A Grid Of Stars

Today your mother dropped by, gavesome of your things to us; staredwistful at our fashions and newsof university; clutching her coffee cupwith white, composed fingers;her calm unhinting voice talksof cupric blueness of Mediterranean, where they'd just returned from-pausing upon the inexorable.

Steam above coffee, rising,
the bright kitchen.
This gentle aftermath of closure.

Tonight I am bound for San Francisco.On the plane, pressing my face, palms to the glass.Takeoff is the moment of vulnerability,where everything seems to fallapart, a roar of lifting wheels and churning, changing air.I watch the forsaking city as neon andfluorescence beneath my leaving feet.Knowing with absolute convictionthat if I were God deciding a grid of stars,the first would never have to be elegy.

-Edlyn Ang-

I feel that everyone hates me. Really. This has nothing to do with Bei Yu and I just finished the Stargirl book. It is marvelous. It is truthfully a work of art and how a person called Stargirl is able to touch the school even though everyone thought she was an old fraud. A story of great bravery I shall say. I'm feeling kind of depressed suddenly as I read the book. I think the story kinda speaks to me in a more mutual way...It is just a very neutral way of talking to people about a guy called Leo Borlock who was the only person who appreciated her. LOL.

[i don't play games of deceit with myself. I play them with the world---]

MY FRIEND

My friend, I stand in judgment now
And feel that you're to blame somehow.
On earth I walked with you each day
And never did you point the way.

You knew the Lord in truth and glory
But never did you tell the story.
My knowledge then was very dim
You could have led me safe to HIM.

Though we lived together on the earth
You never told me of the second birth.
And now I stand this day condemned
Because you failed to mention HIM.

You taught me many things, that's true.
I called you friend and trusted you.
But I learn now that it's too late
You could have saved me from this FATE.

We walked by day and talked by night
And yet you showed me not the light.
You let me live and love and die
You knew that I'd never live on high.

Yes. I called you friend in life
And trusted you through joy and strife
And yet on coming to this end
I cannot now call you "My Friend".

"She was elusive.
She was today.
She was tomorrow.
She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting shadow of an elf owl.
We did not know
what to make of her.
In our minds we tried to
pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly,
but the pin merely went through
and away she flew."
:excerpt taken from Jerry Spinelli's - Stargirl

I love this book so much! It is so nice. I haven't finished it but it's really nice! I recommend you read it. Anyway, I have made a website for 1/6 - 2/6 people. Who knows, maybe I won't promote.. _sux_ I think that I'm gonna fail history! Argh! Today so fun. Band. In the morning I nearly died tho. Omg, there is this stupid crow outside my house crowing away and it has been doing that since yesterday!!! what a horror... I mean normally people living in terrace houses don't open their windows.. But I dunno why my maid has been opening mine.. So what can i do? We and Jasmine were sharing a mini melts ice cream just now. Omg, it's so pathetic for 2 bucks.. Waste our money. First time band end so early. End at 12.... Hahaz... They preparing for Chingay 05 and Concert already.. LOLs... I'm stuck at the dumb Timpani.. Queena keep askin me play.. I don't mind playing for Malay Folk Tunes Medley but not for Without You and others.. Without You i play bell somemore.. Idiotic larhhs.. All thanks to Mrs Chee lorh. Anyway, I ditched the Timpani for Without You 'cause I was so sick of the vibration of the Timpani, I was getting a headache.. Hahas. So Karen Mam played.. Wakakaka, anyway Timpani players always get lost halfway and Karen didn't even tune the Timpani... Haiz.. Percussion is in such a mess 'cause there's a thousand ppl in here........Literally -)

This lyrcis was taken from Timbo one.. I kinda like this song.. quite cute haha - okayys..

Artist: Usher
Album: Confessions
Title: My Boo


feat. Alicia Keys

[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

the.long.way.home

reaching out to those i lost.

it's just a long way home
to where it's warm and bright
it's through many obstacles
to the right path
to where i call home

Haha, I saw this on a blogskin while browsing around for new blogskins for my blogg. I'm so bored to bits! Exams over ler. But aiyah don't count the stupid art and cme.. It's lame and stupid lorhhs.. What kind of sch got CME one.. SuckS! I think i'm gonna fail art coz my art reallie sucks and some people, a girl in our class to be exact keep saying that we will fail, hai, I wonder who is tt... That girl is such a b****... because of other reasons too larh..(".) Anyways, I like this little poem or thingy on hwee en's blog.. It's really meaningful and nice.. Lols.. okayys.. I'm mad!

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off her, am I right??
-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's there??
-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
-It isn't love, it's LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?
-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??
-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?
-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??
-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?The answer is so simple 'cos it's... LOVE

hey guys.. am back after my long time of 'holidays'... Haha. Friday then exams finish... Omg.. Still haven't do art. Wah kao! I sure fail one.. It's soooo bad. Today exam test Geog and Home Ec... Home Ec was soooo difficult! Omg! I wanted to die lorh!!!! OMG OMG OMG! But cannot fail cause my desgn brief got a1 haha!

Percussionists at the Esplanade 

He who goes out weeping,

carrying seed to sow,

will return with songs of joy.

Psalm 126:6 [NIV]

Chinese Exam is over! I was so stressed the last few days. Thank God it's over! Suddenly the black cloud just whooshed away from me after the exam and I feel more carefree! Woo...... Finally back to blog. I've never been offline for so long [i'm online everyday so you get the point?] Yupps. Now back to blog for maybe today, tomorrow and Sunday, after that cannot come online lerrhs... not because mother dun allow but because of my guilt if I do come online... Hahaha. Exams suck! Got maths class at 2pm. Just now after Exam, Jasmine come my house do art... After that I tongpang [urm, help her do something when i'm faster or on the way???] her on my bike to the busstop.. wah lao.. she kept screaming like a mad woman... omg. Haha, feel so happy. Sitting with my favourite pink bear frm Miss Koh! YAY!

It is not how much we have,
but how much we enjoy,
that makes happiness.
-Charles Haddon Spurgeon

Today... went to church, couldn't quite pay attention 'cause I was quite tired. Haha, I actually am quite lazy to type out today's activities.. Bored out to bits.. I'm very very very scared for Chinese Exam on Fri, can't seem to get into the mood for studying. I just keep getting off-focus... It's nearly impossible for me to just study for the Chinese Exam. HOW? I'm DYING...

*Stacie Orrico
Strong Enough

As I rest against this cold hard wall will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out
And start again?
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again?
If I'm healed, renewed and find forgiveness;
find the strength I’ve never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God’s plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out And start again?
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?
He took my life into His hands and turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance its there I've finally found
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out
And start again

That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh thank You for my chance to start again

[*love him ---]

Today was my greatest day... Haha, could say that larh... GOT english exam today... Wow, the paper was sooo difficult but the compo was easy as pie.. lol.. Serious. Don't know la, got a lot of inspiration ya? Haha... I'm going mad already... I feel that I'm changing weirdly tho.. Haha, today chat with PeiShan for quite a long time... actuallie chat with her quite enjoyable too... Haha... Hmmm, I guess I've got nth more to say ... Heehee.

*Excuse me, I'm becoming so damn 'cheeeNA'.. GAWD!

Today got art.. Wah, very very frightening man... It was like .. so weird. Mr Lim scolded the boys(we thot its everybody.. explain later) , [isn't that not surprising cause he scolds them evry week anyway...haha] okay, then later, he asked all the girls to stay back after his lesson then he say that just now he scold one is the boys lah, at tt time he really looked like a total pervert... haha, then later he nearly smacked Jasmine because she was being buai huay bai.. Haha.. So funny then all the girls laughing, he praised us somemore.. but actually Jas and I are at the same stage as the boys.... Unlucky!

Today was quite fun larh, never go school 'cause got dental appointment with the orthodontist. Heh heh... [for doing braces] The doc was called Dr. Lena Stevenberg , yup! She was quite friendly and she actually stuff a gazillion gross green goop into my mouth. Ohmigod! It was like Sooo gross.. She said it tasted a little like bubblegum and I already hate bubblegum... YucK! It was like soooooo gross for me to have those globs of greenish blue gunk in my mouth.. ooooohie, yuck!

I feel..
[some guys are the lamest because...]
- They are sooo insensitive
- They think they're cool just because they make fun of someone
- They act and act and act (you get it? bleahx**)
- They think they are so amusing when they make fun of you
- They try so very hard to get the teacher's attention
- They're asking for a slap frm people [eg. jinrong]

*the perfect pair fer me*
= Preferably english name [it kinda determines the social & family status]
= Must be average looking [don't look gross lah]
= Must be funny and able to hold my attention for long...
= Must be willing to do things for me
= No long hair or weird hair
= Try not to wear glasses [if wearing, must be some cool or unique glasses like mine... lol]
= Not the same age as me [you know tt boys mature slower]

Hmm, nothing to say lerhs... Haha. I'm so mad todayss.. muaCKies my dear friends! :)

Haha, i can die of laughter today! Mr Tay called Rebecca to read the Lit poem on 'Mother Loves me' due to 'majority demand' as he said so. Haha, when she was reading, Leonard was hooting with laughter like a mad guy, n he sounded like a cockatoo.. Hahaha, it was soooo funny! The whole class just simply finds Rebecca funny and weird. Lol. Haha.. see, I'm dying of laughter now.. Haha. HAHA. HAHA.

I'm as happy as a ... urm, er... oh forget it! I'm as happy as a ... urm, er cow? Wahahaha! Here I am acting retarded. Sigh! I'm like SOoooo happy because just now i was messaging my friend.. and 'it' is such a funny bunny! Oh god must wait so long before can talk on msn again.. Sian sia... haha, I'm so mad today.. Listening to F.I.R now, pls arh, the only chinese songs I listen to r by F.I.R okay, so don't force me listen to others.. haha! So long never blog ler... hHAHA exam comin lo, so you guys all must work hard, strive hard n we'll promote as a class! muaCKS! Haha, go liao.. :)

Today, haha, quite a nice day except just ten mins ago my stupid mother was like suaning me and I was so pissed off I played the piano damn loud so my maid cannot hear what is she telling her. She wasn't offended. I really hate those cookies (the mooncake festival always have one) , I think jonathan(cousin) likes it lah, but then she offer to me then later say oh, I don't appreciate things blah blah blah as if she is SOOOO appreciative, she ain't at all! Hah! She just spends her day spending loads of money and then when I say go Popular and buy me just ONE size 12 paintbrush, she says, at home got a lot, don't waste money.. EXCUSE ME! Yesterday I was soo pathetic I had to paint my drugs poster with a dried flower and a sponge. HELLO? What is this world coming to? I'm so pissed... Barnacles - she is so driving me to the limits.. she can even drive me to my grave... now that you mentioned, actually i don't mind!

Yet another eventful or maybe gross day - Today I quite bad to Jasmine in the morning, coz of what happened yesterday and Bei Yu never come today. This shows how much Jasmine like Bei Yu 'cause she was SO quiet (if you know her, she'll never be quiet unless she's dead.. XP). Then before assembly she also very quiet only mutter a few words to Heng Jie, I don't know, am I supposed to pity her? I'm quite upset today not because of anything to deal with friends but it's just this little sinking feeling. We had Geog Test on Population today thank GOD I studied in the morning - It was so easy!!! and the teacher said that it was a Normal Acad paper, was she trying to insult our intelligence? Haha, i think Ms Rachel is a very good geog teacher tho sometimes she scares me coz of her pointing at you to answer qns that you have no idea how to answer. Oh, as I was saying about why I'm upset, I told Jasmine about some private things kept between us and she got pretty offended, you could say, coz I was so called suaning her, you could say that! She still says I'm her best friend the last time I quarreled with her, oh please, forget it! I'm being frank here - You don't treat me like one. I'm not jealous of Bei Yu but if I'm your best friend, Bei Yu is your bestest bestest friend huh? Gee, I'm right! Oh, today after school I went to the library with Jasmine to study (do homework etc.) Safie (spellin?) came up n joined us and later disgusting Jin Rong came along and joined us, he said such a lame thing! "Ay, ni men ye zai zhe li, wo ye lai zhuo gong ke" (translation: "Ay, you guys are also here, I'm also here to do homework") He has a flu or nose flow or whatever but he was gross and came wiping mucus off his nose - then later he didn't even know a long string of mucus was hanging at the edge of his nose, he only realized it when Jasmine and I was pointing at it and Safie was saying disgusting all the way.. HAHA! What a joke! He can probably enter the Guiness Book of Records for the person which has the most mucus in one hour.. Yuck! After he finished using his tissue, he went to the toilet and got a whole string of toilet paper into the library.. GAWD! I was already dying of disgust! And he kept burping and burping til I nearly died of the stench. OH gawd, am I glad after he left.. ! [After he left, there was toilet paper scraps all over the table] Oh my god... It was the funniest thing ever... HAHA! We stayed in the library til the stupid librarion Nicholas Eng chased us out.. Diao * guffaws *

My family during christmas! 

Jasmine, Nurul, Beiyu and I, oh, am I sick of the three of us [minus nurul tho I'm sitting wif her now] 

Jeralyn[my bestest friend since birth?] and I living it up at Shaw Plaza [actuallie we're at church but Shaw Plaza is just next door so we went for lunch there and took this!] 

Ever imagined or wondered what my house looked like? This is the street outside my house! :) 

I don't know how to express my feelings, I'm so annoyed and pissed at the same time - Now, I'm in a total state of confusion I tell you! I feel so cheated and angry but the next minute I feel that what i feel is gonna make me happy in future thoughts - I'm already like a rubberband stretched to its limits and I feel that I'm going to blow up or burst, when I tell my 'school friends' [notice the ' '] about it, they brush it off or sweep it under the carpet saying that I will get over it and all that crap that is completely untrue, do you think you would get over something that happens everyday without fail in front of your eyes? You'll be glassy-eyed then! No one will understand my pain, even if I told you, you would just brush it off and just tell me try to accept it - I HAVE TRIED ACCEPTING IT FOR 6 MONTHS ALREADY, DO YOU THINK I CAN ANYMORE, IF YOU REALLIE FEEL WHAT I FEEL YOU WOULD HAVE BLOWN UP IN THE FIRST WEEK, NOT SIX MONTHS LATER! You guys know who am I trying to say? I hope you guys read this, the person who will definitely read this will not understand either but brush it off too like a common gesture everyone does , I'm feeling SICK!

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

BRIDGE
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

Wahz, so long never blog liao.. A lotta special stuff happened this week, not entirely SPECIAL but at least FUNNY, no more band practices liao, close for eXam breAK.. Sianz.. but also quite happy. Yesterdays I made fried rice and fruit salad for home econs.. Oh my god. After that, i had Piano EXAM.. I so scared. I think I will fail. Haiz - Sad. After going home and lazing around, 8 pm my maid started asking me what was in the Home Ec containers she opened it and OH GOD, the fried rice stunk of this weird chickeny n foul smell.. Yuck.. I think it's worse than body odour

Tuesday!!! Today gots band. Quite fun, we practiced Malay folk tunes, was quite nice. I was surprised it actually had a Tmpani solo. Fun! Loved it.... It was so enjoyable. Tho a bit waste time coz we spent the whole practice learning the song.. ONE SONG! Lol, today got dinner until eleven plus... Grandma birthday, cannot miss wan.. sod

Today is so great, i made Apple Crumble for Home Econs, it was rather weird, when u take it out of the paper right the apple Crumble (liquid) will start flowing. My teacher said it was liddat.. DIAO.. haha. It was so fun. Today, the plan worked halfway - "Operation Changer." Wahaha

Yesterday was so mind-blowing! When we were the Esplanade performing, the crowd was great, silent and all, intently listening to us, tho I felt we were quite messed up esp the Percussion. I play quite okay for those songs that I was very sure of. But for the other songs, I sucked, seriously. It was bad and I think it's lack of practice but I study my scores everytime they give it to me. It was weird but fun. The two Timpani parts I played were great! I loved it.. Tho, I got a little lost at Highlights From Grease but it was okay, becoz I was dancing the stupid dance that caused me to lose count. Hehe, so nice. After go home liao, then take a long half hour bath and scrub my head like mad, because Jasmine mother help me tie bun then so tight and it's like stuck to my head. 10 pins were used! Today, Jasmine lent me Cinderella Story. I'm going to watch it! Yay! So happy. Wah biang, the stupid frenk ah at Beiyu blog. Maybe becoz I said on my blog about him/her, stupid go use my name... Haha, anyway, I know my conscience is clear, to frenk, want to use, use your own name. You'll never achieve it lorh, your english so lousy, still want to put my name.. You sure from 1/3 or something

"I wish silently
That he would call
On a so brightly lit evening
It's impossible
but is it wrong to have wishes?"
-Louisa
There's this person at Beiyu blog ah called frenk, go say her flirty and act queen. Haha, that frenk must be jealous. Haha! Well, I don't know what is up with me, but I don't feel offended... Maybe it's just unnatural - and I am a traitor.... Hate me for all I care.. It doesn't matter anymore does it. Haha *evil laughs* .... Wish me luck!

*I don't know why, I'm going mad. Suddenly, I'll feel all hateful n the next minute I feel like you know, something struck me on the head. Oh god today's Thursday! I shld be going to do my science assessment liao. Yay! Tomorrow no formation lecture... so go to school later lorhz.. Goodie! I'm so happy!

Emma Bunton - Maybe

Love isn't funny
When it is burning inside
When all you think of
Is how to get through the night
And when you want it
It's just a game that you play
And when you get it
They're gonna take it away

Maybe it's nothing
Maybe it's all just in my mind
Maybe I'm foolish
Maybe it's just a waste of time
But I don't think so
Maybe I definitely know
That maybe
Maybe I'm in love

So if you want it
You wanna come out to play
Then you can have it
Cos he's got plans for the day
And if I want it
There's no one out there for me
When you don't need it
There's plenty fish in the sea

Maybe it's nothing
Maybe it's all just in my mind
Maybe I'm foolish
Maybe it's just a waste of time
But I don't think so
Maybe I definitely know
Why do I keep fooling myself
Why can't I let go
This is not like me
But now I definitely see
That maybe
Maybe I'm in love

But I don't think so (but I don't think so)
Maybe I definitely know
Why do I keep fooling myself
Why can't I let go
This is not like me (this is not like me)
But now I definately see (definitely)
That maybe (oh-oh-oh-oh maybe)
Maybe I'm in love

Love isn't funny
When it is burning inside
When all you think of
Is how to get through the night
And when you want it
It's just a game that you play
And when you get it
They're gonna take it away
Maybe it's nothing
Maybe it's all just in my mind
Maybe I'm foolish
Maybe it's just a waste of time
But I don't think so
Maybe I definately know
Why do I keep fooling myself
Why can't I let go
This is not like meBut now I definitely see
That maybe
Maybe I'm in love

Got band practice today... Quite boring at the start 'cause doing strokes then later Bixia ask the Percussionists performin at Esplanade to think of the gimmick at the 'We go together' song of Highlights from Grease. It was so funny! Lucius was doing stupid gimmicks like acting retarded (tho he really looked like one) wahaha... It was really great. Then later we went into the Band Rm to combine the gimmicks with the other section. The Trumpeters were hilarious! They did this turn in 360 degrees thingy as fast as possible and in the end the Drum Major say don't do... lol, it was quite ridiculous but funny. Then after band, about 1.30pm, then Jasmine and I take 136 and chit chat about the weirdest things ever. I got piano lesson after I went home so left the house in the rush.. The teacher lorh, stay in Tampines. So far, take one n a half hours to get there! So leave the house at 2.35pm then reach there 3.55, can say just nice for my lesson at 4pm. Haha. After come home, my father say he bought troy n garfield vcd. This guy he buy from, quality very gd haha. I watched 1 disc of Garfield and it was perfect, without any like stupid 'ssh shaa' sounds like most pirated discs.. haha

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! So great today, finally changed to Windows XP already! Hip Hip Huray!

Hey, didn't come to blog for a million years, you know I really like this song by Emma Bunton, I found it quite cute lah. Haha, later in the next post then publish it, haha! I'm so happy today! Lynette and I were busy insulting each other [friendly] and it was so funny, n we ended up laughing away. Woohoo! On Friday, I was so mad, I was so eager to get home after cleaning our tables with thinner and oh god after tt I felt as if I had some drug addict withdrawal symptom because of all tt thinner. After I got home then I was lazing around n on the computer but on Saturday, it was totally different. The moment I woke up, I brought my house organ chair into my room to do my work, sitting on my own bed, haha. So i finished doing three quarters of my homework on sat, I left the Lit Essay only... Sod that, coz I have nothing to do in the holidays, and even if i'm thinking of going out or something, I have to window shop! Oh god, that is so totally gross! Anyway, gtg now byez

ME and Beiyu 

Beiyu and I.. haha 

..... It's that time of year when we go back to OLGC because it's .... TEACHERS' DAY!!! Well, it's my first time going back and sure, I miss MRS TAY!!! It was a great time, I went back to the Old Da Qiao (currently OLGC).. It was great man, I saw Camelia, Charmaine Foo, Amanda Phua, Stephanie Tan and Calista and more lah, playing netball as usual.., Oh my god! Calista cut her hair and it looked Sooooooo cute on her. Haha. Tracy (Rachel Chiang's sister) was taking us on a tour.. haha, I found it so farnie. Too bad Samantha, Celine, Rachel and I couldn't get to see any teachers.. coz they juz went for a meeting! Diao.... So sad.. But I managed to chat with old friends... Cathy, Judith, Jacinta, Melanie, and more.. They were great fun! And Cathy was such a sweet little thing. She has not grown much taller.... But she looks like a lil' vulnerable girl.. strolling in the school, if not, one of the students there! LOL! No offence sia..:) So funny! Haha, well going back was such a great idea, I love OLGC so much!

Today was a great great, mind blowing day! I was so happie.. juz tt Jasmine kept bursting my 'happy emotion' bubble but doing her usual.. -.-'
CRAPPER! Wow, today went j8 with beiyu to get prezzie for teachers' day.. but to no avail... sadly, I COUDN'T GET ANYTHING....

Today was one of many great days of mine. I was exhausted during band as I had to stay back til 5 for the Formation Lecture... Sucked.. I didn't understand Chapter Two: the Fundamental dunno what? I was so confused and I was falling apart..... Mrs Chee n Zhi Liang sir kept looking at me, and I felt quite pressurized.. I hope I don't get handpicked to write the formations for Chingay......... The thought simply scares me...Haha! Well, today the Percussion performed the Percussion Ensemble for Mrs Chee and the band applauded us.. haha! Mrs Chee told Liang Chi aka Mr Gong to teach me how to play gong... argh!... IT was simply embarassing but I have no strength to roll the dumb gong..! Argh and after that I have to jump to the Vibra and step the darn pedal which was making the music sound all echoey... hahaha, going offline nowz.. haha Byez

Accidentally in Love by Counting Crows (Shrek 2 Soundtrack)

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming
All this love melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,

Accidentally
I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love... I'm in love

This week, lotsa things happened at school. But yesterday was quite a fun day. We handed up our art NDP drums and those average ones got 7, darn, i got a seven too... Zeus got 8.5... But that's no shocking news.. He's so quiet and engrossed in his own work. He was first for midyr exams and I was second.. Gawd... It's a big difference.. its too sad he landed in such a barbaric class.. pity..Today got maths test. Sigh, most of the qns I last minute got struck with the answer... heheezz.. I can assure they are correct but very hard to say hor.. Today got sectional band.. only Percussion. So cute! We were playing Mummy Returns with the Ensemble and percussion.. Sulaiman, Haowen and Queena joined us. Sulaiman and Haowen play marimba.. They both very siao lah. Anyhow play then Haowen laughed until almost cry... hahaz... Then later Wei Fong say I play gong because I laugh so much.. So now i'm playing gong and vibraphone... hahaz.. okay, feeling a little siao today,,, Buaiz!

Today was such a great day... School was fun fun fun! Today during PE we got pumped 15 by Ms Lee all because of HENGJIE!!! He so didn't want to do and I'm so totally pissed and embarrassed that our class got punished. I was thinking if you want to act cool, don't get the rest of the class into trouble! STUPID... I know that anyone frm my class will condemn me upon reading this but WHO CARES... Um. After school went j8 to buy lunch then go beiyu house and do project and our 'sell ice to eskimos' project was SOOOoooo cute! See ya Ciao!

Torture.Torture.Torture. That is the only word I can think of today. I was at band since 9 in the morning til 6. Firstly, we had a furious PT in the morning inclusive of touching the fence on the both sides 36 times. And they weren't very near to each other... Sod.. Then push ups, sit ups, crutches, commando squat? and all tt. Oh god. I really really felt like dying. I know this is about TKians being so very fit but thats becoz they choose their members like if you're fat you cannot join. That sorta thing. Those TK Tuba Players are about the size of me, what do you think of tt..?! Oh, after band, Percussion had a big big scolding from Queena Mam n i think it was about half an hour long.. It was so bad. We pumped 20... sod... :( so sad. After after Band, I reached home at 6.30 and 6.45 I left for the Zhonghua Music and Movement Concert. During those pathetic 15 minutes, I bathed, ate and changed.. That was a total record! Anyway, the Zhonghua M&M concert sucked big time except for the guzheng and chinese orchestra.... So cheeeeena... yuck. The choir was singing one key out of tune and they were praising themselves that they were one of the choirs picked to perform for NDP....YUCK YUCK YUCK

Today is so very great! Oh my god... PTM(parents-teacher meeting) is like tomorrow and tho i'm not afraid of any bad things Ms Lim would say coz in class kinda a quiet (you wouldn't believe right?) and gd little girl.. haha.. :) So funny. Jasmine came to my house juz now straight from school. We were doing the NDP Drum Painting Assignment and we were deciding between stupid pictures of dung, toilet bowl, hangers n sponges to be on the drum and they all landed up painted on it.. haha.........Bored out.. now, but my heart is so satisfied with myself..

Today was such a great day, I feel like living this day all over again. During Art period something really disturbing and funny happened. Mr Sam Lim asked a question - Do you understand? - then leonard replied sarcastically yes. Then Mr Sam Lim kicked Leonard's table and it hit him and told Leonard to shut up. Thank God Leonard had a comeback line and it was 'you asked a qns and I replied u', what a gd answer haha! All of us wanted to clap but seeing Mr Lim's furious face we decided against it and was trying ever so hard to keep our mouths frm leaking out one single giggle. After that, Mr Sam Lim had nothing to say and went back to preaching about his stupid lil' art project. Haha.. after school got band. So fun... We all got to learn spook.. the nice lil' song.. haha... :) Happy

I think the most poor thing person we should all pity is Hwee En. Not because she's my gd friend but it's because she has two sim cards in her phone and her discman - everything was confiscated... I pity her so much.

I'm not so sure about the one who laughs last laughs best. Because I already told Jonathan but ended up not listening n getting everyone's phones confiscated.............................Sod..

This is the worst day of all of the students in 1/6's life! Okay, here's the tip on the story. Firstly, Ervin lost his phone n he didn't know what to do and everyone told him to tell Ms Lim. I told Jonathan that if he told Ms Lim, she would spotcheck and confiscate everyone's phone since we're not supposed to bring our phones to school. But Jasmine Ang and Bei Yu insisted that Ms Lim would understand and tt Ms Lim was really nice. They believing that, ended up losing their handphones to Ms Nice and Understanding Ms Lim. What a pity. All I have to say about the person who stole Ervin's phone is that,

You are so low-class to resort to getting a phone through stealing from others
and I think you should own up. It's all your fault that everyone in 1/6 got
their stuff confiscated. If we get to know about who r you, I think you're so
gonna die.

Hwee En and Bei Yu act cool while Jasmine and I decide to spoil the fun.. haha! 

Nice! 

Woohoo! Finally able to log into blogspot! Hip hip hurray! I think today is the happiest day of my life. Mrs Chee moved Beiyu, Jasmine and I to the Main Band and we three are so called "mallet specialists" . What a high profile name! Then Mrs Chee say that she want to train me to play timpani coz timpani muz use hearing to play. Woohoo! Quite excited and scared at the same time. It's like very frightening liddat. I scared!!! Well, it was quite fun coz we sat at the conductor/impt people table n Mrs Chee was talking about the entire Lee Family (eg. Lee Kuan Yew and wife, Lee Hsien Loong and wife). It was funny and we could see how ji dong she was when she was talking. Haha! Quite a sad story actually... :p. I'm so bored nowadays tho got a lotta tests coming up.. Sod.. Anyway this is my band performance: Come if you want to...


Esplanade Presents
Music Box
10 Sept 04, Fri
Outdoor Theatre
The Edge - 8 pm (deyi secondary school)
Free Admission

Ciao!

juz came back frm Piano Class, today got scolding .. coz neber practice scales & arpeggios... Sod.. So Upset with myself. Dunno why. But today i like siao siao liddat and it's quite funny coz when i came home frm Music class then I told my sister I got something for her, then i juz hugged her for no particular reason. She lamented back and said i was 'siao!' but anyway I'm quite happy larh... Today in church Jinghan kept shushing me n Jeralyn. haha, sianz... maybe coming online later........

Hey ho.. oh, what a waste of time.. I spent nearly up to an hour tryin to log into stupid Blogspot.... SOo Pissed.. Haiyx.. Didn't go Royal Rangers today and quite tired now lorx.. Later at 3.30pm got Piano Class, and she's so gonna like kill me so how? Haix. hWee eN's T shirt designs are quite nice but some are jux odd looking.... I'm so bored.. Next week got like Lit, History n um, what's tt ah? Aiyah, forgot liao... Very hungry now n bored out...

Percussion Section at Teck Ghee - Prime Minister Handover Performance 

It is as if I'm jinxed or cursed or something... My mom said i could don't go school today coz last night was so late n it was unfair for us that we had to sleep so late. But this morning, I got a flu n my nose kept flowing, I kept sneezing as well and I felt tt I had migrane (headache at the back of your head) I really wasn't feeling the mood to do anything. I asked Timothy what hw we have on MSN, guess what, Journal n Newspaper Articles.. and I left my journal in the locker! Yesterday was the first time i left my journal in the locker n now when i need to do work in it, I don't have it!!! I'm so pissed off with myself.. Hmm, I'm kinda starving right now... :) Oh, my sister changed her phone.. my mom bought it for her without telling her. It's a Samsung.. And my sister's previous phones were all nokia.. so she couldn't get used to it... Haha, now I'm using her 8250 which is ten times better than my usual ahpok phone.. I kinda like it.. juz tt I'm getting a headache coz I'm not used to the blue light...

We 7 Crazy girls..! Haha! 

Chairperson, Nurul n I... O yah, I'm sitting next to the Chairperson, Liyan... She super quiet siax?! :) 

We acting blur - Here's the Famous Six [Five] 

So totally piSSeD oFF... Blogspot still cannot log in.. I try SOOooo many times then manage to get in to blog.... I'm So SIAN... Today, Queena, Shikin, Jasmine and I were having a chat in the girls' bathroom... It was really funny and we were kinda making a lot of noise in the toilet... But there was nobody in school except a few cleaners n those people going for drum major training with Yi Qian, Shixiang n Weifong Sirs... The Band Convention was great! There were of course loads of different nationalities, mostly Caucasians. At the start I was pretty shaken because I'm the first person to march in after the drum major. The round before tt was horribly weird n funny at the same time.. when I march forward, I had to turn back after I finished huntaking... and you know, I saw Yi Qian's butt in my face... I bent but he moved forward a little then my bell hit him right smack in the middle of his butt...(not In front lah!) What a laugh! He jerkerd forward and glanced back.. And I was trying so very hard not to giggle n to keep a poker face. I think all the three bell players are rather clumsy.. HAHA.. I had to hit his butt in the middle of the last rehearsal.. then Bei Yu hit him when he was on the bus going to the hotel... After that, when we were leaving the hotel, Bei Yu hit him again at the same place [his arm] while coming up the bus.. It was completely history repeating itself.. Just tt this time is hurt more.. coz Bei Yu swung the bell into his arm... Later, when Jasmine was going down the bus, she smacked the bell into Shafie's face(didn't hit) and then bumped into Yi Qian's arm again... Oh god.. sitting right at the door isn't the best thing... haha

Hmm, sorry couldn't blog the last few days. I was trying ever so hard to log into Blogspot n the stupid thing kept asking me to log in again or Session Expired I was so totally pissed off! I couldn't log in n I was dying away trying to log in. Yesterday's Parade was great! The Mass Display by Boon Lay was actually quite silly when I watched it on TV... THe Eagles.. Oh god.. They're the stupidest fake thingys i have ever seen.. HAHA! Boon Lay sure got our school into a whole lot of trouble.. tt is precisely why i can't stand them. The BLCB members are so good.. THey're so supportive of my school band so I'm wondering how come the school is so rude to my school!.... Singapore Idol - I can't stand the Lemon Tree guy - He was hilarious but weird coz he didn't seem really serious... :.:

Heyho the merry oh!
Oh, today, National Day celebration.. sooo fun! We played the National Anthem for the school to sing and all tt. Later, after the concert in the hall with all the silly NCC cadets stomping around and smashing the floor with their rifles, the teachers pretending to be the mini version of the Mass Display at the NDP our sch is taking part in. Rad! But it was really really enjoyable. Just tt there was this retarded guy sitting next to me and he was saying, "Hullo!" at whatever anybody said and soon it was getting on everyone's nerves and people kept asking him to shut up but apparently he loved the attention so this guy who oftens visit my class frm 1/8 took a paper ball n threw it at him... Gawd! That was great.. when he was standing up, he was so clumsy he nearly fell.. !!!!

PE lesson was SO fun! Oh, we were doing trust falls and then we were all like kinda scared and all tt. I was scared too, duh!, becoz I have a fear of heights, tt is why I hate going escape sometimes! Today got the National Day rehearsal for everyone but only Percussion had to go. We went and was dying under the Sun as it was shining straight into our eyes and our bells were reflecting it into our eyes too. Later, Mr Lee came along and gave us the caps they gave the NDP participants. It was really funny and Lucius looked like a golf caddy but much better becoz without it, he really looks like Nicholas Chiew! Haha!

Heh heh, I realized that I'm always starting my blog entries with "Today,...".. I'm trying so very hard not to. But as I can see from my Edit Posts page, there's a whole load of posts starting with Today blah blah. Well, it was such a nice day today. I am so VERY happy! I spent most of my time slapping Bei Yu on the face today. It was really funny. 'Cause when I slap her she'll go into those lame acts like 'hen shang ren de xin de' then, I was copying her. So whenever she slapped me, then I'll use that...and she'll say don't copy my phrase and all that. Whoa! Well, Home Econs rawked! We hav to finish our fabrics by next Monday and next Monday is National Day Holiday! Argh! Well, my fabric is about subjectmusic. I stitched a treble clef with those beads abt ten times the size of a foolstop. That was sure tiring... I spent 40 mins out of 2h and 15 mins stitching the whole treble clef. But in the end, it paid off! The treble clef was beautiful...! Haha! I used really little felt in the fabric..(15by15 fabric) All i used was like stitching n beads... It's gonna be hard work! I have not finished my stitching of all the stave lines... I have 6 stave lines all together but I've only finished stitching 2! What the heck! I don't think I have time to finish by next week. Woohoo! Home Econs rawks! I tried LiYan's apple pie and it was great too! :P

Today go church - quite tired actually, morning didn't want to wake up. After Church, go piano lesson. Ms Koh show me the grade 8 bk, purple in colour, VERY NICE! .. I see until so shoik... Imagine.. HAHA.. :) Dun feel like writing very sian ah...

Today feeling quite down n out... Went Heartland Mall in the morning to meet Jasmine and look for presents there. Then took 136 to Band Practice.. Sian. Band Convention Practice was so fun. We were practicing Under the Double Eagle.. then Bei Yu legs always wrong.. So we practice and practice until very tired...i finally learn up when to turn n all tt... then the 'huntakekaking'. What an eventful day, I'm so bored now, I'm feeling kinda happy now..

Today, we deyians had no sch.. Coz of NDP practice.. as u know, my sch is participating in NDP Mass Display.. and it sure is exhausting.. But I'm in Band so I'm not in NDP becoz I had to take part in SYF April Round and SYF Opening Ceremony (we didn't win). Today, all those performing in Band Convention went to the AVA rm (Jasmine, Beiyu and I) [The other ppl stay in Band Room to do strokes and sec1 band practice].. Oh we're going to perform for the Band Convention at the Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel - great! - and after tt, perform at Esplanade on the Bay, my band instructress said that we're performing a 45 minute show outside the Esplanade... u know, on the blank empty space kind of opposite Fullerton Hotel.. it sux... I'm listening to the Theme from Armageddon - It's such a sad song.. sob sob.. But really, it shows a lot of expression.. One minute it sounds violent then subtle then u know, forte, pianissimo... It's a great expression of music.. Gawd, we band members should learn from it!

Today, we deyians had no sch.. Coz of NDP practice.. as u know, my sch is participating in NDP Mass Display.. and it sure is exhausting.. But I'm in Band so I'm not in NDP becoz I had to take part in SYF April Round and SYF Opening Ceremony (we didn't win). Today, all those performing in Band Convention went to the AVA rm (Jasmine, Beiyu and I) [The other ppl stay in Band Room to do strokes and sec1 band practice].. Oh we're going to perform for the Band Convention at the Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel - great! - and after tt, perform at Esplanade on the Bay, my band instructress said that we're performing a 45 minute show outside the Esplanade... u know, on the blank empty space kind of opposite Fullerton Hotel.. it sux... I'm listening to the Theme from Armageddon - It's such a sad song.. sob sob.. But really, it shows a lot of expression.. One minute it sounds violent then subtle then u know, forte, pianissimo... It's a great expression of music.. Gawd, we band members should learn from it!!!

Boring, exhausting, sick ... These are the adjectives that describe my day! It was completely horrid - except for band practice.. The instrument i used today was the concert snare drum.. So nice.. The sound was melodious! It was so great! I feel tt today's practice was quite eventful.. except for the fact tt my left fourth finger is like injured... I feel there's a like blue black there... sad... :)

Percussion? 

Jasmine, Hwee En and I.. Hwee En looks so blur! :P 

Hmm, today not much to sayx, I finally brought Wei Fong's graduating present and Jasmine's bk... She has been haunting me for weeks and I keep forgetting. I've been forgetting a lot of things lately and I'm feeling quite stressed sometimes. Just as I'm feeling stressed, this tired but slacker behaviour comes over me and causes me to be very lazy and imagine me saying this: what a sin! I agree with my conscience! I am sooo energetic now.. I feel lame coz juz now at around 6 plus in the evening, I was blogging and I didn't post it coz I was too sleepy(but i didn't know tt i didn't post it) Darn... That's why when I came back now, it was weird.. I checked my blog and there wasn't any post.... Well, gd night ya'll.. I have a gut feeling Art tomorrow is so gonna suck...

Jasmine and I acting retarded in school hall 

Miss Chan, our maths teacher, gets all pumped up with her maths bks 

Woohoo.. Today was great. I'm officially back with Percussion. Though I think I'm probably not going drumline. I think I'm staying in Ensemble... But I got no marching bell.. Beiyu and Jasmine took the two.. so i think i've just gotta take the stupid concert bell who sux like hell.. But all in all it was so fun. I need to like learn the Double Eagle song and I only learn the first part.. I'm afraid i can't finish learning everything by that time. I've to learn the steps and all tt with the load of BLCB marching bell on me.. *sobx*

This is my favourite song and I find it so touching and moving. Sooo Nice..

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Bell Players of SYF 04 

*sobx*.. I feel like Bei Yu suddenly. Haha. Huimin is gone now. Sad. Graduate liao.. But she sayx that she is going to come back.. Yay!

Shu Ling, Stephanie and I. Ain't Stephanie cute? (The Second One) 

Haha. Here are us - Ex ensemble players! We were having so much fun! This was taken before the farewell concert.. Haha. Go on and laugh.

Phew! Very tired today... Very funny u know, it's like during maths lesson was so sian and everyone was falling asleep(including me) I've uploaded new pictures onto my blog.. Here's the link - http://sg.f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/louisa2805/slideshow?&.dir=/cf26&.src=ph go visit.. It's quite nice. Shows all the Farewell Rehearsal, classrm and Farewell night pics.. Have fun seeing..Woohoo! Sch ended at 11.55am

Yesterday so tiring.. Phew.. Farewell concert ended around 10.30pm and Jasmine's Dad sent Bei Yu and I home.. Whoa! The girls were so chio lorh.. All the graduates.. Heh heh, we were making fun of Wei Fong and Dominic.. Coz Wei Fong look like father and Dominic look like dentist.. Haha.. But last night Jie Ying so cute.. First time look so girly.

Today is such a great day... I'm listening to The Rasmus - In the Shadows.. it's really nice u know, the electric guitar at the start is SOooo great... Today went for Farewell Concert Rehearsal with Jasmine... We had to be present 'cause Jasmine n I are the ushers... Gawd. We have to like invite Mr Lau, Band teachers and Mrs Chua onto the stage.. and I have to give the gift to them to give the graduatings... But we couldn't practice anything coz there is no power supply at the stage there... so in the end it was juz a waste of time.. but we both had a great laugh at Leonard.. He was dressed up as Jolin Tsai and was wearing his PE shirt with Jezebel's (is this how u spell her name?) skirt, if i'm not wrong, and he had raffia rope as his hair and two oranges on a string as his boobs... Haha.. I can't believe he wants to act the part.. One part was totally gross, he kept touching his 'boobs' and Jasmine and I were so grossed out and laughing our butts off. Later, after Jasmine left for her Piano lesson, I moved up front and there was this like stagin of William Hung and S.H.E well, the william hung one... HAHAHA, the guy they got frm trumpet reallie looked like him.. gawd... He was so shockingly alike to him..Hehe, what an insult. Well for the S.H.E. one.. it was so farnie.. Leonard, Chern Ron and the william hung guy acted as them.. by stuffing like oranges on strings outside their shirts and raffia ropes as hair.. and they were SOOOOO funny! Gawd... Chern Ron was dancing and his hair fell off and later his oranges dropped off and he screamed, " Ahh, my breasts!" I nearly died of laughter then... They were probably engrossed with touching the oranges.. One thing i observed, all the guys loved to touch the fake breasts.. GROSS

Today had band.. we play instrument-the practice was SOooo boring.. and I blew til my lungs had exploded heh heh, after I went home had wheezing ah.. so i had to take a puff from my inhaler... Woo. It's my father's birthday today and *guiltily looks at sister* I have not bought a prezzie.. what a sin! Heh heh... I'm so disappointed in myself...

Switchfoot - Meant to live : Spiderman Soundtrack

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
(Chorus)
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

(Chorus)

We want more than this world's got to offer We want more than this world's got to offer We want more than the wars of our fathers And everything inside screams for second life, yeahWe were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live We were meant to live

Happy Racial Harmony Day! I'm so exhilarated. Mrs Rajah is such a pain in the ass.. She is so dump and has no EQ at all.. Kaoz.. I had a retarded time listening to her stupid History lesson which everything was juz frm the bk! Excuse me, if we learn everything frm the bk, we dun need a freaking teacher like u! I feel like screaming at her. Today,  Beiyu never come coz got piano exam.. then she say she feel like going to fail.. Upsetting when she practised quite hard know? Heehee, anyway so funny.. dun care abt the loser liao.. she sux! (this is not mrs rajah)

I'm so happy today, yep, went home with Pei Shan today and we were talking about some 'round' thing and we were havin fun chatting and fooling around. Guess what, I forgot to sign my paper and then Ms Chan punished us by making us write out the whole maths paper on Foolscap again .. I think I didn't learn my lesson but instead it was just wasting my pen ink... Gawd, I haven't gone to buy my band file.. and I have to get it by thursday. Today we went to the Broadcasting room during recess to record the student creed but you know what? The stinking recorder was not working and we were so bummed.. After school, we managed to get a portable recorder from Ms Lim from Ms Haryati(our band teacher) and we therefore headed to record it.. It was great.. tho Jasmine started cracking up in the middle of the song and made all of us laugh as well so we had to do it SO many times.. But thank god its over.. It was such a burden to me. Argh! Jasmine didn't lend me the day after tomorrow book!
 I'm so totally going to smack her face. Heh heh.. Nah, quite sad actually.. so got no mood to smack her..  It's like at night he online then I happy then he offline then sad loh... Hmm... Peishan and Hwee En say that they heard Hengjie like me and to answer your qns I don't, I only like one person frm another sch (duh.. deyians are so yukky..) Thank God they're mature.. If Jasmine ever saw this, she'll say I was buay hiao bai... sux man.. she is sooo... deir...

Phew! I'm bushed! Last night I went for my cousin's birthday party and went home quite late.. so ended up sleeping like 11 then dis morning during Maths period, my head was like unstable.. cocking to the side(fallen asleep?).. How embarassing and the stupid Jonathan was making snide remarks about everyone and he even said i stand so close to Wen Theng.. that I'm molesting her or something... Yuck. Today, they called for a band meeting which was so damn out of place. I was planning to like go central to buy the band file and all that supplies I need and dis band thingy can like spoil my whole day.. I was so tired. I was practically falling asleep when they were practicing the NCOs pledge.. you see, there's a annual investiture - band one.. My eyes were struggling to keep open.. BUt after i went home, it was fine.. til 6 when my head started bobbin around again..then i took a nap til now loh.. now eating dinner liao.. heh heh

So freaking sad loh, my mood is so dampened tt i don't even want to blog at all! It's raining, so i totally cannot do anything outside - secondly, i'm sick, I need to use the inhaler and all tt. My cough lasted since June 17 - my doc says it's my mild asthma acting up - without me even knowing! Even now as I'm blogging, i have a slight headache - sigh, life sux big time. I'm so sad. I'm in a dilemma of who is the he in Jasmine's posts, I'm so irritated. she still doesn't trust me - so fine!

Heyy, I'm back! Today i had to stay back in school and all tt to do the student creed and it was so horrid. Ms Lim kinda booked the broadcasting room on the second floor and we were trying out the song I composed (a few parts were changed by Ms Lim) and then Ting Fong and Timothy came in and screwed the whole thing up by making Jasmine and I so paiseh, we didn't even want to open our mouths... but instead, we'd rather hide behind the curtains in the broadcasting room. Later, after we opened up and didn't feel so paiseh, we tried out the song a few times with Si Bei Yu on the electone. Ms Lim had to leave at around 2.30pm, fancy ditching us! We tried it a few times and later, some strangers that were fiddling with the stuff in the broadcasting room asked us what time we were going to finish - we said 3pm... and it was like 2.55pm at that time... so we were fooling around in the rm after Ms Lim left but we sure had fun, playing each other's examination pieces and I wonder y, "Lala" was there, irritating Jasmine and I with his mushy moment with Bei Yu. Fancy her, having steads at such an early age (sigh) .. Currently, we were not interested so we sat on the chairs and were rolling our eyes out!

Today, we had band and it's so nice! We finally got to try on the real instrument - the clarinet's so soft.. It's totally great! I'm so exhilarated. It's really really fun just that we didn't know how to keep the instrument and got like a warning frm Queena. She said, "Clarinet-ists better hurry up!" In band, you know tt's a bad sign .. Heh heh, when i was going home, i took 136 with Jasmine and we were chatting abt Bei Yu and her - er hem - eyes.. Haha! We had a fantastic laugh abt tt subject...

Phew! Boy, am i tired... This morning decided to pon school -not tt I had a choice coz they didn't wake me up and I didn't want to go to sch and get like DETENTION from Mr Freddy Goh- coz was going to my eldest sissy's convocation (graduation ceremony, to put it simply). I had to help my sissy dress up in the 'robing room' and it was like so crowded and all that and there was this Malay woman next to me, nudging me forever with her stupid handbag and as usual, I was gradually getting pissed off so I jumped away and stood at the right side of my sissy instead of left. Guess what, my mother appeared in the robing rm ten minutes later - She came in, helped my sister pin the mortar board (is this how u spell it?) on her head and claimed credit for it after we stepped out frm the robing room, excuse me?!, whatever my mother pinned was like SO bad, we had to take it out again coz it made my sister's hair messy instead! I was like so pissed coz later, my mother practically trampled on my feet and asked me, "What am I stepping on?", I wanted to scream at her and say, my feet! But obviously, it was so pain, I'd rather go like rub my toes then yell at her. After that, I went out of the robing rm to look for my dad and my second sis, my dad was so kan cheong and he refused to go into the robing rm tho it was unisex(i think he didn't know). Well, don't think dirty, you have to wear like formal stuff -long sleeved shirt and skirt or pants inside the gown. We didn't have tickets to go into the auditorium - thank god! - It was hell of a bore to be inside. Watching like almost 200 graduates take the cert from the 'high court judge'.*
*It was just some old man like, probably, the professor or something..
My second sister,Lynette and I were outside the auditorium at Coffee Club Xpress drinking away with Crunchy Freeze, which we shared coz we felt so kiam to buy coz it cost like 4 bucks and add ten cents for like whipped cream, how kiam xiat can Coffee Club Xpress be? Starbucks gives u free whipped cream after you've finished the first batch! Whoa! After snapping some silly pictures frm the projection of Clarissa, Huiming and XiaoWei, my sister 2 bez frens, I shall say, we left the auditorium and waited outside.. soon, the rush of graduates started coming out and then we went to start on the food(heh heh) when we saw Clarissa.. In the car going home, i had a bad case of headaches and I felt like vomiting in the car. After going home, I still had the headaches and took a nap of half an hour, after tt used the computer but the headaches came back, that was about four-ish, so I took a nap and poof! I woke up at like 8 plus and took my dinner and watched tv to about 9.15 then chatted on the phone wif Jasmine til 9.45 (what a sin!) then i took my bath and came to blog.. I spent 10 minutes writing this u know.. but all in all, today was inspirational!

Proverbs 10:1-7
1 A wise son brings joy to his father, but a foolish son brings grief to his mother.
2 Ill-gotten treasure are of no valure but righteousness delivers from death.
3 The Lord doe not like the righteous go hungry but he thwarts the craving of the wicked
4 Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth
5 He who gathers crops in summer is a wise son, but he who sleeps during harvest is a disgraceful son.
6 Blessings crown the head of the righteous, but violence overwhelms the mouth of the wicked.
7 The memory of the righteous will be a blessing but the name of the wicked will rot.

Today was such a drenching day! I am wondering why the clouds never seem to part from the sky! It's raining everytime my school's out.. Plus, today, I spent nearly 40 mins waiting for my dad to pick me up and I was holding up my umbrella at the bus stop.. I totally hate the new bus stops.. the roof is slanted so (rain comes down diagonally) and everyone at the bus stop gets wet.. what is the point of that! It provides SO little shelter... and I was practically dying of weight frm my bag and all that.. Today sucked in all, I had to collect the home econs wb and like.. half the class didn't bring - I don't blame them, we don't even have home econs today! But still, Ms Ng asked me to collect it TODAY and make sure LEONARD passes up which obviously he did not.. But school was great tho I was falling asleep during math (heh heh)

Woohoo! I just watched Home Alone 3 so funny.. esp.. Alex D. Linx (he's the main character) so cute!! Haha!

Yay! New Blogskin up! and this one I won't be changin so fast coz I love it! Today, went for band practice - Mrs Chee gave us a complete lesson on breathing, using the diaphragm and all that while percussionists were doing strokes for 3 whole hours - Yip! I got into CLarinet... which was quite upsetting at first but I found the sound quite nice. Christina (Senior Clarinet SL), set me up with the instrument (which is totally illegal now as I'm only supposed to try on the mouthpiece)I could blow ok on the mouthpiece but when she let me try on the instrument it gave the sharp piercing sound- Gawd! It could have burst my eardrums! All in all it was fun ... Mrs Chee told us tt we are going to Sydney next yr June... COOL!

Last day of the week! Exhilarating.. Tomorrow's gonna be a really FRUITful day! Yeah Heh! Yup. We don't have to wear the stupid Anti Drug badge. Jasmine came my house just now to try on the racial harmony costume parade clothes (i'm lending her)so funny, i was dolling her up and I took a picture of her with my maid's phone... It was great! Haha!. Today, i forgot to bring my newspaper to school and at the end of the day during Ms Lim's period we were supposed to do a newspaper article in the Straits Times and I didn't have one so I was in deep trouble..Definitely. Chinese was horrendous! We had a test on the supplementary readers 1a n 1b.. I totally sucked at it.. esp. the last section which I only attempted one qns out of five..On Wed, there was assembly.. and the guest speaker was like Arti Mulchand frm the Straits Times - Her english was like SO great. She talked abt her experiences of being a journalist and before she moved to the home section of ST she was in the Life! section of the ST! She commented that Mariah Carey, Christina Aguilera, Eminem, Black Eyed Peas weren't what they really were in real life..(those are the people she interviewed while in the Life! section...

Today was hell of a happy day! I went to junction 8 after school to get presents for the sec 4 graduatings in band.. i.e. jieying, karen, weifong? At Junction 8 i saw Cheryl wif her KCPian frenz and later, we both went to the TP library together n went home.. it was totally fruitful and I enjoyed it SO much.. Busy smsing to Jason n Jonathan, coz i was bored to bits by being dragged around J8 by Bei Yu.. I was practically moaning!

This poem is really nice.. by a 12 yr old boy - Mattie J.T. Stephanek

About Things that Matter

It matters that the world knows
We must celebrate the gift of life
Every day in some way, and
We must always remember
To play after every storm.
It matters that the world knows
All children are truly blessed
With the innocent gifts of gentleness,
Trust, and compassion, which
Should guide the wisdom of grown-ups.
It matters that the world knows
We each have a song in our heart
That can inspire us in good times and
Hard times if we take the timeto listen.
It matters that the world knows
Our senses can help us discover
The hidden and non-hidden
Enchantment in life, if we use them fully.
It matters that the world knows
We must choose our words and wants
Carefully, or we could forever hurt others
With these most dangerous weapons

It matters that the world knows
Strength and value of all things created
Must be measured by character
and commitment
Rather than by might and wealth.
It matters that the world knows
We must heed the valuable lessons of
Everyday life, through the celebration of
Children and Heartsongs, senses and words,
Or we could lose in our journey to the future.
It matters that the world knows
A person by my name and being existed
With a strong spirit and an eternal mindset
To become a peacemaker for all,
By sharing the things that really matter.

Woohoo! I'm so excited for on saturday, the sec 1 band members r gonna be split into their sections... Liang Chi, Michelle and I are the only ones who stepped out of percussion.. (Both of them couldn't make up their minds), Mrs Chee made Michelle n Liang Chi go Tuba... What a waste! I thought Liang Chi was staying in percussion to play tom.. since he's already a reserve :-) I don't know where Mrs Chee is gonna put me - Clarinet, Sax, Flute, Oboe(what?!) or whatever else.. It's so frustrating yet exciting to find out.. it's great! Definitely, i can't take Sax and I hate the Clarinet... so the only ones left is Flute and Oboe.. Flute - It's really possible I can't get in, coz there's three colour guards there with Josslyn.. Sad.. Looks like I have to go down on my knees to beg Mrs Chee... (would i ever be so desperate?) Oboe, heard it sounds like a strangled duck.. Hmm, btw, my tagboard has like something wrong... when i tag something, it'll said action canceled and all tt crap...! Woo, I just changed my blogskin... Today was SO great.. Jasmine, Michelle, Beiyu and I went to AMK central to eat at KFC and at the central there, there's this shop that sold earrings, necklaces etc. at 3 for $10. Some of the earrings were around $6.50 but he sold it at $3+.. Don't know what's the shopkeeper trying to do.. Haha!

I've been really lazy to blog and I'm so sian. Today, i settled my score(aka silent war) with Bei Yu... haha! I'm so ecstatic today but I've got this sinking feeling about something and I'm so distressed by it... It's very confidential n I can't tell anybody 'bout it... esp. Jasmine who is SUCH a big mouth.. haha

15 Things You Probably
Never Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

Take the time... to live and love.

Phew!.. THE SYF Competition is over and we lost to TK but we won the Best Drum Major Award! Yay! Those people sobbing away, don't cry anymore... coz we know TK sux on the inside!

Hah.. sch was great today.. unfortunately, band wasn't.. we got scolding frm weifong. One of the bell players rolled one note for too long and he kept jabbing at it and insisting we must tell him who was it... When Mrs Chee said that the percussion never play together, he say becoz of the bells then the whole thing was messed up.. thankfully mrs chee replied and said no, before that it was also out...! As a SL, he doesn't even encourage us at all! ALL he does is to jab at all our mistakes..I've had enough of his nonsense .... He made Jasmine, Bi Hui and I nearly cry (Jasmine and I did tear)... I was SO frustrated....