this morning, hoho, sunday school was about puberty! oh goshh, it's like 'am i missing something? or have I come to the wrong class?' running through my mind, it was so awkward okay. i mean, we learnt this in sex education in p5/6 ... well, i dunno about guys -gives knowing glance- there's like guys and girls in the class... 4 girls and 4 guys, i'm not sure if you count glenn as a guy, bwahaha. he was so totally annoying and gay loess and he was pissing us off ... we were rolling our eyes full force. heh. it was quite funn ya? i mean the rolling eyes part not the puberty part. then we played this short game where we answer four questions and flash our answers out
`what would you like to buy with your ang pao money?
- a pair of converse shoess
`if you really wanna buy this top and you can't find the exact design burt
you find a similar one ... would you a) buy it b) carry on finding the exact design
- a) buy it
`if you had more than enough money, would you spend it on a) food b) clothes
- a & b [i'm a pigg kaes] -griin-

I can't remember the last qnss .. oops so i can't share it with you all. ((: don't blame it on mee.

-bling bling! dropps a whole load of coins into savings- you know, i was so friggin' peeved with myself the whole day, i dunno why, I kept grinning to myself and smiling away at the whole world and I had to keep controlling myself & close my mouth in time 'cause I look totally ridiculous now when i smile 'cause my vampire teeth are gone! Both! Today was my complimenting people day, heh, i was complimenting ppl la, duh. It was kinda fun and also, i was saying hellos and his to everyone, it was amusing mee to the max man!! So basically I was amused with myself today, much to my horror, i realise I have to keep my mouth shut and unsmiling for two whole months until my new teeth move down to where they are supposed to be. -sigh-
I love the weekends because:
- i am sick and tired of my school
- i am so sick of trying not to break the rules
- i am so sick of listening to the school
- i am so sick of getting caught by the councillor exco for my short skirt
- i am sick of being unable to wear ankle socks or push down my sch socks all the way
- i am sick of wearing my uniform properly
- i am sick of being so neat
- i am sick of listening to teachers in class
- i am sick of band
- i am sick of listening to the friggin' councillors
- i am sick of chingay practice
- i am sick of councillor duties
- i am sick of pumping for punishment after band
So basically, I HATE SCHOOL.
`who doesn't ____ *bleagh*
`
grr. i think i'm getting influenced by mr ernest! oh no! heh. i think i've reached the stage that I don't like school anymore. I remember in sec one, i was the only person so called 'hyped' to actually go to school. i remember cheryl groaning away whenever i said I can't wait to go back to school and jeralyn complaining and jinghan making foul remarks abt school. hohos. noww, those days are all gone, they are the ones okay to go to school while I am the one, complaining away, looks like we swopped lives or something. erg. my school friends, to add, are such losers ['cept the ones i'm close withh!] they don't go orchard or anything after school, all they go is amk central and even worse, they don't live in amk. yuckks! amk is like so totally gross canns. all the deyi-ans are there and yuck yuck yuck, mudds and minas are all holding hands, having the time of their lives there as it is less than kilometres from their homes. Urghhs. I really feel like dying, tomorrow I have councillor spotcheck, we will get it if we got something wrong [ya, like *rolls eyes*] hmm, anyway, i better cut my nails if not i will get it *imitates exco*

lyn is so disgusted with mee, i understand why. i burped very loudly in her face twice and it's the gross kind.. like sorry la! I said excuse mee wad. i found it gross too... we were eating some chilli-ful mee pok and kway tiao... hot man! ... haha.. so so bored... *yawn. =) later going yf, i'm afraidd!! ahh, whatever, i'm crapping loads noww.

ryan cabrera.true
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

just came back from SGH, ugh!, they extracted two of my teeth, and in march, they're gonna extract one or two more, MOLARS/CANINES! oH my GOD. my mouth's really numb and I can't talk 'cause I've got cotton gauze shoved in my mouth. This really sucks 'cause I carn't go band 'cause the lady said you can't eat ... or drink anything too hot or too cold. ergo! If I don't eat, I'm so going to faint during band - not really but possibilty and she gave me a one day mc for band and a half day mc for school. oh god, i'm like itching all over - not because i'm dirty okay? - just now a stupid mosquito was on my hand, trying to suckk my blood - yuck and i shook my hand and it came off. erg. like gross canns. I'm not going band again.. erg. i really wanna go, 'cause I still can't dance and play spiderman together, the dance is like so difficult, but i got it anyway. =)) budd I can't play and dance together la. whoa! I can't lie down [stomach on bed] at all, my 'excessive' saliva will stop flooding and leaking outta my mouth, like tt is so gross and shiitty.. erg. well, I'm going to do stuff noww, will be back later? =)

`you gedd the like and love facts right first

felt quite happy today! hmm. as usual, i feel moody in the morning, not because I didn't sleep enough but because the lessons are so damn boring. erg. mr johari didn't come - on mc - and it's so sickening 'cause i rushed through my maths hw in science lesson this morning! erg. ms chan also wasnt here, so i had two free periods... for the even numbers of the class, they had five free periods loe 'cause their home ec teacher didn't come but mine did.. yuckk. so sick. 5 free periods = more than half of the whole day's periods. the class, as usual, was in the state of chaos, and I dunno why, I was appalled at some people, they were like mad, reallie mad. They usually were the ones sitting down, not caring abt anything at all. But then, Jasmine Thian was like running around killing Ervin with the broom and plopping it on his head every now and then [which she normally does not go doing while on classrm duty] and Jiayun, usually she's quite loud but today, it was exceptional! She was cackling like a hyena and 'laughing and screaming' at the same time, sounds like a chickenn. heh. *no offence jy. =) bwahaha.

woohoo! today is jeralyn's birthday *winks and hints to those tt have not wished herr* heh. her present - happily sitting on my table, put in a nice box and tied with gold and silver ribbonn... ooh nice! =) One of the nicest presents I've ever done up. HEH. Am at Friendster noww. Omg, jh wrote mee a testi, whadd a dumb testi - abt us being megalomaniacal people then later we insult the megalomaniacal people. helloss. don't get me wrong jh but since when have i insulted some people with you? All i insult is youu! Okay, okay. Just joking around. We are not megalomaniacal! Today had a lot of homeworkk! erg. Mr Johari was suchh a pigg man! He said he'll only give us 3 qns for maths and you know what? It was 1a,b,c,d..... that sort of qns. So altogether we have to do more than 30 over sums of standard form which i so totallie don't understand a heckk he's saying throughout the whole lesson. So, mee being naughty, am not going to do it! I just can't believe beiyu and wentheng can actually do it during the free last period [assembly period replaced to discuss class decoration but mrs lim didn't come in .. so free period! wahaha!] while I was busy pigging out and just lazing.. After school, I didn't go for band but I stayed back for a while to drink ribena but oh suckyy, i had cramps after that, mee, heck care again.. hohos. So went home from there and later eat lunch then left for the dentist. She cleaned my teeth.. it's so clean now [lyk duh].. heh ... I've been lame and crapping around. Oh goshh.. I'm becoming like Michelle, tan/qua ... works anyway..! Hmm, boredd to tearss. Come back later... BYE.

Councillor duties beginn. erg. I had duty but I didn't do it... oops. I din know okay! It's carpark duty, and I dunno what the hell I'm gonna do there. Duty with Rudy.. OMG, that's totally gonna suck.. erg! Wednesday - linkway duty.. I think I'm going to DIE. 'cause the dumb sec ones are gonna be tryin to push past and everything else.. erg.erg.erg. today i did/helped in duty for beiyu and michelle, just helping .. 'cause they couldn't control the 'kids' .. the kids were being annoying laas.. pains in the butts. wednesday, i think it's gonna be funn doing the linkway one. at least better than patrolling! I'm doing with mirliana... she's also 1/3's class leader... woots. =) gonna stay up til 12 to msg jeralyn happy birthday... yay! hrmm *faiints* tomorrow I got dental appt.. so I carnt go band practice.. half gd, half bad.. I dunno what to do!!! boohoo.. being SL totally syuckks.. LIKE YUCK man. The first job I did, I got scolded by weifong.. roarrs.. ! forget it.. I dun wanna do anything anymore! *dies on floor, tumbless off chair*

Okay. Went church. I was first at sunday school like I was rushing all the way there, and i refused to let cheryl by breadtalk. hee *innocent smile*. As usual, go service etc etc etc. We went lunch together at Loy Kee! Michelle, Cheryl, Jing Han, Jeralyn and I! It was so funn. But during the service Michelle was being really 'dirty' ... yugh. I just carnt bear to think about it. I think I better send her for counselling. ahhs. That's gonna be so perfect. OUCH, stomachache! I wanna shit. Oops.. wrong way of saying. = excuse me, I would like to go to the toilet. Ahh. Hey, I'm busy crapping so just ignore me okay? =)) *huggs!

during service today
something got me thinking
[so I wasn't really paying attention to ps. ong]
but after that
my passion and flame for joy & etc
was extinguished
fine here.

hey, hey, hey. today, hrmm, was quite an eventful day, that's what I can say. Well, woke up at 5.30am, damn early. Just to get ready for school/band performance. Although it's the five-day week thing, this is exceptional - sec one cca orientation. woots. =) - Many CCAs (performable ones. *griins) performed! Band performed first after the CCA talk by Mr Wong. He was so naggy and I totally can't stand him, he's so stubby and fat. hohos. After performance, everyone packed up to go home except NCOs, one of them is me *-.-'* We had to go and attend to the band booth [it's actually a classrm.. heh] for like 3 hours plus. yuck. so little people came to the percussion area except when shikin played the jazz set then she started attracting sec one boys and even sec four boys! +) *griins cheekily and chuckles* Feeling so tired noww. erg. Gotta wake up early for church tomorrow and carn't be late - erg again - if not i'll get punishment... erg. lol. okay. so after band I went home for like half an hour only then left for yf, we reached there early 'cause my dad fetched cheryl and I so we went to shaw plaza and walked around sportslink and etc. After that, bought sweets from ntuc then went back to church, it was 3.50 already. Half the people were already there. +) then we sat down, it was really weird. heh. okayy then we had praise and worship, then testimony timee, then sermon by ps. lindsey. It was about getting your priorities right and et cetera. Really suited for my needs, surprisingly. Gee, after the sermon, we had to write our top five priorities in our life and then find a partner of the opposite gender to share it with and pray for the person. I got Jamin, hohos, 'cause he's sitting in front of me. *griins. So prayed for him and his sister to get along well and strengthen the ties between them etc. After that, socialized for about twenty minutes then went orchard to meet uncle david and auntie veron at jack's place. I ate chicken and mushroom spaghetti. Shawn, Cheryl and I took 130 [which supposedly was supposed to go novena which it did not anyway] then later dropped and took 166 to novena! We took opposite trains, he took to Bradell while we took to orchard. heh. So i think that's all for this day of mine.. Tiredd to tearss.

heyhos! I'm bushed. Band practice was really... exhausting man! We didn't even do music. All we did was drills, drills, drills then formation. But of course, I don't have to do formation 'cause I'm in the formation comm. hee. so tt's half good. Imagine, four different groups of people sharing the quadrangle : ncc cadets, npcc cadets, councillors and psls and band members. npcc was doing baton drills [is that what it's called -heard frm ervin-], ncc was doing drills, band was doing drills too and the councillors and psls, just sitting there, crapping around and occupying space! lolls. before school ended, during lit period, jasmine and i stole ervin's track pants for npcc [he's sitting in front of me, talk abt convenient! bwahaha!] we were being childish laas. but lit was kinda boring and we were falling asleep so we resorted to entertaining ourselves. ervin is so easy to bully 'cause jonathan is not there. [anyway, jonathan and ervin are always bickering childishly but they're best of friends. odd. =)] I was falling asleep in mrs yusoff and mrs lim's periods. omg. i can't believe myself. I've got three ulcers and my mom said it's due to lack of sleep. she is so totally trying to spite me and say 'i told you so.' that sorta thing. yughhs. hmm. so damn tired. I think I'm gonna go and slp at ten .. so early but whatever, i'm beat! Just wrapped my journal in a nicee 'sophisticated' wrapper and made it look sophisticated too! Hohos. Mrs Ong is my art teacher, she's so nice, million times better than that 'gay ah sam' ... [original name: mr sam lim] hohos. he looks gay okay. see for yourself if you don't believe.. hohos. okay. amm going to pack my stuff for art tomorrow! Byee!
`haven't done my children rights artwork..!

michelle.jinghan.jeralyn.cheryl.louisa 

I am on the verge of being very pissed.
alternating between pissed and super happy
is making me feel disturbed.
please.
i'm practically dying already
I was pissed with band peeps today
to be specific, those megalomaniacal people.
SUCKS.
Ernest said tt word was cheesy ... like fyne.
That started the getting easily pissed thing
Yuack. Yuack. Yuack.
Help me.
*dies on floor*

finally proper lessons! I kinda like my chinese teacher! =) although most of my friends prefer mr. ong chee teng, hohos. mr wong is like so totally gay man. yuckks. like *faiints. okayys, nth much to blog today = will blog later!

jesse mccartney.beautiful soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

second day of school - another busy and hectic day. -yawns- i'm tired. The student leaders met up in the morning at seven then we went to the quad to hold those little white cards for the classes to queue up properly. I had to hold it for 2/5 and they were being such baddies, watching me from the second level and refusing to come down immediately. Made me so stupidly standing there waving the 2/5 plank card. Doreen was being equally annoying 'cause she poked fun at me, just because I was holding her class plank card. erg. I was sick today, had a slight fever so after school, I didn't go band, I just went home with Michelle and after I reached home, I ate lunch, took panadol and took a rest. Well, the nap did wonders! I am feeling perfectly fine, inwardly and outwardly. *griins I feel so good now, all energetic and everything, no backaches! Okay, lets go to the fun parts of today's sec one orientation program. The early morning segment was really boring, they had a discipline talk and I heard the last part, handphones are allowed and you can only use it during recess and after school, rest of the time, switched off! I am elated! Oh I love Mrs Chua! No wonder I saw students whipping out their handphones during recess openingly, without a care in the world. After that it was time for doing the class mascot, flag and cheers. Was quite bad, attitude-wise and time-wise. They took their time, didn't take any initiative, totally needed to be spoon-fed and got shouted at by all of us and Sean's brother Bryan was being such a pain, he refused to be the mascot but everyone voted him and he said they sabo-ed him. fine. after that was picking berries aka recess! what a nice name for recess. hohos. after recess, they changed into their pe attire and got ready for the trail. Oh it was so annoying, our class was the last and it was embarassing! Ms Foo kept asking who are 1/3's class leaders. *scowlls There was a problem with the register and everything, the girls were in class, the boys refused to go back to class, so there was a mess! The trail was really fun! Our first stop : the Cybrary. They had to put their arms over each other's shoulders and spell Deyi Secondary School out with their butts! The sight was hilarious. There were couple more stations and we didn't complete all though. There were a few black sheep and a couple of 'act cool' ones, which were all so annoying. Because, the black sheep tried so very hard to piss us off and the act cool ones, simply put, refused to play, saying it was childish and all. But after that, they got scolded by Thapa, quite badly. ouch. Okay, then went back to hall then to the canteen, cheered a lot, shouted a lot today too, at the sec ones. hohos. Student Leaders were excused from assembly like yeah! So we 'played' with the sec ones laa. So that's all for today! I think. Anyway, there's one more new girl in my class : wonder what's her name though. I wasn't around the class the whole day from 8.30 onwards. Oh yeah, the previous post, I talked abt my class's leaders. There's one more - Mirliana and Thapa too! Fang Shuai - I dunno whether he's my class one la, but he's always around so okay!

first day of school

really busy!

first day as a councillor

it's quite fun actually

but it's quite hot wearing the school tie for the whole day!

oh, i got a normal academic class and i'm a class leader.

i nearly died - they are such monstrosities.

they are ruder than me, ruder than me and ruder than me.

Talk about no respect man! *roarrs

Okay, I got class 1/3 with Rainer, Rachel, Joanna, Brenda, Suman, Simone and Sarah [i think that's all?] Rainer was good with the boys la, 'cause he is the only guy in our group. But also he is able to joke and control the boys at the same time, quite amazing!! The boys were totally ignorant to us and they practically didn't give a damn about us! Talk about no respect again. *roarss again. We played a game with them - fruit salad! - it was really funny [it's something like blow wind blow] they got pasang and they didn't snatch a seat like so totally silly! the student leaders are just basically there to be lame and silly and organize the games and stuff. the class was really naughty! hmm, after school, we went to band [so called nco meeting] to make the wire thingys for the sec ones.. my thumb and index fingers are like so totally friction-ised, red and sore. ughh! the wires are totally killers. but they are nice. hee. hrmm. so bored out. so come back later!

I just changed my skin and it totally rocks! Actually, i didn't have a choice whether to change or not, 'cause my previous skin was spoilt - as in the only things tt appear are the blog posts which = no tagboard, no nothing!!! Today, church service was, uhh, a little on the boring side but it was abt why tsunamis and earthquakes[totally sounds like geog lessons!] and yada. Today's worship like no momentum liddat, nobody jumped at all at one way, shout your fame etc. Like only Ronald and Ernest were -obviously- jumping. The rest - hmm, tiptoeing?. Tomorrow's school's reopening, and I gotta be in school at 6.20am 'cause I got some councillor meeting to prepare for the sec one orientation!!! Wow! My mental clock is like spoilt - can't sleep now and then body is used to sleeping after 12 and waking after 10. - totallie sucks man. I half wish that it's still the holidays but I half wish it was school 'cause the holidays - if i'm stoning - is so boring! Today was the first sunday school lesson and they told us the expectations and the first one was 'be punctual' and then sharon said it to specific people - me and jerall!! like whadd rubbish okaess. lols. my eldest sister is screaming outside my rm for whatever reason - hohos. hmm. I gotta sleep soon and 'bank up' on my sleep. *sighhs* I'm quite sleepy now though 'cause just now I was at bugis then later took train down to tp to buy my bks. 2 books still not bought! Like whatever loess. My favourite book somemore -- GeoGRAPHYY! Yay!
`btw, change my tagboard to doodleboard so tt jeralyn can tag! roarrss

Just came back from Cheryl's house at 11.38p.m. It was rather fun. We had like a new year's dinner - three tables of steamboat/teppanyaki. Two tables had both while one had only teppanyaki. It was quite funn and it was filling laa 'cause all I ate was sotong, chicken and mee siam. Cheryl was supposed to stay over at my hse, then tomorrow go early to take bus together to church. yupps.. I'm talking to jeralyn on msn noww. Like finallie she can come online - tt tyme was URL blocked.. sad. I hope can take bus with jeralyn to church tomorrow! But she is like so totallie reluctantt 'cause she wanna take cab and be 'chauffeured' to church - i think. It's like nowadays we are going church so often. I'm bushed mann but I really don't feel like sleeping although I know I have to get up early, yada yada. Oh yeahH!! I went parkway parade just now with my aunt, uncle and my mom. They went Giant laas, as usual. But i got my school shoes and I just tried it on - the socks [they said it was ankle length] , it is totally toot loess. so high, i even have to wear it halfway - tt sorta thing... haiz.. so siann. Yawnns.. I think I'm going to sleep soon. *mwahhs. then later my aunt fetched around and picked up people... Joel and Jonathan came up the car and like squished me on my left and right and mind you, i totally had no breathing space! *claustrophobic* .. they were eating mac's .. and they totally did not offer me, although before tt my aunt gave me like more than ten fries.. hohos. -stolen from their 'dinner'. yupss. heyy! I'm going off now.. so SIAN. Btw, my new sunday school teachers like Thomas and Sharon. *bleagh* I hope I like them.. *prayss*

bored. my comp's nuts man. the post abt the grade 7 thing cannot be seen in my edit posts area and the time is all wrong. it was at 12.52 not 1.48! Like whatever loess. *faiints a thousand tymes

i came back in less than half an hour - 10 minutes!
HMM! I have loads of stuff to do,
+write out ensemble scores for weifong
+buy sec 2 books [leftovers]
+buy school shoes
I think everywhere's closed? 'cause it's a public holiday today wadd..*sigh* so complicating!*faiints

i'm like so totally happy and exhilarated!

I so like passed my grade 7 piano! Like phew!

The marks weren't so good but

anyway, i passed! That's what i wanna hear!

~

I can't believe I slept at 3 last night. after watchnight, we went to yio chu kang/serangoon rd to eat roti prata. i ate two egg pratas. so nice but filling. hey! I was starving since nine plus okay? the indian man that served was kinda dirty like yuk! Really yuk! He stacked the curry plate on my prata and carried it to my table... like the plate is dirty! I was mortified, goodness man. Can't stand unhygienic people, whether chinese, indian, malay or what. hmm, last night was really fun and jh was acting so totally desperate at midnight. possessed or something? hohos. budd anyways, she kept saying I want to kiss her like yuack, yuack, yuack. I don't even want to touch her! My face was in utter mortification when she hugged me - [oh, i'm like being so mean - must change!] *recites 1 corinthians 13:4-7 to herself* my mom was bugging me to go eat my lunch so byee! == Will be back in half an hour. =) *griins cheekily

I'm officially logging off

tired!

find me here

tomorrow

ciao.

goodnights everyone and

a blessed new year to all!

[i sound like a radio host! hohos]

Happy new year everyone! I was at church from 5-12am! Because we went to help decorate the church from 5-7 and at seven, we went to eat dinner then 8pm was the watchnight service. i was practically falling aslp while they said testimonys and jeralyn was totally rude man, she was doing her eng lit homework, talk about rude! bwahaha, and whenever uncle david took a picture, she would start whining[literally], 'cause it provided evidence [like who would actually notice her?] we were sitting down at main sanctuary and it was really weird laas. there was nearly not a soul when we first arrived. hohos. i'm so lazy to tell you the details. i'm currently writing my resolutions. hohos. i want to thank god for a lot of stuff laas in this year. basically these:

+ making me go to deyi sec [will elaborate later]

+ giving me leadership roles in school

+ strengthening the relationship

+ toning me down by putting me in a not so good school

+ moulding me to be a better person

i feel my resolutions for next year are kinda lame, but hey, better than nothing. i think the youths are not going to go home the whole night tonight, they've gone to watch a movie yada and they were planning to walk to town from church, like tt's gonna be so tiring! hmm, i'm bushed man, after tying all the strings to nearly tons of balloons! And during the countdown, they were supposed to burst it [which they did] all 66 balloons [i counted] in the main sanctuary were burst to bits and also, our efforts were go 'poof!' into the air. oh yeah! kevin cut and dyed his hair back to original colour. he looks so young, just like isaac! how adorable.. bwahaha. okay okay, will not say anymore things to bore you out. so goodnight!

Don't judge me tomorrow

By the way I'm actin' today

Mix the words up with the actions

~

You think that you know me

You think that I'm only

-excerpted from 'tangled up in me'

-skye sweetnam

today had band. i was so tired in the late afternoon segment! hey, carnt blame. i slept at like 1.30am. but anyway, it was quite relaxed today although we did a lot of running ard locations 'cause everywhere seemed to be unavailable except the netball court and the quad and it always rained halfway so we had to run in and out of the shade. there wasn't PT today like yeAH! we did formations today then i didn't have to do, i just stood up at the staircase to watch the formations take form. it's so cool. and imagine, the formation comm drew all tt and made the steps and everything possible (i'm part of the fc but i was sick and din come oops) it was so nice. my marching bell (also known as marching glockenspiel) was so heavy after a while and blahdyys. band ended early but beiyu, jasmine and i had to stay back and see weifong sir, coz he wanted us to write ensemble scores!! then nco meeting. we are upcomings. like yuack. i'm upcoming percussion sl with wen theng..
jasmine - secretary!
bei yu - treasurer!
xinru - trombone sl
farhana - french horn sl
the rest i'm not suree.. hee
^so stressed man. councillor - i don't even know whatt i'm supposed to do for orientation. wad class i'm taking.. etc. I"M LOST!.. HELP ME SOMEONE.

Outer Shell - written by jamin
Deep slience of a quiet mind,
Physically fit and outwardly fine.
Never could express the bottled fears,
Never to let go with broken tears.

Emotionless grins of an empty face,
Anger or joy could just take its place.
For the eye is weak and easily tricked,
For a smile can be just as easily faked.

Never judge a book by its cover,
for what is real is what is under.
Both laughter and tears can express fears,
What emotion comes when loneliness's here.

hello! today i spent my day from 1-7 out. i reached home at 7.20pm. it was fun, 'cept tt i was stuck with my mom. yay! my specs are done! i'm contemplating whether to wear it tomorrow for band. i'm just afraid if i wear the old one to band, when we pump then, you know, it will fall out then if i wear the new pair, i scared it will spoil while doing PT. *ponderss!* pt is quite violent - hoho. the new specs looks like it has a lot of surface area not covering my eyes but it is the same size as my previous one. it's nice and dark purple. hee =)
i just finished eating my magnum - yumm! - well. hmm, so i spent the day out. we went to portrait gallery first to return the graduation portraits because of defects so that we can get back a new one. the graduation photos are great and lyn's going to graduate in 2 years then they'll take another graduation photo. so nice although the mortar board makes everyone who wear it look bald - heh! - okay. then we took a bus to orchard then took train to city hall then took the free shuttle service to suntec city to make my specs and go eat .. hoho. we ate kenny rogers! how nice! there was no kopitiam or anything mahh. then my mom offered kenny rogers [coz she likes it] ... so we ate a quarter meal each at $13.90 [the offer not the meal] felt so full later.. *burpp* okay. tonight, hmm, i'm gonna slp at midnight 'cause tomorrow i've got band at 8.45am so gotta catch up on lost sleep already! tomorrows band is gonna be 9am-5pm, can die laa. okayy. gdd nightss now, maybe later i'll blog again. so watch out for mee!

you see, i nearly wake up every morning to smses. ugh. i'm tired you know.

so i woke up at 9.13am because of the sms.

after i replied, i was so tired

i just died out unknowingly.

later i woke up at 10.38am - my phone was blinking away

the next msg was received at 9.15am but i was asleep [remember?]

i'm normally not that porky and glutton-like

but hey, the holidays are going to be over...

gotta enjoy my heart's out now.

i didn't tell you about last night after the concert :

auntie dolly [aka ah boh] and uncle john brought us to eat

at chomp chomp [you know the semi-famous food centre at my house/stacey's house]

tell you what, i ate like a pig:

- 1 cup of sugar cane

- 1 and a 1/2 plates of carrot cake

- 3 chicken wings

that doesn't sound at all like piggish

but the way i ate was gross

hoho. i eat like a pig...

just that i don't look it.

aww, tt's too bad.

came back from meridien's junior college symphonic band concert

it was quite good and the members were colour coded according to section.

cool!

the saxes ; red

the trumpeters ; light pink

the trombonists ; gold

the clarinets ; purple

oboeists ; dark blue

the tubas ; lime green

the baritone saxes? ; hot pink

~

the tubees [tuba players] were so cute haha, during the intermission the girl player was funny.

she and her lime green tie. hoho. so amusing! in the morning i went to my school to buy books. yoho!

when i came down the bus, i saw nicholas eng cycling hoho! the sight was amusing! hoho. buy books, wrap some books. quite boring. hey!! they changed the school pe shorts to some black shitty tyng tt is so big. the size 34 [the smallest size] was like the length of bermudas! so lame! anyway, nearly everything was out of stock and i was quite pissed loess. it is annoying. 9 books out of stock.. why am i so unlucky? yahoo. i'm talking loads of crapp manx. haiz. bored to bits. no one's talking to me on msn except jamin. shawn not back from phuket yet. so quite bored out. [he's annoying but a source of entertainment.. hoho]

okay. bored out. *yawnns*

oh!

last night I slept at 3 am.. how ambitious!

hoho. and i was still feeling hyper at tt tyme

i was talking girly talk with my sis from 2-3

i was supposed to slp at 2.. whoops.

hmm, i dunno whyye i'm feeling quite pissed at everything now

don't pardon me 'cause you might be the one i'm pissed at

i think i know why i am pissed laa, but it's too personal

but also, i don't think it's tt.

see - i'm contradicting myself again.

anyway, lets not talk about unhappy stuff and move on.

2005 is coming in less than a week

and i totally can't wait for watchnight service.

hohos.

i haven't wrote my resolutions

normally i don't

but sunday school or royal rangers make me do it

so, i don't have much of a choice.

now i'm feeling so skeptical and i'm being plain r-u-d-e

to specifically certain people. hoho

i'm mean.

louisa, you're so louisa

and i love you!

heehee.. monologue-ing again.

-smiles-

now i'm happier than ever

was playing pool with jamin just now

oh come on, we were that bored. hoho

i have no idea why shawn's dad is delaying the flight by 2 days

omg. he watched the whole tsunami thing

and he's not afraid. i am for him.

so sorry.

i'm sorry to everyone, whoever i pissed

or scolded or misunderstood

or slammed down.

i'm sorry

-lowers chin-

i don't believe
why do i pretend nothing has happened
although alone i quietly cry
the painted scenes of happiness
are already torn apart
~
i still believe love is blind
no matter what will or has happened
people let themselves be manipulated
and some people just don't have the luck
~
so now i tell you
i don't believe in love
so don't come and comfort me
as my heart breaks into paper shreds
.louisa
`badly written poem

taken from the movie
"the phantom of the opera"
all i ask of you

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me ev'ry waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you, now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

And say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you'll need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, thats all i ask of you

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me, each night, each morning
Say you love me
(You know I do)
Love me
That's all I ask of you

Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me
That's all I ask of you

i'm so bored

bored.bored.bored

i'm dyingg.

now i understand what thomas said :

he said something like my future boyfriend would suffer

because it's so difficult to amuse me.

he was at my house on the 25th and he was horrified

as my whole family, to be exact, my closest cousins - jonathan & joel

are soo r-u-d-e. haha. like we all poke fun at each other and at our own parents either.

cheryl said they were mean. hohos. but tt night, i could say was the least insulting night

ever! hoho.

*remains difficult to please

hohohohohoho

i personally find this so amusing!

pah! me difficult to amuse? [look above]

today was totally funn!

after service. we had dis sunday school thing.

so actually, we ponned royal rangers - ouch.

we went to watch the phantom of the opera

i chose it!

hohos. jh was really bitter about it at first,

cause she couldn't watch her doopied ocean's eleven/twelve [forgot title]

i was so set on watching phantom tt i din care

oh please, the other choice was kung fu hustle

which i think - is a complete waste of my money and time

don't you just agree? [guys probably don't ;) ]

i'm so happy! the show is soo great.

and i'm not so confused already, isn't tt great to hear, jeralyn and cheryl

hohos. - it's a private joke. *griins

the showw was totally great. i have the book.

now i just dunno where it is, i just saw it this morning though.

=)

okayy. my sis is chasing mee away 'cause she wants to use the comp

and i'm hindering her. my other comp's spoilt and i think it's my fault. ouchiesss!

hmm. stomachachee. ugh

okayy. byeee

good night

quote jinghan "smwahh x)"

24th dec

hoho. hii!

backk after a long time, literally.

went to ah boh's house and I was exclaiming everytime

that christmas has lost its glamour to jon and cheryl

they were so unhelpful - jon was complaining too

-about his own house party!!

annoying right?

cheryll was just being lame and being stupid.

we felt so totally dumb 'cause jon like invited his entire montfortian clan

[a.k.a. gay friends, mwahaha]

and joel invited 3 or 4 of his mj friends soo..

the study housed all the kidds and we couldn't get in!

andd we were being suchh idiots, you know the song item we were supposed to sing

i feel like smacking jonathan's face! i told him to prepare

two or more songs and he only prepared one so

we only sang one - erg.

then everyone asked for more - hoho *honoured*

so in the end we sang four songs:

`destiny's child - do you hear what i hear

`christmas is a time to love

`mariah carey - all i want for christmas is you &

mariah carey - jesus born on this day

~

it was really funn, although the atmosphere was badd

i mean, everybody feels quite lethargic - tt sorta thingg. *heh.

~

25th dec

went to churchh!! we were fifteen minutes early

thanks to lynette!

goodness. really. thank god.

when we came, the entire main sanctuary was full of old laddies & ladies

so we moved to the thirdd floor. there was, to our surprise, empty - hoho.

so we sat in the front roww. hohos again. jinghan was totally being a pain

just because i forgot to bring her present - ergo!!

*faiints

now i sound like jeralyn - oh no!

i lost my personality and style and uniqueness. ergo!!!

literally.

then we gave our presents aroundd after the service at the side hall.

funn to just stand there and collect presents, lol.

i mean, i do give people too laa. basically, exchanging gifts.

FUN.FUN.FUN

I woke up 50 mins ago. I was wrapping alvin's present just now. hmm. quote shawn "why spend two minutes wrapping a present and they just take 2 seconds to rip it open?" I totally agree laa. but at least better than him, he didn't even wrap anyone's present except the exchange gift for last night. hoho. jh got an evil present.. goodness! i was mortified and he was still acting like nothing happened. jh is less noisy now. [gives some encouragement to jh. =) ] last night, i was crazy, you can tell me tt again. i cried again, this time, for no reason that i know of laa - maybe i just dun wanna tell you, but i dunno myself. - i'm feeling quite giddy now. i have a sore throat and flu. erg. i dun even think i can sing for the christmas item at my aunt's house or at my own. ergo!! i'm dying already. stupid ernest go and curse me. *tumbles off chair* UGH!

*still on floor dying*

hoho.

hello! i just came back from our sunday school outing at 11.50pm! woots. i was so happy, i didn't even want to come home. [so true] but anyway, i don't want to come home everytime so tt doesn't make a difference huh? lols. yesterday i went out with cheryl and jeralyn to orchard. we walked around everywhere, buying nothing though. we went taka then, paragon then far east plaza. we met shawn and jamin at delifrance at paragon and they didn't know where was it (shawn to be exact bohoho.) okay, then yada yada, shopping til' 5.40pm. then when we were walking towards the mrt, we met christina, rachel wong and rachel liu. they were like terrorising all of us, literally laa. then we took mrt to marina bay, we were ten minutes late but there was not a soul [tt we knew] except michelle. she was so adorable, sitting there alone hoho. then we sat there was about half an hour to wait for the whole world to turn up then we walked towards the bus stop outside the mrt and took the shuttle bus to the steamboat place. we got an inside seat which totally sucked - everyone's smoke was blowing in our direction! everyone ate a lot, but jeralyn and I were not even quarter-full man!! shawn cooked everything for himself [doh] and a lot too was burned. whoops. lol. michelle was terrorising cheryl with her crude jokes. oh, then we had ice cream [comes together with the steamboat]. by that time, jinghan and constance left already. then michelle was making fun of her own ice cream - yuack. tt was totally gross, youu don't wanna know. =) - after the steamboat thing, we walked to the bowling alley to bowl laa [duh]. hey it's my first time bowling! woots. heh. i've been to a alley thrice or so already but never did i bowl laa. it was really fun. michelle slipped on the 'oily ball runway'. it was HILARIOUS! i never stopped hoho-ing. lols. then michelle was loser for both of the games. haha. it was really fun laa. tianle, jason and donovan din bowl, they went to the arcade la. hohoho.

i can't stand my mom! i was playing insaniquarium and she told me, dun play, i dun like. WHO THE HECK CARES WHETHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT! goodness! She expects me to sit home and be stupid and retarded and just sit there and stare into space right? i might just do that man. then she'll regret it. YUACK. so strict. so controlled. sometimes i dun even want to come back after i shop, i'd rather go home with cheryl or something. erg.

michael buble - crazy little thing called love
This thing called love I just can't handle it
This thing called love I must get round to it
I ain't ready
Crazy little thing called love
`
This thing called love
It cries
In a cradle all night
It swings
It jives
It shakes all over like a jelly fish
I kinda like it
Crazy little thing called love
`
There goes my baby
She knows how to rock 'n' roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat
`
I gotta be cool, relaxed, get hip!
Get on my track
Take a back seat
Hitch hike
And take a long, long ride on my motor bike
Until I'm ready
Crazy little thing called love
`
There goes my baby
She knows how to rock 'n' roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat
`
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love

hmm. I just woke up at 10.50am yah? then came online .. okay, dis is boring. everyday, the same thing happens. i think i'm gonna stone at home. ergo ergo ergo. haha. i'm listening to michael buble. last night, i fell aslp to summer wind by buble. haha. the cd is so nice. i stole it from my eld sis laas. her boyfriend i mean - whoops - heh heh. i'm so bored - so lazy - so tired of everything. oh forget it, as if you'll understand. you're just a digital unfeeling tyng. ugh
get outta my sight. bwahaha.

hmm, what a nice day today! I went out with my sister, cheryl, ernest, jamin and shawn. I was quite sure shawn was not supposed to be there as i was supposed to buy his present and *sighss so loudly* the two people whose presents are left are there. ergo. so i din buy anything la. we went to ps for half a day until 5pm - that was where, whoops, ernest shopped like a girl. haha. he was browsing everything, going into every shop. I nearly died frm walking around so meaninglessly. heh. me and cheryl were so lame, annoying each other and oh ya!
doopied shawn and jamin annoying us to death! they were making fun of my bell and cheryl's nose, but the nose was funny ya. haha. nose jokes - bwahahahaha. jinghan is backk. ergo again. i somehow dun miss her yakkiness. i seem to enjoy the silence. hehh. *no offence jh!* then we also went town. i dunno where but we took a bus somewhere. who knew where we went anyway, lyn n ernie were leading the way all the time. haha. so we were just like those stray dogss following along. then jamin n shawn saidd tt only lyn n ern were shopping yadayada*[classified information :) ] okay. we kinda agreed on it anyway. ok. so after town, it was about six laa. then we left and took train to toa payoh - all of us left the train except ernest *laughs bwahaha* then later we split, they went to their cell grp thingyy and we went to eat and lame ard - as usual. so that's it. byee.

`i love tt song below anyway!

michael buble - for once in my life
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
.
For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dreams come true
.
For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once I've got someone
I know won't desert me
'Cause I'm not alone anymore
.
For once I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
.
At least I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
For once in my life
I find someone
I've got someone who needs me

just woke up

to the sound of lynette's angry voice

on the phone.

my mum was on the line.

erg.

always gets us irritated huh?

i'm so mentally tired and I don't know why.

lyn was complaining and telling me tt she talked to ernest 'til 5.30am

Like it's my problem - bwahaha. =) fyne.

i should show some concern.

-bleagh-

Kyra! 

today. goodness me! i woke up at 9.42am to be exact because somebody smsed me, 'boo!' and woke me up and while we exchanged sms, halfway i kept falling back to sleep and waking up to the consistent ringing of the sms tone every nearly 15 seconds or something. That carried on until 12.15 when i actually left the bed to go toilet etc. auntie dolly called and said she was coming to pick me already for christmas item rehearsal at my aunt's house and she said she wasn't coming so soon. she came at 12.40pm. i wasn't dressed, was still listening to music and eating -three quarter done- my lunch. when she honked outside, i realised it was her 'horn', i rushed into my rm and put on the shirt stacey also -red nike shirt- has and my skirt. thk god i already thought of what to wear. i dashed out and she picked me. thk god i live in a terrace house! okay so spent my entire day at jonathan's house singing and singing myself dead. then at ard 4 we went into the study and watched a little tv, cause we were totallie bored. then at ard 5 aunt dolly came back and we sang a round for her. o my god! kyra is so damn cute manx. so docile and so innocent. afraid of nearly everything. kyra is my cousin's dog by the way, there's truffles but tt's not safe to put down unto the flr 'cause she'll start running abt like mad coz she's very active. i'm quite scared of truffles as she growls at everyone and barks like hell. kyra is SO darn cute. i love her! and even bernice = the very afraid of dog kind = said i'd like to have a dog like this! KYRA IS SO ADORABLE.

my life is boring.

always.

my mom scolded me just now = not exactly. she was scolding my sis, rattling on about dunno whad okay? then i thot she was scolding me 'cause i was in the study and she was in here too. hrmms. *confused* okay. i'm peeved. i just posted a nicely written post and the page became - the page cannot be displayed. *scowls*
-went to j8
-bought thomas's, mum's and dad's presents
-ate mos burger
That's the summary. YEAH!

my life is still boring.

always.

I'm so tired
and...
yawn.

i'm commanded to go to my cousin, bernice's birthday party.
erg.

I went to church late this morning - again
ugh. i'm ALWAYS late. so the usual happened, cheryl and I supposed to meet at serangoon garden circus bus stop to take 73. she woke up late. then i took 2 hrs to dress up [i'm not vain okay!] erg. then later my dad fetched me to the bus stop at 8.50 (supposed to meet there at 8, mind you!) then they weren't there. then my dad fetched me to cardiff and you know what? after he fetched me back to circus, they(cheryl's family) appeared(to fetch me to church) and oh my glutinous rice (copyright- hazel, bwahaha)! I got scolded on the way there. I didn't ask for it, hello! I wasn't in a good mood and this guy (cheryl's dad) comes along and mocks me. I wanted to smack him on the face. [cheryl, do not show this to your dad k? bwahhss!] i was so pissed. PISSED. what's with him, doesn't mean he can scold me because i'm his niece. yadayada respect your elders - pah! goodness gracious. my mum is older than him. his sister leh. but they're both as horrendous as each other. exact same genes. Yuck.

today was fun. whatever. i'm not in the mood to blog - at all. although so i'm doing a summary. went to church for christmas party. was so fun. yaas. then I ate a lot! the chocolate cake by ernest's mum was er, so rich and fattening yaas. anyway after clearing up then jeralyn, cheryl, michelle and I went orchard with the entire youth ppl. erg. we were peeved. it started with the four of us then lynette, then thomas, then stacey then the whole world was suddenly going with us and we got no presents and all we had was wasted time all thks to the dodo girls man. erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.!! okay. then 'shop' shop shop until ard 10 plus then went coffee bean to er, lounge around la and drink coffee, chit chat - fellowship..bwaahhahas. ok. then went home. -boredd-!!

today woke at 12pm [whoaa!] then I had to be in church at 2 so had to start dressing up immediately [aft doing toilet stuff. hahas. nyahaas] supposed to leave the house at one but left at 1.20. ugh. so i was late to meet michelle at tp interchange. after that, went church blah blah. wrapped finish the chinese books and tied the bows then it was only 3.30pm. 2 hours early! we finished the two projects we were supposed to do faster than 2 days. yay! but later we spent the 2 hours laming around and glenn's phone was condemned or something. it was sending everyone 'i love you' msgs. bwahahas. practically the whole 'church' got it. mwahhss!! some cursed phone he'd got. after that we left church and took 124 to orchard mrt. the bus was so crowded and full and cheryl, jeral and I were feeling so claustrophobic. we practically had not enough oxygen. it was obvious and after what seemed like hours, finally, we arrived so we waited for ernest at mac. he was late. bwahahas. fifteen minutes. but we weren't so gd either. 5 mins late. i mean, not for the performance laas. then later we went to the place where the stage was then waited for them lorrs. we had to carry bags for them like erg! my sis's bag was a bomb or something. so friggin' heavy. ok. overall the performance was gd but seemed like kenny was so serious and trying to be heard or talent spotted. yuck. carnt stand this kinda ppl. but carnt blame 'cause he couldn't get into singapore idol. haha. *pitys* i'm feeling quite tired noww. my legs are on the verge of falling out - think i need to elevate it. okayys. i think i'm not gonna chat with anyone, even though jas is online. hrmms.

SLEEPING TYME. =))

you know what,

i've just exploded.

again.

i was crying

a second ago.

I dunno what's with it la. I'm so grumpy blah (read prev.post) then i keep exploding. I either start crying and cursing at you or get angry. i think you'd rather the crying one. 'cause if you happen to piss me off or get in my way. you're gotta got shot by me until you die. esp. when i angry with you. i'll shoot you (with my words) until i dunno whadd. ugh.erg. i carnt take it laas. pardon me this week. and don't make me angry too.

*tries so hard to type and lick her melting like mad ice cream* yumm. am eating ice cream now. yay. split to be exact. today's events really made me feel good all over for the rest of the day although I am like pms-ing awayys. dunno whyyes. the last four days have been so 'hectic' for me, literally. i was always grumpy [except when I am with special ppl, the jamm gang, et cetera.], always feeling pissed off and angry with people which is so true 'cause it shows. ya. serious! lyke I just scolded cheryl, 'cause she was annoying me on msn. not reallys but sending a lot of 'msgs' and splitting an already short sentence into like FOUR messages. my nose hurts by the way and my leg disease is recovering. (well, if you mean turning darker instead of whiter in air conditioned places) lames! my eldest sister just cut my hair and i've just finished bathing. it's reall short and I totally love it. So cute. short and bouncy. (don't think dirtyy) today. we went to church early at like 9.30 for christian service. yay. it was so fun. we were at tp interchange at 9am and michelle was like hitting us for being 10 mins late. then jeralyn was so late. we left and took 145 by ourselves. she was left behind. ouchies. it totally was not my idea. it was michelle's then later cheryl agreed with her then I too. I was also grumpyy laas. i hate waiting for people you know. for christian service, so fun! we wrapped the newcomers' christmas presents, cut up and folded the invitations (tt was all done by me!) and service time sheets. then we went lunch together at mac and chatted with ps. lindsey about baptism (she broached the subject ferst) . thenn valerie a.k.a miaomiao a.k.a marcus's sister kakakakakakakakakaka-ed away. blabbing her own nonsense and omg, she was practically contradicting herself in every sentence she spoke which made us totally collapse with laughter as I did the invitations and cheryl n val were doing wrapping. i did a lot of bow-tying and present wrapping and bible study!! omggg!! okay. later in the afternoon, we wenta see two patients at sgh (one has cancer, one has liver problemsss) by cab. it was frightening, the hospital i mean. the woman with the liver problems was really friendly and nice and seemed fine. she was just admitted into the wardd 3 daes ago. her husband had leukamia (no idea how to spell) ouch. really saddening. then the cancer guy. he's only got one month to live. they only allowed 2 visitors so ps. lindsey and michelle went in. while cheryl and I were outside playing with the vending machine (buying drinks and watching the cups be filled and the dispenser and everything else) we were retarded - fyne. oooh. i love my hair. yaya! okay. i felt really sad for the cancer guy anyway, at first it was 6 months to live. now it was cut short to a month. but actually he might feel it better to be earlier for him to expire 'cause he has growths on his body. i imagine it and it looks gross. ouchh. i wish i could do something instead of just watch him die so silently.

that perfectly painted scene
replays ever so often in my mind
so beautiful. so wonderful.
i question myself if it is but not a dream.
extracted from 'dreams so alive. they speak.' written by louisa

another eventful day. woots. i went out with jeralyn. heys. i dunno whadd the heck's wrong with my msn. keeps playing tricks on me. like signing in and out and when i talk to certain people, it closes the window automatically. *smashes computer* and my computer, not to mention. is so annoying. i'm currently using the one in the study (which is faster although pentium 3! ironic! *mine is pentium 4 by the way.* ). i hate using the one in the study laas 'cause it doesn't have my stuff to do stuff. hahas. i'm crapping. okay. my phone inbox is full. stupid phone. my smses from jasmine and whoever that msgs me. carnt delete. Cause, i like seeing my inbox full. lame right. fyne. smack me then. *grins* woo. jason is online. whoops. i feel like i've forgotten about him. the last tyme i was talking to him, i was trying to get him to go to church which was hopelessly failing. he's darn cynical and all i can do is watch him insult me (normally i do retaliate, now, i'm trying my best to get him saved so i don't care!) he's my cousin's friend you see. we really want him to go to church and experience what we do. he's too 'un-open' laas. he's so cynical you can strangle him. but we must be patient. *runs 1 corinthians 13:4 in mind* yes. yes. yes. I pray. I pray. Jonathan pray. Cheryl pray. pleaseee. he's a really hard nut to crack. I PRAYY for his salvation! okay. as i was saying. this morning i met jeralyn at 11.30am at toa payoh. redd circle theree. sod tt. let's go to the more interesting or to us, mortifying parts. =) okayes. big news huh! i met one jiko (old man pervert?) while waiting for jeralyn (half hour!!) he peeped into the woman's (next to me) blouse. well. it was little bit low cut at the back. in fact it was not. but he peeped anyway. don't see any fun in tt. pah. after jerall arrived (after i practically fainted and was pissed off.), we went tp library to return her overduedd books. then here comes along this disgusting bogay [no teeth for your info] who asked us if we had change to take bus in mandarin. i knew he had something up his sleeve 'cause he only singled us out when there were tons other ppl to ask. then we said no. then he kept llike pressing on. i felt like bashing his already like bogay mouth to remove the excess teeth and complete the bogaying job! then later when I stormed off (jerall was like slowly walking behind me, following me!) he shouted, where are you going in mandarin yet again. you know what i did? i was appalled at my actions. i turned behind, said 'huh' in a very mean way and rolled my eyes so hard at him. unintentionally. it just came out. i didn't know. but anyway good for him. harassing young girls when he should be like, getting a dental job. then the third one. at somerset mrt. we were walking and talking towards somerset mrt (through the carpark) then this khaki shirted guy was like tailing us so near LOR. practically stuck to our plastic bags of presents already. then i felt disgusted then i linked arms with jeralyn and walked really fast to the escalator to the mrt. he followed in the same speed. yuck. then down the escalator, he was behind us. STUCK to us. mind you. ok. then when we were walking through the 'corridor' he tailed so near. so jeralyn and i tried to act silly and disgusting 'cause she pointed out the damsel-in-distress whistle the entire jamm gang has (jinghan, michelle, jeralyn and i) then i pretended and i said, 'wah, your boyfriend give one ah. let me see. so nice. wooo.. ' *tries to be annoying as usual so as to lose the pervert* we then slowed down because of the so called so nice whistle then he walked in front of us laas. wadd a freak. and he kept turning behind and looking at our faces. I felt like smacking him!!! ugh. tt's the fun part laa. the rest are history la? okay. peace out.

i just saw yong liang's display pic. yuck.

*faints*

*really faints*

*dies*

todayys so FUNN!! I went out ard 11.30am. Uncle David was going Tampines Mall with the Hongkong relatives, granny and Justin then Cheryl and I tagged along. I din know we were going to eat lunch at Crystal Jade Restaurant. hoho! We met Aunt Esther there, who already booked the table and seats yada. Then there was no place for cheryl and i then the lady dragged along two other chairs. we felt so totally like EXTRA. yeah. we ate so much and aunty esther ordered so much and cheryl and i reallie felt like we were gonna explode or something. granny ordered a char siew rice thingy and omg, she couldn't finish and asked us to share it. we were dying by tt tyme. whoaa. after tt, ha, my stomach really felt sick. then we walked ard with justin for a while, while uncle david was drawingg money then the old people [granny, hongkong relatives (couple)] took him away. *scowls* anyway he was dragging me along [coz he didn't want to hold cheryl's hand. bwahhaaas!] i feel so loved!! justin's a PERVERT man. trying to like touch cheryl's boobs all the tyme.. yuck. babies just have a fetish with tt just because they drink from it. [dun get grossed out by dis plsss - facts!!] haha. and oh yah. justin is always laughing or smiling to himself when he sees any woman in reality or on tv. PERVERSE!! haha. later after that, walked ard tampines mall then took a train down to orchardd! So FUN. then went to heeren then saw wen long. omg in jean perrie. yuck. after tt felt so disturbed. thk god i din go out with jerall and she like bankedd out on me too! THK GODD! eh? before heeren we went takashimayaaaa! then bought like SO many christmas presents! wooh. yay! then okaes. took train to toa payoh then went koufu to chat and drinkk sometyng coz i was dying of throaties. [dry throat la. my name for it!!] then later msged ard then went home lerhhs.. wadd an eventful dayy!

hmm, i really would like an mp3 player for christmas. hrmms. mom probably won't allow says i'll become a slave to it yada yada. you know, sometimes she can act really holy but sometimes she also can act unreasonable and totally ungodly! I don't get it. I will not give you the details but still. Last tyme, all the aunts and uncles joined to give me one present. A sony radio. okay. Really nice! More expensive than my two sis's ones. bwahaha. (tt period of tyme la. tt was the newest wadd) haha. it's still here though. i don't really use it 'cause lyn got a big one and nice one for her birthday from my dad (those players and plugs and blahh) really nice. looks a little like a long pancake. haha.

heyys! i just woke up (like duh!). Last night although I slept really late at like 2.30am but as usual, i'm still hyper! I'm just afraid I get bad eye bags laa. My family, *sighs*, is known for eyebags like for some people, when they sleep late everyday, nobody even knows. For my mom, when she sleeps TOO late for just one time, her eyes will look like a panda in the morning. BWAHAHA. That's the funniest part! For Lyn and I, still quite okay - haha - we have eyebags (quite bad actually but compared to a panda. nah) i'm eating last night's cheeseburger. my dad saved it for me and i din eat it. i was talking a short conversation on msn with mevis just now. after we talked a little, she said she had to go. *makes weirded out face* I'm supposed to go out with Jeralyn at 2 today, after her band. But this morning, sad, she msged me and said, i can't go, need to see doctor yada yada. I let her laas. 'cause I'm so nice. bwahaha. She's really sick laas.

my dad bought an entire feast of like mcdonalds'. i aimm eating a mcflurry - cappucino. haven't heard about it.. suaku!! msn messenger beta is so nice. =)

i changed my skin. again. i reallie like it so much. although i have no idea whyye my tagboard is purple. i tried all means to make it, er, black but anyway i love it. so purple then so much blog post area [from reading, you should know i usually blog more than maybe 100 words or far more than tt ya. so yarh. finally found the perfect skin that is purple, has big blog posting area. oh yeahh!!!

Jamie Cullum - Everlasting Love
.
Hearts gone astray, deep in her when they go
I went away just when you needed me so
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you
Won't you forget, welcome love we once knew
.
Open up your eyes, then you'll realise
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side.
Girl, to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love
.
From the very start open up your heart,
feel that you've fall in, everlasting love
.
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
.
I need a love to last forever

i am so boliao.

i decided to just tell the whole world

my likes and dislikes ya?

omg!

lykes//*

-playing the piano [music is my life!]

-listening to music

-laming around

-goofing around

-insulting people [hoho]

-observing people's actions [eccentric ya?]

-intelligent conversations. [heh]

-intelligent people *grins*

-making people laugh [my fav]

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favourite music/ songs//*

-richard marx and donna lewis : at the beginning

-skye sweetnam : tangled up in me

-selena : dreaming of you

-destiny's child : do you hear what i hear

-jamie cullum : everlasting love

-counting crows : accidentally in love

-linkin park : numb

-avril lavigne : nobody's home

-hillsongs : one way

-nearly all hillsongs =)

-planetshakers

*

dislykes//*

-mushy talk *yughh*

-mushy songs [some are okay]

-papa roach

-offensive songs

-the osbourne family [they all look gross]

-hot weather

-being cold

*

always//*

-laming around

-contradicting myself

-laughing at cheryl's blurness

-pitying old helpless women ['cept those with attitude prob]

-want to help those donation thingys

[but sometimes don't, 'cause they might be lying.]

-always trying to be nice but people misunderstand me

['cause i'm basically not, all the tyme]

-when i'm really concerned, people think i have a motive

*scowls*

-scowling! *grins sheepishly*

Frozen Emotions
Winter comes the river freezes
Out cold with chilled sneezes
Water under a winter's spell
Upon the ice some children fell.
*
Upon dead logs the parents sat
Watching children and feeling glad
Little knew they could not grasp
A young boy sat alone and wept
*
Skating shoes and warming gloves
Did his parents sent with Love
However far his parents were
All he could was wear his gloves.
*
Tears rolled down he's wheelchair bound
Firmly locked wheels on ground
He was sad, yes he was sad
Until warm hands touched his back.

-written by jamin choe

being happy and positive really paid off.

i'm not having a fever no more.

praise the lord!

37 degs!

yay!

i have a fever at 37.9 degrees.

ouchies. i felt it this morning and when

i took my temperature. oh. i hit the nail on the head.

oh yeahh. i feel like dying suddenly. must be strong.

bwahaha. must keep myself happy. argh.

yughh.

i'm dying. hey! must think positive.

i'm strong. *faints on table* guess i'm not.

haha.

i am not fatalistic!

mind you

=)

helloe! do you know what time i slept last night? 7.30p.m unbelievable! i was supposed to take a 'nap' lah and wake up at 9 plus and omg, i woke up at 2 in the morning then went back to slp then woke up again at 7.30am, with my eld sister coming in and out to do make-up *-_-'* yahh and finally i woke up at 9.30am. Woohoo! thenn i came online at 10.15. bwahaha. i'm madd now. err.

I miss jerall!

I miss the pastors!

I miss youthh camp!

; mwahhs ;

helloes again. i hav been online since like erm, 2 plus. i am listening to skye sweetnam - tangled up in me. yuck. the lyrics are so lame. ugh. she is like so b.h.b! anybody readin this pls read the four previous posts... haha. dun count the youthiee camp pic la. so nice. shawn sent it to me yay! haha. i'm madd. i'm so happy. can't wait to come online later in the night night night to chat with cheryll n et ceteraa.. bwahaha. hols are so boring. now tt band has stopped for christmas yah? i'm not sure whether i'm going to the band 'excursion' to sentosa. whadd is there to do at sentosa anyway, that is free? boring stuff rightt - the beachh etcc.. we just pay 2 bucks for admission tt's all. whadd better can we do? team-building games - get a life. ppl in the saxophone and percussion section are like so bad to each other. percussion juniors to sax seniors laas & vice versa. they are like so bossy and everything else. pahh! *piak face* hrmms. okaes. bye again! Hurray! Jing Han is in China - wow, so quiet manx. =) bwahaha. *evil laughs* byeesss

Combined camp with Sembawang A/G and Faith A/G! Youth camp rockedd! 

i love my youth camp grp

: the pastors :

i love rachel wong.

i love louis.

i love ernest.

i love pamela.

i love myself.

i love lynette.

i love christina.

i love jireh.

i love kevin.

i love bernice.

i love sophia.

hmms. i've just changed my christmas-sy skin to this urm, very me skin?

sorta la. although i'm not that wild but i kinda like it.

i am SO BORED. save me. last night i slept at around 1.30, 1.40 'cause i was chatting with ernest on msn then i transferred to him the song he wanted [selena-dreaming of you] then it took so long. i think it probs is 'cause of his comp laas. 'carnt be mine right. heh heh. i was also chatting with cheryl, shawn, clark and audrey online too. wow. i din know they were hell of a fun!! audrey was farnie. shawn was farnie and lame.

clark was weird but funny too. cheryl, as always, blur and funny, nvr fails to amuse me. i am hysteric!! I don't know the reason but i think i got influenced by jerall. today during service, we sat at the main sanctuary not the usual third flr a.k.a. balcony. haha. it was really cold but i 'stole' cheryl's jacket

[not exactly, she offered when i asked... *why am i contradicting myself?*] the sermon was by rev. humprey choe [jamin's dad, bwahaha.] and translated to english by ps. lindsey. er. i was quite surprised that he was preaching coz he was a chinese service person. yah. i was nearly falling aslp in the service all thks to jerall's sleepy brainwaves tt made me feel sleepy too. haha. she was practically lying on my shoulder most of the tyme and i was like dying too. btw, shawn and jamin joined our sunday school class today. i was second in class [i mean, the time we clock in. mwahhaasss] they came round 9.30am then jamin came in last so he had to do the closing prayer then he said it's a blessing and all of us were like rolling our eyes out. haha. okay. lets go to lunch [i am so darn talkative man] we ate at loy kee. porridge with egg. ergh. i like it tho. *contradicts herself again* then jamin was like annoying cheryl saying she does everything with her nose. sing with the nose, yada yada. then you know the egg in her porridge wasn't really cooked (the egg white rather) then it looked like mucus then jamin said tt since she eats with her nose, she'll have mucus in her porridge. well i agree it did look like mucus laas. but it's gross. haha. i've got nothing to say. well. i'm bored to bits. okk. gotta run. = )

`ffruitella

oneway.hillsong

-

i lay my life down at your feet

you're the only one i need

i turn to you and you are always there

in troubled times, it's you i seek

i put you first that's all i'll need

i humble all i am, all to you

-

one wayy, Jesus, you're the only one

that i could live for

one wayy, Jesus, you're the only one

that i could live for

-

you are always, always there

every how and everywhere

your grace abounds so deeply within me

you will never ever change

yesterday, today the same

forever 'til forever meets no end

-

you are the way, the truth and the life

we live by faith and not by sight, for you

we're living all for you

ugh. cheryll was at my house just noww slpin, coshh i think her house was emptyy laas. i wanna goee christmas shopping after church withh jerall tomorrow. i dunno whether she's free laas budd just thinking coz during the camp we hadd thought aburt it laas but never confirm (as usual) ... yada yada. okaess. aimm feeling reallie boredd right now. hmm. i lost interest in a lot of stuff dis tyme. i'm not reallie sure. i mean during the camp. bwahahas. stacey (my dormm mate) kept asking cheryl, jerall and i who we liked. we weren't even interested. then they(hazel, stacey,clara) said we liked wen long like *barfs* yuCk! okaes. budd had fun and happy being in their dorm.. *although i slept like a pig on the last nite at ard 3

heyyo!! i'm backk from youth camp!! yay! was so great and spiritually reviving. bwahahas! it was soo great manx. it was at the boys' brigade at zion road. reallie reallie nice!! ok. i'll give you a summary of the entire camp kaes. woots.

*

day one

we went to church at 1030. woots. uncle david

fetched me n cheryll. woO! okays. then we left for camp at 1.30 plus.

the BB was reallie nice. haha. after we reached then we had to split into our grps

then we played the game - familiar strangers- budd it was quite

lame. we played 'bomb' in our grps lah. so our grps were called according to

the five-fold ministry. lyke the grp names were teachers, pastors, evangelists, prophets and apostles. cool manx. i'm glad i didn't bring anyone along although the worship n everything was great cause they will hinder me in worship n activities n stuff coshh they'll be like clingin on to me and liking n flirtin wiff all the guys. carnt take it. okaes then we washed up after the like warming up gamess n then dinner then night service by ps. eileen. tt night = the first night= was the praise n worship night so had a lot of singing n dancing. cool. then until leg painn! numb larx. okaes then supper then lights outtaa!!! woots.

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day two

6.50 wakey wakeyy haha. then devotion n breakfast then morning service entitled 'surfing emotional tides' by rachel hee. the service was reallie gd abt love n then gender thingys bwahaha budd of crse gott spiritual stuffies too larx. ok. then was dirty games in the afternoon aft lunch. we played like a relay. we had to pair up guy girl (ppl in the same grp) then crawl under the rope n not hit the coconuts/obstacles then spin ard 10 times then slide across a soapy table wahaha. then carry his legs thenn he crawl to the other line. bwahaha. being gurlls so fun. haha. then the whole grp mus do the same thing. bwahaha. then the usual budd the service was by ps ronald reallie nicee and reallie gd. then the usual again.

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day three

same. same. same. then workshop by ps. lindsey called scoring goals in life. then usual then R&R then liquid tension and reallie reallie wet game(s). lyke soapy dog and bone. bwahaha. then nicholas dislocated his arm.. ugh. it was reallie reallie gross then casualty marx so then we go n make water bombs for the next game-bombyss!! then okay yah the day b4 i fell off the lower deck of the bed n injured my last toeee.. ugh. it looks rotten nows.. okay then after that usual larx.. [shawn was aiming at me the whole tyme of the water bombing game coshh i was dry] then USUAL.

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day four

ALOHAA!! today is banquet night n the theme is aloha! okay. morning service and then night service change to 3pm. then we had to think of the skitt.. ours was like based on battle royale . ugh. gruesomee. then chioin urpp then boy meet girl. i got joshua who is lyke nearly twice my age. bwahaha. then cheryll gort yishun ugh. oh yah. in the skit i had to act lovey dovey with lyke ernest[i love you, you love me stuff]. ugh. then it was so funny coz the moral was like everyone was killing each other so(after ernest 'killed' me he got killed too) ughh abt the rhythmm n passion blahhs. okay then later really fun tyngs happened. the presentation of the skits n all. then after eleven no lights out can do anytyngs so the guys go play soccer thenn the girls have talk n lorxxxx.. very funny. then i fell aslp while everyone was out. I know, i slpt like a pigg. budd it was like 3 am lerx. the other ppl slept at five plus lorx.. haha. okays nites.

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day five(today)

yay. go home lerx. woke urp damnn lates brkfast already over somemore. wahaha. clean up. thksgiving. wah. almost everyone mus give testimonyy then homE SWeET hOmE!! yay! So HApPYY!!!!

r we reallie changing class? 1/6 to 2/9 sounds nice budd i reallie lyke our class! mwahhs *sob*

heyy.so sadd manx. couldn't go to dah sleepover. actuallie could lahh. budd my mum was preaching awayy and i thot best not to go. budd anyways, i'm not reallie ready wiff the aloha! thingyy. i love the neos i took wiff jerall//* nice!! today had band. jasmine came today! she told me eighth then comee back, tt lil' liar. budd anyways, i hope i can still go to the sleepover. lyke a miracle if my dad comes home, you know, you know. yada. hmm. boredd to bits. =)
sighh. aimm reallie sadd carn't go. they both broke up. wakakaka. *laughs myself to death* you know, two days i was saying - his nick was "only true love lasts forever". factually, true love does not last forever, coz nothing lasts forever. dunn you get it, when you die. you either go to hell/heaven yada. do you think love exists in those worlds. my ans is no. so, true love does not last forever. seriously. i think tt the one tt lost out was the guyy 'cause he doesn't know tt she actually flirts with every senior in band and more. so i feel sad n happy for him at the same tyme. she's probs reading this. budd never minds. it's kinda a fact. erica knows n actuallie told me.. two ppl told me too.. so it's kinda the news. budd i dun think it's really a gossip story .. i think it more like a sad story. exploited boyy. flirtatious/flamboyant girll. pities

`carntt goo. all dah effort gone to waste

todaes was a funn funn daee! churchh was so funn. we were so hyped abt the jamm gang thingyy then michelle got us souvenirs fromm korea or japan? *confusedd* a whistlee n some hp keyy chain. the whistle (we named it the jamm gang help call.. bwahhaha) was so cute! i got red, jerall got purple n jinghan gott bluee. later, aft rr, thenn jeralyn n i wentt novena then walk for abt an hourr then we go heeren take neos n oso shopp lah [altho we hadd no money so windoww shop] my mum practically ditched me n left me stranded in church - mwahaha. tt's why we decided to go shoppinn!! woots. haha. i'm not going to pon band to go for the partyy at jh house - so called. - i'm jus going at nights 2 slp n playy daideex n morees.. then do the jg [jamm gang] blogg.. bwahaha. amm madd lerhhs.. so.. gd night. gort no tyme to packk my youth camp stuff you knows.. hmmph!!
{dis entry goes into bothh my blog n the jamm gang blogg plss}

`__i love jerall//*

i aimm a weird gurll

umm. woww. it's late now. burtt i'm reallie hyper coshh` took a nap frm 4.30 to 7.. i think i'm going to slp lerhhs.. just now was talking to jamin on msn.. he lamer lah.. u knows, the jamm gang(made up of our b'day months n names) consists of jerall, me, jh & michelle, then he say he wanna join, he so childish for sec 3 going sec 4 ahhs. denn youth camp for the last night service, i aimm support singer with him and my sis - ughh! he's prob gonna like blast my ears off wiff his dreadfull voice. bwahahas. they actuallie arranged all four of us (except michelle, the jamm gang strikess again!) for each night for support singing, which is so damm dohh.. i carn't bearr goin to youth camp then leaving my comp at home n stuff! ; heartbrokenn ; burt okay lorhh. i mean i come online everyday which is nort gd lahh.. but i'm so bored thenn coshh always got band so too tired to go out on tt day lerhhs.. so jus come home n use comp for a long long time b4 dinner or take a nap or somethinng.. i was looking at cheryl's blog (jerall's lookalike fwen) so cute. haha. budd it's become so typical to have pictures on blogskins tt show lil' children kissing or going to kiss.. actuallie, it's quite disturbingg. lyke how do dey take the pics.. ughh, carnt imagine, and the kids are probably doing it without knowing, tt sorta tyng yeah. todae hadd band, practically standing the whole morning, we din even sit in the band rm once (except for announcement la). denn percussion nearly died, morning started wiff a lil pt, then later a bit of drills wif inst somemore!! denn later do 'carnt take my eyes' new dance steps. omgg. denn convention then chingayy. the usual lahhs. was so tired then was so dirtyy n sweaty coshh mus run here n theres if not shikin mam will pump us. haha, talking abt tired.. i'm feeling tired toos... okiee.. gonna runn off soon. urms. was quite funny lah today and fun. supposed to go kfc wif doreen n steph after band, but in the end steph n i ditched doreen coz darn sleepy. i reallie wanted to go wiff doreen lorx. budd so tired. haha. nature's call (does nort apply.. mwahaha) i aimm going noww. tomorrow will be busy packing liaox then monday got band n maybe i going to jh's sleepover aft tt then youth camp! woots. so miss mee!! =x

today actuallie wantedd to go out [ i did ] budd hadta wake up at 8.30am coshh must go and meet the formation comm at 11. i wenta meet beiyu first at the school bus stop denn we went to find kfc, to be exact, we spent half an hr findin the dumbb kfc. we met at 10.15am then later found kfc at 10.45am. we reach there then sit aroundd then abt five minutes later, haowen 'appeared' with foodddd... he was such a pigg, eating and ugh, the soundd!! we were asked by haowen [ dahh stupidd headd of formation comm. ] to copy the four formations for chingayy thenn we hadd no graph paperr, then he gave us one stack ok then yada yada. next sylvia then syarif then jezebel thenn bixia camee. wow. i tink bixia got lost. she arrived flustered and red and seemed like she ran a few miles before arriving - bwahaha. okayy. then did formations, numbering, grping for a longg longg tyme til' 1.45pm. thenn finallie finish so we left then i went home. later then go out wiff my mumma n auntie dolly [ my fav aunt!] then we went to the concourse to get christmas stuff then later went rivervale mall to do stuff then later go homee then when she fetched us backk then i ask her to support dmb! she donated 6 bucks. woots. lovee herr!! btw, changed phonee! haha to another ah pok but colour phone.. samsung onee!! okiee... gotta goeee... byee

`wooh laa laaaaa

Ughh, i just wrote a post then when i published it, it went to the page - the page cannot be displayed - and no matter how much i refresh, all it gave me was this empty post page. *smacks computer!!* Okay. i was saying, there is no one online and everybody's still sleeping. I thought Jing Han (JH) would be awake coshh her mom actually forces her to slp @ 10pm n wake up around 7-8? Wooh! Someone's online - phyllis!! - Lols. Well, just now when i was bloggin, it was 7.50am. Now it's 8.21am. Ughhhyys! Anyway, gort's nothing to say. So Ciao!

`wooh-la-laaa