitch too. if you don't know her she will be a stone cold object to you. and to tell you the truth, she's colder than mee. brr. -shiver-

okay!

i've been thinking alot today ('cause i had a lot of free time)

somebody has been chiding me, so subtly. but i take it so badly.

i think i suck.

seriously.

if you think i'm gonna defend myself against your insults,

nope, i'm not gonna try.

it's just about me putting myself in other's shoes

and what would jesus do..

i feel so hurt at times, i mean not because of what 'it' said.

i try so hard.

it's working.

but these little things can ruin everything.

-sob-

oh forget it, you're not gonna understand.

i understand the pain of cheryl.

cheryl,

i feel it too.

quote zeslene`we've never felt so, so alone, we are?

yesterday

a good day perhaps

i carnt really say anything can I?

-shrug-

it was exhausting though [as usual]

morning sucked la

the lessons were taking donkey years to pass

and not to mention the lessons were super boring

erg.

after school, we all dumped our mobiles and wallets in our lockers

then we rushed to the band room to have warm up for the lunchtime concert

it's the launch of this new thing on every last friday of the month

and the band is opening it, woot.

we were so stressed out!

we had to move all the percussion insts to the quad

and the band rm is like on the 4th floor!

-flabbergasted-

the timpanis were killing the 'manpower'.

in the end, they didn't bring down the concert bass drum 'cause it was so

heavy and waste of time 'cause we could use the marching one.

so we did.

i carried my bell stand & the concert snare stand

omigod, the snare stand is like twice the weight of the snare itself

ugh.

during the performance, the marching part of it, i so messed up the first part

'can't take my eyes off you', i mean, i forgot how to play ... heh. but i got

back on track after that anywayy. =p after the marching, we sat down and played

three pieces. then the next item came in -

the 5/2 jazz band

thasnim was singing!! and shikin was playing the jazz set!!!

oooh! all from band! i mean the two other guys aren't from band la. heh

after the whole concert, i went to jasmine's house

we bathed then went to some foodcourt and ate dinner then went back to her

house and her dad fetched both of us to suntec.

in the end, the singapore conference hall wasn't at suntec but at

tanjong pagar. whadd a joke! queena gave us wrong directions. roar.

so jasmine and i took the train to tanjong pagar then we saw shahidah

[is it spelt like this?]

then walk together there lo. we were in sch skirt and class tee canns.

so ugly!

but we didn't mind la, we were dying of exhaustion already.

so the concert was quite okay - like whadd cann i say right?

-shrugs-

after that jas's dad fetched mee home. actuallie i wanted to take

train instead 'cause i'll reach home faster. hrmm.

`

today I gotta go to school from 1pm - 11pm 'cause there's gonna

be the chingay media preview tonight at 7pm. gotta have warmups,

a few rounds in our band uniforms and the dumbb vest & face mask.

it's gotta be so sweltering hot and i'm gonna bee so hungry, just like ernie.

ergg.

so dying already. *faint

i dunn wanna go and I'm probably the only person with the vest without

the maskss besides those who hasn't gotten their vests. yupps. i wana sleep.

*yawn

`

^press your belly button to self-destruct ...

ahh. fascinating. *wink

-yawn- feeling quite tired today. actually, i might as well say everyday 'cause i'm saying it everyday! heh. so bored out. there was band today. quite relaxed. we did music and two rounds of chingay parade for tomorrow's lunchtime concert. woots. budd it was so last minute. tomorrow i've also got to go for boon lay band concert. i'm so gonna fall asleep halfway. ergg. well, i'm too tired to blog much today. so tired. yuck yuck yuck. `madd

yesterday i didn't blog about the auditions specifically rights. i'm not planning to really you know, go in on all the details. hmm. for percussion, a whole load of kids, abt twenty wanted to join percussion and the lower brasses - empty! lol. to think that during the cca orientation, for the band booth, the percussion side of the booth was always empty but i think shikin impressed them with her skills huh? and she is a girl and the best jazz set player in the section and the drum majorette too. talk abt great! we split the sec ones into groups of 6-10 then 'auditioned' them. there were few good ones and the rest were lousy canns. -puke- i admit my strokes aren't that good. but last year there wasn't even audition, all the leftovers go to ensemble which includes me. ergifying. but seems like percussion is always the section that is the most difficult to enter. hee. there's one malay guy that is really good while i got a few girls which totally sucked. they refused to play 'cause they said they were scared and lousy. yes they are! why bother trying the insts when you're not gonna try it.. -yawn- when they finally did, they still sucked so it didn't make any difference. some were really keen to join the section but their strokes really sucked so i didn't have a choice but to fail them. oopsie. =p well it's fun having a little authority now. but you also get scolding at times laa. so not that gd anyways. today was such a boring day... ergifying. missed councillor meeting 'cause i got piano lesson. my first piece so sucked and ms koh was on the verge of killing mee in a fun way la. got ting xie, lit test and etc tomorrow. gotta study man!! -whistles- okay. i'm going off noww. bye

hillsongs.free
would you believe me if i said
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today
would you believe me if i said
that all of your dreams in your heart
can come true today
`
would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that you want it to be.
today
`
and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
JESUS.. because of You.. i'm FREE
`
would you believe me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said
that you dont need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith
would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE
for God..
`
just live your life with God inside
you wont regret one moment of it
and give all that you can for God... for God
`
you know, i really love this song so much. it's like so true! LOVE IT! =) today had first band prac with the sec ones.. only sls and excos were supposed to come. the rest were just plain insignificant loe. but anyway, it was good laa? okay! gtg noww. -tired- byee!

hmm. am listening to some christian cd that's already in my cd player. -yawn- i'm so friggin' tired out. still stuck with my dumb total defence poster and english mindmap - actually i've finished the mindmap on storm. hee. the poster - ha! i know if i don't pass up tomorrow, mrs lim will so freak and start trying to make you feel guilty, as usual. i was just looking at phyllis's friendster pics. they're so adorable! esp. the neos of her and michelle. So sweet. they're like twiins! gee. just approved my testimonials too! i carnt stand it, do I really sound like lynette? -resigned frown- stacey, ernest, eric kong and etc. so said i sounded like lynette inclusive of actions. erg! i'm so losing myself!!! grr. =p you know i'm really getting to the limits by my mom, she is so annoying, it's not about me and my transition period okay? she spends her time insulting me whenever she's at home. i just dislike coming home now despite how tired i am, only when she's at home. it's like i thank god i have band and councillor meetings and all. i just really feel like i'm losing it at times. i wanna go out, have fun, forget about studying and all. it's just too stressful. whenever i speak the truth, my mom says i never say anything nice. that is so fine for me. she just expects me to be hypocritical right, or even a reflection of herself. i'm sorry man, i can't do that. tsk. i really am resigning to my cruel fate. -sigh-

`reality really bites man

i'm feeling so, so bushed.

went out today after school with ernie and jeralyn

we met at tp after school.

i spent my day talking so muchh rubbish

just to get the conversation going. erg.

we walked ard orchard/far east and etc.

we all spent money on food only

except for the birthday present, we didn't

buy anything... like whadd a waste! gee.

but it was fun laa. i so like prefer church people to go out with

than school peeps, which their town is like junction eight, like yuck,

don't they travel any further than that... how pissifyingg.

-puke-

okay. so we had fun laa. both of them were either

starving or thirsty... -tuts- i was the only one not getting

tempted by food or smth. okay! maybe the steamed tapioca and

the churros.. oopsie. =p. after that, went home about 6 plus,

reached home at 7.20pm. in the 73, i was so paiseh canns. I fell

asleep la and this lady sitting next to me, she was sitting inside wanted to come out

and then i was sleeping ma, she woke mee up ... erg, more like POKE mee up cann.

she poked me several times loes. ergifying. -griin- okay okay. I'm going off noww. byee.

went to church this morning

i mean, for sunday school first

i was lyke so late canns.

9.20am. i came with cheryl

and

she was so totallie complaining

about her being the only girl. heh

both of us were like wearing the same shirt

erg.

my mom was wearing the pink one

i was wearing the light blue one &

cheryl was wearing the green one

imagine if we took a pic

yuckks cann.

i'm like so peeved with jeralyn and yet so happy with her. heh

i amm going out with herr tomorrow. yeah!

orchard/bugis/somerset...

here we come!! heh

went shopping with clar and mum today

whoa! was spending money like crayzee

my cny clothes were so expensive -

i was so guilty. tsk.

i am so sounding like jeralyn.

whadd's with the tsk?!

i'm losing myself.

`loving it or losing it?

-grant mee peace-

woohoo!

yesterday was great!!!

we were having the time of our lives

that's what I can say..

Cheryl, Michelle and Jing Han so missed out

Hohoss. Despite my knee, I could play all the games

[thank god]

I had a blast with the youths yesterday, it was so, so fun! Well, we met at HarbourFront mrt at 12 yesterday and took our lunch at some food junction, I don't know what's the shopping centre called. Heh. Jeralyn and I sat with Thomas, Lynette, Jael and Jamin for lunch and Thomas was annoying mee to ashes!! I was like fainting from disgustedness, literally. His jokes were so lame, you didn't know whether to laugh or cry or you know, even show an expression. erg. whadd a pain. Then okay, after that we went to Cold Storage and bought water la. It was quite weird, Ps. Lindsey was so quiet throughout, maybe she's going through some problems? Okay, oh never mind. Then we headed to the bus interchange to take the shuttle service to sentosa. I was stuck standing next to Lynette and in front of me was Ernest la who was so annoying, when lynette was talking to me, he kept commenting that "hey, you sound like you're talking to yourself" and you know what? All I could do was scowl in frustration lol. Okay, not frustration ... but after that it just became a face of resignation. After we reached, we took the million year old tortoise aka monorail to Tanjong Beach. It was SO slow canns and the worst part is that we took one whole round 'cause there's no such thing as opposite direction. So we took from station M6 to M5. Oh yeah, Glenn kept sticking out his head out of the cabin and the shutter fell on his head, hohoho. It was damn funny. After that, he came out the next stop and changed to Jireh's cabin which was behind us. We were all falling asleep in there. -yawn- After we reached Ficus Station, I was so lazy to come out of the monorail .. erg. Okay. We walked for ten minutes to Tanjong Beach. Then the fun started! The first game ; you guess a number from 1-100 and you know slowly they'll 'eliminate' the numbers then the one who guesses the number will get poured with sea water by everyone. Haha. Timothy, Jeralyn, Yishun, Ernest, Christina and etc got drenched. Lol. It was quite amusing. Then next we played if I'm not wrong, Dog & Bone ... It was so funny! Watching them powder each other rather than take the bone was silly. I was laughing to my death! =) Rachel Wong was so cute can. She got powdered so much, she looked like an old woman. heh, and they said A-mei become A-ma. So mean! -chortle- Then it was touch rugby yep. So confusing! I was afraid to get touched man. I kept running backwards. I bet I looked silly! +) but it's okay. Then later we had the stupid frisbee game. I dunno what the heck is it called. Erg. It was so funny though. Then we had sandcastle competition. Grace's group won ... my group, lol, we had no ideas at all and nicholas kept insisting to use his 'leaf' idea. Oh gosh. Lynette and Kevin were like fainting. Lol. In the end, we stuck with a flower : idea taken from nicholas's leaf. hoho : okay. after that, everyone just watched the guys do flips in the water and later some people went to play volleyball and jeralyn and I sat in the "center" of the beach where the sand is very fine and we just sat there and so called tanned la. It worked a bit though. =) Lynette and the others went to swim later. Then after all the crapping around. Everyone went to bathe. I desperately needed the loo and the stupid toilet at Tanjong beach had no lock and it was all dark and wet. So Jeralyn and I tagged along with rachel wong, valencia, denise (is that how her name is spelt?) and ammy to the palawan beach toilet. It was so empty and good. Yupp! Later we all met everyone at the bus stop and took the bus to the visitor arrival area to watch the musical fountain.. but in the end we didn't watch 'cause it was so crowded and crap, they asked us to wait an hour for the next show, so we left to the arrival place again and took the harbourfront shuttle back to HarbourFront. Then we went to eat dinner. Some went to Yoshinoya and some went to Pastamania. I went to Pastamania! -slurp- Ammy, Denise and Jeralyn couldn't finish their spaghetti. I ended up eating a quarter of Jeralyn's share and Ernest, whoa, ate his pasta, brownie and ice cream, ammy's spaghetti and denise's spaghetti. Oh gosh. So piggified cannns!! And he wasn't full. I was SO appalled. Ammy kept saying what planet was Ernest and I were from to actually finish my spaghetti when the three of them couldn't. It was amusing, I was feeling kinda bloated after that. Erg. Went to mac after that to meet the rest then aft a while we all left. Took train back to Toa Payoh with Jamin, lyn, jeralyn and glenn. Glenn stopped at Braddell though. The rest, Christina took to Potong Pasir and the rest of the guys stayed at Dhoby Ghaut to if i'm not wrong play LAN or smthh along that line. Heh. Okay. What a long post. I spent an hour writing this. I think I'm not gonna be you know, blogging abt the last two days. Just that on Thursday I fell during PE. Erg. That's why the knee!

life is good

no matter what happens or has happened

i'm sorry to those i've hurt or annoyed

life isn't at all pleasant when you're

misunderstood.

but still,

life goes on.

=)

today, school was great! I was having fits of laughter every now and then. Haha, well, my blog is colourful, jamin is such a blurdo cann. omg. wahaha! jeralyn is so funny! sorry about not accompanying you during RR, you are so cute man. I just love my church friends! *muack*
I was so friggin' good today, well, i didn't have morning duty today. I was in a good mood today, trust mee, rachel and hwee en were nuts in class and I was actually 'entertaining' them, normally I just ignored their excessive lameness... hee. They are suchh sweet people! [see, i'm complimenting everyone! success, success, success!] Oh god, I am really in such a good mood, i'm becoming lame and crappy, uh oh! Anyway, as I was saying, I passed my spotcheck by Amabel/Emabel [forgot spelling] in the morning! She changed her glasses! Today, i kept 'meeting' Simone canns. And I saw her after recess, and I was without my hairband after selling ice cream. erg. So i kinda got 'caught'. My short skirt also got caught by her last week, she is such an eagle! I had to see the UIC after assembly la and I went there and this girl, called Bi Hui, she is a newbie from Ping Yi Military Band - like that is our 'enemy' .. but everyone knows they can't be a threat NOW, 'cause they are a newbie in the grand finals and deyi, tk and bowen hav always been there, i mean for at least 3 or more years la. She is a flautist and she is so ah lian-ish and rude cann. She looked me from head to toe and I was like making a face every now and then 'cause it's quite uncomfortable after a while. Hello? She was looking at mee like I was some vixen or some lousy band member, I'm like an NCO okay?!!! Okay. We had laughs in Mr Jo's lesson today, he like got angry la and his voice got all high and pitchyy and it was really amusing and Jasmine, who was like so rude, kept imitating him and I kept bursting out with laughter. After school, we had to stay back for band for a while, we were doing our chingay masks. It was fun. We had to stick loads of sequins on our mask and I got like SUCH AN UGLY colour, erg. It looked like it belonged to some cannibalistic tiki person. Hohos. My imagination is sure wild. I failed the mask twice by Yingmei, so I went to Chern Ron, haha, guys, they're not so particular about everything and actually he failed Jasmine then she whined then he said okay! Hohos. That scene was cute canns. After band, I walked with Sian Ying and Wen Theng to the bus stop and I took bus with Sian Ying laas. She was so cute and we were talking about Bi Hui la 'cause she had to teach her everything on all the band rules and the smooth dance steps. She was saying Ping Yi was so slack and all, they didn't call their seniors sir or mam, tt sorta thing. S. Y was saying that Jia Yi and her first impression of her was negative la. Same here! Anyway, so what about tt Bi Hui loe, Sian Ying is the upcoming flute SL okay... so she better not piss the members off, cause if not, she's gonna hav to live with us for another 3 years. Oh noo. Bwahahaha. Okay. I was sooo supposed to meet cheryl to go orchard to buy lyn's present and I was so late and I couldn't contact herr so in the end we didn't go. I so totally wanna smackk her face on friday! woots. sentosa outing with the youths on friday, actually I'm quite afraid of the games they're gonna play. whoa, whoa, whoa. Must be sporting. Anyway, if I'm not wrong, Bei Yu said that we hav to take the student leaders pledge tomorrow during assembly, ugh, I'm gonna be like SO stressed. Yawnns. Well. My brain is like still sleeping although I just took a nap. Had Lynette's b'day dinner just noww. Kinda nice. =) hrmm. be right backk!

this morning, hoho, sunday school was about puberty! oh goshh, it's like 'am i missing something? or have I come to the wrong class?' running through my mind, it was so awkward okay. i mean, we learnt this in sex education in p5/6 ... well, i dunno about guys -gives knowing glance- there's like guys and girls in the class... 4 girls and 4 guys, i'm not sure if you count glenn as a guy, bwahaha. he was so totally annoying and gay loess and he was pissing us off ... we were rolling our eyes full force. heh. it was quite funn ya? i mean the rolling eyes part not the puberty part. then we played this short game where we answer four questions and flash our answers out
`what would you like to buy with your ang pao money?
- a pair of converse shoess
`if you really wanna buy this top and you can't find the exact design burt
you find a similar one ... would you a) buy it b) carry on finding the exact design
- a) buy it
`if you had more than enough money, would you spend it on a) food b) clothes
- a & b [i'm a pigg kaes] -griin-

I can't remember the last qnss .. oops so i can't share it with you all. ((: don't blame it on mee.

-bling bling! dropps a whole load of coins into savings- you know, i was so friggin' peeved with myself the whole day, i dunno why, I kept grinning to myself and smiling away at the whole world and I had to keep controlling myself & close my mouth in time 'cause I look totally ridiculous now when i smile 'cause my vampire teeth are gone! Both! Today was my complimenting people day, heh, i was complimenting ppl la, duh. It was kinda fun and also, i was saying hellos and his to everyone, it was amusing mee to the max man!! So basically I was amused with myself today, much to my horror, i realise I have to keep my mouth shut and unsmiling for two whole months until my new teeth move down to where they are supposed to be. -sigh-
I love the weekends because:
- i am sick and tired of my school
- i am so sick of trying not to break the rules
- i am so sick of listening to the school
- i am so sick of getting caught by the councillor exco for my short skirt
- i am sick of being unable to wear ankle socks or push down my sch socks all the way
- i am sick of wearing my uniform properly
- i am sick of being so neat
- i am sick of listening to teachers in class
- i am sick of band
- i am sick of listening to the friggin' councillors
- i am sick of chingay practice
- i am sick of councillor duties
- i am sick of pumping for punishment after band
So basically, I HATE SCHOOL.
`who doesn't ____ *bleagh*
`
grr. i think i'm getting influenced by mr ernest! oh no! heh. i think i've reached the stage that I don't like school anymore. I remember in sec one, i was the only person so called 'hyped' to actually go to school. i remember cheryl groaning away whenever i said I can't wait to go back to school and jeralyn complaining and jinghan making foul remarks abt school. hohos. noww, those days are all gone, they are the ones okay to go to school while I am the one, complaining away, looks like we swopped lives or something. erg. my school friends, to add, are such losers ['cept the ones i'm close withh!] they don't go orchard or anything after school, all they go is amk central and even worse, they don't live in amk. yuckks! amk is like so totally gross canns. all the deyi-ans are there and yuck yuck yuck, mudds and minas are all holding hands, having the time of their lives there as it is less than kilometres from their homes. Urghhs. I really feel like dying, tomorrow I have councillor spotcheck, we will get it if we got something wrong [ya, like *rolls eyes*] hmm, anyway, i better cut my nails if not i will get it *imitates exco*

lyn is so disgusted with mee, i understand why. i burped very loudly in her face twice and it's the gross kind.. like sorry la! I said excuse mee wad. i found it gross too... we were eating some chilli-ful mee pok and kway tiao... hot man! ... haha.. so so bored... *yawn. =) later going yf, i'm afraidd!! ahh, whatever, i'm crapping loads noww.

ryan cabrera.true
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

just came back from SGH, ugh!, they extracted two of my teeth, and in march, they're gonna extract one or two more, MOLARS/CANINES! oH my GOD. my mouth's really numb and I can't talk 'cause I've got cotton gauze shoved in my mouth. This really sucks 'cause I carn't go band 'cause the lady said you can't eat ... or drink anything too hot or too cold. ergo! If I don't eat, I'm so going to faint during band - not really but possibilty and she gave me a one day mc for band and a half day mc for school. oh god, i'm like itching all over - not because i'm dirty okay? - just now a stupid mosquito was on my hand, trying to suckk my blood - yuck and i shook my hand and it came off. erg. like gross canns. I'm not going band again.. erg. i really wanna go, 'cause I still can't dance and play spiderman together, the dance is like so difficult, but i got it anyway. =)) budd I can't play and dance together la. whoa! I can't lie down [stomach on bed] at all, my 'excessive' saliva will stop flooding and leaking outta my mouth, like tt is so gross and shiitty.. erg. well, I'm going to do stuff noww, will be back later? =)

`you gedd the like and love facts right first

felt quite happy today! hmm. as usual, i feel moody in the morning, not because I didn't sleep enough but because the lessons are so damn boring. erg. mr johari didn't come - on mc - and it's so sickening 'cause i rushed through my maths hw in science lesson this morning! erg. ms chan also wasnt here, so i had two free periods... for the even numbers of the class, they had five free periods loe 'cause their home ec teacher didn't come but mine did.. yuckk. so sick. 5 free periods = more than half of the whole day's periods. the class, as usual, was in the state of chaos, and I dunno why, I was appalled at some people, they were like mad, reallie mad. They usually were the ones sitting down, not caring abt anything at all. But then, Jasmine Thian was like running around killing Ervin with the broom and plopping it on his head every now and then [which she normally does not go doing while on classrm duty] and Jiayun, usually she's quite loud but today, it was exceptional! She was cackling like a hyena and 'laughing and screaming' at the same time, sounds like a chickenn. heh. *no offence jy. =) bwahaha.

woohoo! today is jeralyn's birthday *winks and hints to those tt have not wished herr* heh. her present - happily sitting on my table, put in a nice box and tied with gold and silver ribbonn... ooh nice! =) One of the nicest presents I've ever done up. HEH. Am at Friendster noww. Omg, jh wrote mee a testi, whadd a dumb testi - abt us being megalomaniacal people then later we insult the megalomaniacal people. helloss. don't get me wrong jh but since when have i insulted some people with you? All i insult is youu! Okay, okay. Just joking around. We are not megalomaniacal! Today had a lot of homeworkk! erg. Mr Johari was suchh a pigg man! He said he'll only give us 3 qns for maths and you know what? It was 1a,b,c,d..... that sort of qns. So altogether we have to do more than 30 over sums of standard form which i so totallie don't understand a heckk he's saying throughout the whole lesson. So, mee being naughty, am not going to do it! I just can't believe beiyu and wentheng can actually do it during the free last period [assembly period replaced to discuss class decoration but mrs lim didn't come in .. so free period! wahaha!] while I was busy pigging out and just lazing.. After school, I didn't go for band but I stayed back for a while to drink ribena but oh suckyy, i had cramps after that, mee, heck care again.. hohos. So went home from there and later eat lunch then left for the dentist. She cleaned my teeth.. it's so clean now [lyk duh].. heh ... I've been lame and crapping around. Oh goshh.. I'm becoming like Michelle, tan/qua ... works anyway..! Hmm, boredd to tearss. Come back later... BYE.

Councillor duties beginn. erg. I had duty but I didn't do it... oops. I din know okay! It's carpark duty, and I dunno what the hell I'm gonna do there. Duty with Rudy.. OMG, that's totally gonna suck.. erg! Wednesday - linkway duty.. I think I'm going to DIE. 'cause the dumb sec ones are gonna be tryin to push past and everything else.. erg.erg.erg. today i did/helped in duty for beiyu and michelle, just helping .. 'cause they couldn't control the 'kids' .. the kids were being annoying laas.. pains in the butts. wednesday, i think it's gonna be funn doing the linkway one. at least better than patrolling! I'm doing with mirliana... she's also 1/3's class leader... woots. =) gonna stay up til 12 to msg jeralyn happy birthday... yay! hrmm *faiints* tomorrow I got dental appt.. so I carnt go band practice.. half gd, half bad.. I dunno what to do!!! boohoo.. being SL totally syuckks.. LIKE YUCK man. The first job I did, I got scolded by weifong.. roarrs.. ! forget it.. I dun wanna do anything anymore! *dies on floor, tumbless off chair*

Okay. Went church. I was first at sunday school like I was rushing all the way there, and i refused to let cheryl by breadtalk. hee *innocent smile*. As usual, go service etc etc etc. We went lunch together at Loy Kee! Michelle, Cheryl, Jing Han, Jeralyn and I! It was so funn. But during the service Michelle was being really 'dirty' ... yugh. I just carnt bear to think about it. I think I better send her for counselling. ahhs. That's gonna be so perfect. OUCH, stomachache! I wanna shit. Oops.. wrong way of saying. = excuse me, I would like to go to the toilet. Ahh. Hey, I'm busy crapping so just ignore me okay? =)) *huggs!

during service today
something got me thinking
[so I wasn't really paying attention to ps. ong]
but after that
my passion and flame for joy & etc
was extinguished
fine here.

hey, hey, hey. today, hrmm, was quite an eventful day, that's what I can say. Well, woke up at 5.30am, damn early. Just to get ready for school/band performance. Although it's the five-day week thing, this is exceptional - sec one cca orientation. woots. =) - Many CCAs (performable ones. *griins) performed! Band performed first after the CCA talk by Mr Wong. He was so naggy and I totally can't stand him, he's so stubby and fat. hohos. After performance, everyone packed up to go home except NCOs, one of them is me *-.-'* We had to go and attend to the band booth [it's actually a classrm.. heh] for like 3 hours plus. yuck. so little people came to the percussion area except when shikin played the jazz set then she started attracting sec one boys and even sec four boys! +) *griins cheekily and chuckles* Feeling so tired noww. erg. Gotta wake up early for church tomorrow and carn't be late - erg again - if not i'll get punishment... erg. lol. okay. so after band I went home for like half an hour only then left for yf, we reached there early 'cause my dad fetched cheryl and I so we went to shaw plaza and walked around sportslink and etc. After that, bought sweets from ntuc then went back to church, it was 3.50 already. Half the people were already there. +) then we sat down, it was really weird. heh. okayy then we had praise and worship, then testimony timee, then sermon by ps. lindsey. It was about getting your priorities right and et cetera. Really suited for my needs, surprisingly. Gee, after the sermon, we had to write our top five priorities in our life and then find a partner of the opposite gender to share it with and pray for the person. I got Jamin, hohos, 'cause he's sitting in front of me. *griins. So prayed for him and his sister to get along well and strengthen the ties between them etc. After that, socialized for about twenty minutes then went orchard to meet uncle david and auntie veron at jack's place. I ate chicken and mushroom spaghetti. Shawn, Cheryl and I took 130 [which supposedly was supposed to go novena which it did not anyway] then later dropped and took 166 to novena! We took opposite trains, he took to Bradell while we took to orchard. heh. So i think that's all for this day of mine.. Tiredd to tearss.

heyhos! I'm bushed. Band practice was really... exhausting man! We didn't even do music. All we did was drills, drills, drills then formation. But of course, I don't have to do formation 'cause I'm in the formation comm. hee. so tt's half good. Imagine, four different groups of people sharing the quadrangle : ncc cadets, npcc cadets, councillors and psls and band members. npcc was doing baton drills [is that what it's called -heard frm ervin-], ncc was doing drills, band was doing drills too and the councillors and psls, just sitting there, crapping around and occupying space! lolls. before school ended, during lit period, jasmine and i stole ervin's track pants for npcc [he's sitting in front of me, talk abt convenient! bwahaha!] we were being childish laas. but lit was kinda boring and we were falling asleep so we resorted to entertaining ourselves. ervin is so easy to bully 'cause jonathan is not there. [anyway, jonathan and ervin are always bickering childishly but they're best of friends. odd. =)] I was falling asleep in mrs yusoff and mrs lim's periods. omg. i can't believe myself. I've got three ulcers and my mom said it's due to lack of sleep. she is so totally trying to spite me and say 'i told you so.' that sorta thing. yughhs. hmm. so damn tired. I think I'm gonna go and slp at ten .. so early but whatever, i'm beat! Just wrapped my journal in a nicee 'sophisticated' wrapper and made it look sophisticated too! Hohos. Mrs Ong is my art teacher, she's so nice, million times better than that 'gay ah sam' ... [original name: mr sam lim] hohos. he looks gay okay. see for yourself if you don't believe.. hohos. okay. amm going to pack my stuff for art tomorrow! Byee!
`haven't done my children rights artwork..!

michelle.jinghan.jeralyn.cheryl.louisa 

I am on the verge of being very pissed.
alternating between pissed and super happy
is making me feel disturbed.
please.
i'm practically dying already
I was pissed with band peeps today
to be specific, those megalomaniacal people.
SUCKS.
Ernest said tt word was cheesy ... like fyne.
That started the getting easily pissed thing
Yuack. Yuack. Yuack.
Help me.
*dies on floor*

finally proper lessons! I kinda like my chinese teacher! =) although most of my friends prefer mr. ong chee teng, hohos. mr wong is like so totally gay man. yuckks. like *faiints. okayys, nth much to blog today = will blog later!

jesse mccartney.beautiful soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

second day of school - another busy and hectic day. -yawns- i'm tired. The student leaders met up in the morning at seven then we went to the quad to hold those little white cards for the classes to queue up properly. I had to hold it for 2/5 and they were being such baddies, watching me from the second level and refusing to come down immediately. Made me so stupidly standing there waving the 2/5 plank card. Doreen was being equally annoying 'cause she poked fun at me, just because I was holding her class plank card. erg. I was sick today, had a slight fever so after school, I didn't go band, I just went home with Michelle and after I reached home, I ate lunch, took panadol and took a rest. Well, the nap did wonders! I am feeling perfectly fine, inwardly and outwardly. *griins I feel so good now, all energetic and everything, no backaches! Okay, lets go to the fun parts of today's sec one orientation program. The early morning segment was really boring, they had a discipline talk and I heard the last part, handphones are allowed and you can only use it during recess and after school, rest of the time, switched off! I am elated! Oh I love Mrs Chua! No wonder I saw students whipping out their handphones during recess openingly, without a care in the world. After that it was time for doing the class mascot, flag and cheers. Was quite bad, attitude-wise and time-wise. They took their time, didn't take any initiative, totally needed to be spoon-fed and got shouted at by all of us and Sean's brother Bryan was being such a pain, he refused to be the mascot but everyone voted him and he said they sabo-ed him. fine. after that was picking berries aka recess! what a nice name for recess. hohos. after recess, they changed into their pe attire and got ready for the trail. Oh it was so annoying, our class was the last and it was embarassing! Ms Foo kept asking who are 1/3's class leaders. *scowlls There was a problem with the register and everything, the girls were in class, the boys refused to go back to class, so there was a mess! The trail was really fun! Our first stop : the Cybrary. They had to put their arms over each other's shoulders and spell Deyi Secondary School out with their butts! The sight was hilarious. There were couple more stations and we didn't complete all though. There were a few black sheep and a couple of 'act cool' ones, which were all so annoying. Because, the black sheep tried so very hard to piss us off and the act cool ones, simply put, refused to play, saying it was childish and all. But after that, they got scolded by Thapa, quite badly. ouch. Okay, then went back to hall then to the canteen, cheered a lot, shouted a lot today too, at the sec ones. hohos. Student Leaders were excused from assembly like yeah! So we 'played' with the sec ones laa. So that's all for today! I think. Anyway, there's one more new girl in my class : wonder what's her name though. I wasn't around the class the whole day from 8.30 onwards. Oh yeah, the previous post, I talked abt my class's leaders. There's one more - Mirliana and Thapa too! Fang Shuai - I dunno whether he's my class one la, but he's always around so okay!

first day of school

really busy!

first day as a councillor

it's quite fun actually

but it's quite hot wearing the school tie for the whole day!

oh, i got a normal academic class and i'm a class leader.

i nearly died - they are such monstrosities.

they are ruder than me, ruder than me and ruder than me.

Talk about no respect man! *roarrs

Okay, I got class 1/3 with Rainer, Rachel, Joanna, Brenda, Suman, Simone and Sarah [i think that's all?] Rainer was good with the boys la, 'cause he is the only guy in our group. But also he is able to joke and control the boys at the same time, quite amazing!! The boys were totally ignorant to us and they practically didn't give a damn about us! Talk about no respect again. *roarss again. We played a game with them - fruit salad! - it was really funny [it's something like blow wind blow] they got pasang and they didn't snatch a seat like so totally silly! the student leaders are just basically there to be lame and silly and organize the games and stuff. the class was really naughty! hmm, after school, we went to band [so called nco meeting] to make the wire thingys for the sec ones.. my thumb and index fingers are like so totally friction-ised, red and sore. ughh! the wires are totally killers. but they are nice. hee. hrmm. so bored out. so come back later!

I just changed my skin and it totally rocks! Actually, i didn't have a choice whether to change or not, 'cause my previous skin was spoilt - as in the only things tt appear are the blog posts which = no tagboard, no nothing!!! Today, church service was, uhh, a little on the boring side but it was abt why tsunamis and earthquakes[totally sounds like geog lessons!] and yada. Today's worship like no momentum liddat, nobody jumped at all at one way, shout your fame etc. Like only Ronald and Ernest were -obviously- jumping. The rest - hmm, tiptoeing?. Tomorrow's school's reopening, and I gotta be in school at 6.20am 'cause I got some councillor meeting to prepare for the sec one orientation!!! Wow! My mental clock is like spoilt - can't sleep now and then body is used to sleeping after 12 and waking after 10. - totallie sucks man. I half wish that it's still the holidays but I half wish it was school 'cause the holidays - if i'm stoning - is so boring! Today was the first sunday school lesson and they told us the expectations and the first one was 'be punctual' and then sharon said it to specific people - me and jerall!! like whadd rubbish okaess. lols. my eldest sister is screaming outside my rm for whatever reason - hohos. hmm. I gotta sleep soon and 'bank up' on my sleep. *sighhs* I'm quite sleepy now though 'cause just now I was at bugis then later took train down to tp to buy my bks. 2 books still not bought! Like whatever loess. My favourite book somemore -- GeoGRAPHYY! Yay!
`btw, change my tagboard to doodleboard so tt jeralyn can tag! roarrss

Just came back from Cheryl's house at 11.38p.m. It was rather fun. We had like a new year's dinner - three tables of steamboat/teppanyaki. Two tables had both while one had only teppanyaki. It was quite funn and it was filling laa 'cause all I ate was sotong, chicken and mee siam. Cheryl was supposed to stay over at my hse, then tomorrow go early to take bus together to church. yupps.. I'm talking to jeralyn on msn noww. Like finallie she can come online - tt tyme was URL blocked.. sad. I hope can take bus with jeralyn to church tomorrow! But she is like so totallie reluctantt 'cause she wanna take cab and be 'chauffeured' to church - i think. It's like nowadays we are going church so often. I'm bushed mann but I really don't feel like sleeping although I know I have to get up early, yada yada. Oh yeahH!! I went parkway parade just now with my aunt, uncle and my mom. They went Giant laas, as usual. But i got my school shoes and I just tried it on - the socks [they said it was ankle length] , it is totally toot loess. so high, i even have to wear it halfway - tt sorta thing... haiz.. so siann. Yawnns.. I think I'm going to sleep soon. *mwahhs. then later my aunt fetched around and picked up people... Joel and Jonathan came up the car and like squished me on my left and right and mind you, i totally had no breathing space! *claustrophobic* .. they were eating mac's .. and they totally did not offer me, although before tt my aunt gave me like more than ten fries.. hohos. -stolen from their 'dinner'. yupss. heyy! I'm going off now.. so SIAN. Btw, my new sunday school teachers like Thomas and Sharon. *bleagh* I hope I like them.. *prayss*

bored. my comp's nuts man. the post abt the grade 7 thing cannot be seen in my edit posts area and the time is all wrong. it was at 12.52 not 1.48! Like whatever loess. *faiints a thousand tymes

i came back in less than half an hour - 10 minutes!
HMM! I have loads of stuff to do,
+write out ensemble scores for weifong
+buy sec 2 books [leftovers]
+buy school shoes
I think everywhere's closed? 'cause it's a public holiday today wadd..*sigh* so complicating!*faiints

i'm like so totally happy and exhilarated!

I so like passed my grade 7 piano! Like phew!

The marks weren't so good but

anyway, i passed! That's what i wanna hear!

~

I can't believe I slept at 3 last night. after watchnight, we went to yio chu kang/serangoon rd to eat roti prata. i ate two egg pratas. so nice but filling. hey! I was starving since nine plus okay? the indian man that served was kinda dirty like yuk! Really yuk! He stacked the curry plate on my prata and carried it to my table... like the plate is dirty! I was mortified, goodness man. Can't stand unhygienic people, whether chinese, indian, malay or what. hmm, last night was really fun and jh was acting so totally desperate at midnight. possessed or something? hohos. budd anyways, she kept saying I want to kiss her like yuack, yuack, yuack. I don't even want to touch her! My face was in utter mortification when she hugged me - [oh, i'm like being so mean - must change!] *recites 1 corinthians 13:4-7 to herself* my mom was bugging me to go eat my lunch so byee! == Will be back in half an hour. =) *griins cheekily

I'm officially logging off

tired!

find me here

tomorrow

ciao.

goodnights everyone and

a blessed new year to all!

[i sound like a radio host! hohos]

Happy new year everyone! I was at church from 5-12am! Because we went to help decorate the church from 5-7 and at seven, we went to eat dinner then 8pm was the watchnight service. i was practically falling aslp while they said testimonys and jeralyn was totally rude man, she was doing her eng lit homework, talk about rude! bwahaha, and whenever uncle david took a picture, she would start whining[literally], 'cause it provided evidence [like who would actually notice her?] we were sitting down at main sanctuary and it was really weird laas. there was nearly not a soul when we first arrived. hohos. i'm so lazy to tell you the details. i'm currently writing my resolutions. hohos. i want to thank god for a lot of stuff laas in this year. basically these:

+ making me go to deyi sec [will elaborate later]

+ giving me leadership roles in school

+ strengthening the relationship

+ toning me down by putting me in a not so good school

+ moulding me to be a better person

i feel my resolutions for next year are kinda lame, but hey, better than nothing. i think the youths are not going to go home the whole night tonight, they've gone to watch a movie yada and they were planning to walk to town from church, like tt's gonna be so tiring! hmm, i'm bushed man, after tying all the strings to nearly tons of balloons! And during the countdown, they were supposed to burst it [which they did] all 66 balloons [i counted] in the main sanctuary were burst to bits and also, our efforts were go 'poof!' into the air. oh yeah! kevin cut and dyed his hair back to original colour. he looks so young, just like isaac! how adorable.. bwahaha. okay okay, will not say anymore things to bore you out. so goodnight!