120205 - fyf reunion dinner - jinghan, cheryl, michelle, jeralyn and me! see the steamboat? haha. looks somewhat gross. 

seeing everyone like this,

i almost want to cry.

it's so painful to see the ones around

have their long-time dreams shattered

*

`timetopickkupthepieces

*

i'm shocked.

quote shawn` god grant me strength to accept those things i can't change.

i really am so, so shocked.

it's almost like what i predicted was true.

and i regret saying it last time.

i heard it from many people too.

but i chose not to believe it..

unfortunately, my opinion also formed in that direction

and i ended up being part of them.

i'm so sorry.

-turn away

it sure seems like it was all my fault.

i feel like someone has just pierced the skin near my heart.

my stone cold heart.

ay.

i feel indefensible.

*

oh well, i've got to accept it.

now that i'm feeling less guilty.

i'm about to laugh real loud.

how over-the-edge you were.

when you merely were such a pea in other's eyes.

your ego's too big.

-for the idiot : t*ac*

*

today

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history was rather fun!

like since when have i found lim's lessons fun.

hoho. i question myself over that.

maybe 'cause i'm in a good mood.

a very good one.

:))

the o's came out today.

the results i mean.

that's not why i'm in a good mood. [duh]

i felt scared for those sec fours.

like i saw them after school at the canteen

gathered in groups, mostly from the same classes.

expectantly looking at the clock.

chatting, pondering what they would get,

some quietly thinking by themselves.

seeing that their dreams could very well be shattered.

i felt kinda pained.

yuppers.

*

i didn't eat dinner again.

'cause i took a nap. i carnt really eat after i've had a nap..

mm yeah.

i've got NO mood to blog at all.

just that i hate ms chua.

the stupid new teacher training with mr jo.

her methods are so kindergarten-like.

we felt insulted.

*

their pained fragile hearts.

ouchies.

let's say, it's rather pitiful huhs.

i give up laas.

*

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I'm about to DIE of laughter.

everytime i think about it,

i'm like spluttering saliva out

'cause i'm controlling myself frm laughing.

Ahh! Save me from my contagious laughter.

I'm so mean and cruel - I don't CARE!

Laughing at this is not funny.

Budd I carnt help it.

HOHOHOHO.

jinghan is so darn amusing!

*dies of laughter, tumbles off chair, whatever unfortunate thing else.

*

260205

fyf caregroup outing at nic's house.

mm. rather nice.

it was a long walk from tp interchange.

jerallyn was dying 'cause of her hurdle injury (thighs)

she kept holding onto me. ahahas.

after we reached there, the youths in front just disappeared so

only lyn, thomas, audrey, jingting, jinghan, jeralyn, cheryl and me

were left at the swimming pool.

the rest - god knows where they went!

was supposed to swim.

SO MANY girls got the problem

only few left ;

jingting, stacey, jeralyn and me.

jeralyn and me, well, can't swim to put it simply.

well, we do know how to but we forgot.

so let's just count it as no.

stacey was lounging on the chair.

while jingting was, i dunno doing what.

so only ernest, marcus, ian and thomas swam.

later after much annoyance 'cause no girl wanted to swim,

they went to the so called field to play the all-time fav game : captain's ball!

some captain's ball game they played huh.

it involved all sorts of balls.

dribbling, kicking, smacking like serving during tennis.

omg, don't remind me.

my group was like, i was so poor thing.

me.jingting.stacey.kevin.jael.lynette.ernest.

we had audrey at first.

my sis had to take her away.

so all my friends were in the other team.

jerallyn and i were laughing about the same thing.

pondering and observing.

it sure was interesting!

someone was SO busy flirting and flirting.

my head was getting dislodged from the intensity of it

-shudder

the game was funny.

although it's like ernest and kevin fell down.

and ernest kept getting hit by thomas's 'long shot' .. -.-

thomas was being so totallie LAME throughout the game.

not to mention, hitting people with his stupid long shots.

nearly hit me once budd i ducked.

hit jingting.

ay, i dunno whadd to say! hoho.

okay. after that we rested.

ate chips, drank stuff.

went up nic's house.

the guys. SO MEAN.

they like somehow started without cheryl, jer and me at the table

and they like didn't see us until thomas pointed at us.

ahahas.

kevin was sitting in front of the sushi plate.

like, we were surprised he didn't eat THAT much.

maybe he just ate more than anyone else huhs?

nyahahas.

the guys were practically swooning and drooling over the sushi.

goshh.

after that, errs, off we went.

my sis went home.

kevin went cartel?

cheryl, jerall and me went in search of a toilet at tp interchange.

all thanks to stupid cheryl

roar.

-hits cheryl's head with slipper

she dragged us around tp to find a toilet.

when we simply wanted to go to the one next to the interchange.

she and her bright ideas.

WOW. how nice.

after that we went j8.

went to look around.

browse.

we had no money okaes.

but i chose what i wanted to buy.

just need to find the time.

ahh.

okay.

i wanna go off noww.

go sleep.

ahh.

-takes pillow and covers face.

go awayy laas..

i gotta have my beauty sleep!

-CHORTLE

yesterday was nice :

250205

geog rocked.

we got back our test papers.

i was so totallie horrified with my results.

i got 11/20 - c5

I always got a1 like 15-20 that range one.

i'm like so annoyed with myself.

Not to mention, i had SO much corrections to do.

gWad.

okay. i didn't go band yesterday.

had some important matters to settle.

yeahhs.

so after settling my matters, i went to cut my hair.

that was a mistake. but it's still okay.

then after cutting my hair,

i went to meet cheryl,

we went tp,

chatted a lot.

sat in mos for like one and a half hours.

lyk amagad.

*

today! woke up so early - yuckks.

8.45a.m

I couldn't go back to sleep.

eh, i slept at one plus last night.

BEAT!

now my sisters and my mom is saying i look like edna mode from the incredibles.

ahh!

not to mention my old glasses looks like hers.

i tried it on, and really, i look like her.

OMG.

-flabbergasted-

nothing to say no more.

-yawn-

i hate this.

*

and i see you standing there

wanting more from me

and all i can do is try

and i see you standing there

wanting more from me

and all i can do is try.

nellyfurtado.try

excerpt

i end with this songg.

nellyfurtado.try

All I know

Is everything is not as it's sold

but the more I grow the less I know

And I have lived so many lives

Though I'm not old

And the more I see, the less I grow

The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there

Wanting more from me

And all I can do is try

Then I see you standing there

Wanting more from me

And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness

And all the real people are really not real at all

The more I learn the more I cry

As I say goodbye to the way of life

I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there

Wanting more from me

And all I can do is try

Then I see you standing there

I'm all I'll ever be

But all I can do is try

Try

All of the moments that already passed

We'll try to go back and make them last

All of the things we want each other to be

We never will be

And that's wonderful, and that's life

And that's you, baby

This is me, baby

And we are, we are, we are, we are

FreeIn our love

We are free in our love

i chopped off my hair.

that's really nice.

it looks weird somehow.

but it looks fine when i wear a hairband..

yupps - permanent hair solution til hair grows backk, ugh.

:))

yawn.

i'm always so tired in school,

carnt help it manns.

i was looking forward to going out later in the day -

surprisingly, there was no councillor meeting.

like if there was, it would be so annoying and

totally spoil my day.

i went out with dearest jeralyn.

for the first time, i didn't have to wait half an hour for her.

thank god -claps hand

so we went from tp to somerset,

where we went from shop to shop, browsing loads.

we are like spendthrifts. eh no, she's a spendthrift!

hohoho.

i mean, we can spend like 50 bucks in like an hour?

what more five hours? amagadd. lol

okay, okay.. that is just the limit laas.

we went cine to look at her bag.

she spent like half an hour looking at the same clump of bags.

seriously, they looked so alike... except that some had those ugly chain thingys.

erg. *sticks out tongue

so she bought this greyish one.

and you know what, she saw the one that she planned to buy at far east - three hours later.

ouchh. she felt so pissed with herself.

like i said, wait until you find the one that you really wanted.

she didn't want to and i didn't want to too.

like if i allowed, and she didn't find it at far east,

we have to walk cine to far east and then

far east back to cine just to buy the bag. ah!

that would be such a nightmare

*covers face in agony

so later we went to long john's to eat.

i didn't eat, just stole fries from her food.

only drank ice lemon tea. :))

after that, we left cine and went to heeren.

walked for a long time in heeren.

and i'm gonna buy a wallet from the wallet shop.

it's twenty three.

i mean, ya, it's expensive.

but i thought i'll buy an expensive one and use it for a long time.

yeah, how long's my long?

i have no idea. hoho.

bought this thingy for lyn and i just now - five dollars.

ugg, and i'm like paying for it. tsk tsk.

okay. er.

walked around taka, wisma.

yepps.

then jeralyn realized she was late for her reunion dinner.

uh oh!

she was already fifteen minutes late laas.

so we quickly went to the mrt and took the train down to tp.

then i waited with her for 155 until the bus almost came.

then i went off to take 73.

see i'm such a nice friend, always sending people off.

and unfortunately, no one sends me!

ahh!

what friends do I have?

-questions herself

-answers

those that can't bear to sacrifice as they're far too selfish.

yeah.

i get the point.

ahaha.

joking! [but i mean it at certain points.]

tsk tsk tsk.

hee.

`hyper&turnedinsideout.

jeralyn and cheryl - cheryl's lost in the pic 

michelle - somehow flabbergasted louisa - totally ignorant 

look at jeralyn! she and her stupid flower! to think michelle left cheryl's and mine on the sofa - roar! 

michelle and i - aunt and niece. looking dull! 

michelle and i - the supposedly spastic effect. i look lame! 

jeralyn and i - how come we're so far apart? -questions 

me being annoying! -- holding jinghan's rose (and killing it, although it's made of paper) 

jinghan and i - woot.  

cheryl, jeralyn and i - shaw plaza mac's 

i felt so heavy-hearted in the morning.

trust me, i was dying of everything.

i've been so easily irritated this few days.

i don't know why. tsk.

though people like ray etc. deserve being yelled at,

i don't suppose i want to do that.

it's simply so mean.

i've got the right during band to scold anyone,

esp. in the percussion section.

-hint-

people like ray - watch out!

ah, how nice.

hohoho.

*

common tests.common tests. common tests.

test.test.test.test.test.tested.

maths. geography. music.

-sigh-

whoa. had geog, maths and music test today. ughh.

i think i'm so gonna flunk maths.

i'm still so annoyed that i can't remember a thing.

i think i need to go back to miss chan for 'lessons'.

who cares about mr jo anyway.

i can't be bothered to bitch about him anymore.

seems so pointless. like it's gonna change anything.

pah.

geog test was kinda okay. except that the mcq were kinda tricky!

miss rachael is so smart to give us those questions.

seemed like the second section was simpler than the mcq.

well, to summarise, the mcq was simple but it'll make you keep doubting your answers.

and then you'll keep looking at it, over and over again.

you get the feeling?

music test! oh, the one about the orchestra blah. it's rather simple..

to add to it, i've got a piano grade and not to mention i'm in band.

jasmine, hwee en, beiyu and i were feeling like it was peanuts to us.

-waves at crowd, bhb-

note: bhb is buay hiao bai.

the only one which got us thinking was the position of all the sections in the orchestra.

well, but i learnt that just in the five minutes she gave before the test hoho.

i'm positive i'm gonna get a1, maybe full marks if i don't get the orchestra seating

arrangement wrong! woot!

i was falling asleep in class today. -yawn-

esp during maths.

i told you, i always tend to fall asleep in maths test only. that explains the red marks on my paper. -sigh-

okay. band was okaayyy today.

sec one band. ugh!

whoaa. but today was rather fun and i'm glad i went.

although i'm still really tired.

i didn't really do strokes nor help liyana teach the juniors.

i was playing my bell at the staircase and danial was playing tom there too.

hoho.

sermin - olgc girl

she's in band! her sister is MABEL! amagadd!!

it's like mabel is huimin's sl.

huimin's my sl.

and huimin has always had good stuff to say all about her.

i've never seen her before but anyway, she sounds really funny! haha!

mabel was a bell player - my ancestor!

[hey, she isn't dead yet! -monologue-]

sermin is gonna join percussion.

she was a ex-choir member but not syf choir laas.

so it's really funny.

the school choir is the lousy one. bwahahas.

i mean in ij-olgc. ha.

she can be a really good snare drummer.

definitely.

i think her whole family has the gift of the sticking stuff.

mabel was a really good bell player & organist.

she's an organist too. but stopped at 9B.

so rather pathetic.

and she carn't sightread!

i was testing her with jasmine.

she doesn't know her c, d, e, f, g, a, b, c ...

she just knows her do, re, mi, fa, so, la, ti, do

gWad.

but anyway, she learnt what we taught the sec ones in three weeks in five minutes.

not to mention, she is the best among the new sec ones -

including the stupid china ex-drummer. yuckks.

although we tested her separately, we can tell!

she immediately got the point of everything.

like how do you hold your sticks in the traditional way.

she is probably the only one besides afiqah who can hold the stick properly and play.

sri-whatever just drops the stick onto the drum everytime.

leon is fine.

jie yu (china pig) is a show-off.

i just hate that face. -piak

i remember the auditions.

twenty overs wanted to join percussion.

i hated those that were showing off but couldn't play.

they failed anyway.

they were so friggin' proud and overconfident that they would get in.

i feel like smacking this piece of information that is reality that:

if you can't play,

can't pass the auditions,

you don't have to say anything to redeem your unfortunate failure,

you're just out.

-kick

*

woot. that's really nice. my stomach kinda hurts.

i'm not hungry.

i didn't eat my dinner.

but it still hurts.

odd.

ah, whatever.

i'm gonna find food...

`lardeedahh

just chatted with wan fong online.

i love her loadds man!

she is totally going through whatever i'm going through now!

and we were complaining about insulting people and also

saying how good and privileged it was.

woots.

quote wf` the only person who hates her school as much as i do

high five man!

like finally. i'm going to say that again.

the only person who hates her school as much as i do.

YEAH.

noww she's gotta study. uhh.

aye. will talk to her again.

btw, wan fong is my primary school friend.

Hold on to our dream
Taken off the IJ Share the Love Album
BY Julie Sim and Trevor Nerva
for CHIJ Schools Singapore
*
IJ Spirit burning bright
Fill this world with love and light
Light that shines for all to see
Love that sets our spirit free
.
IJ friendships through the years
Born of simple joys and tears
Something tells us deep inside
IJ friends are friends for life
.
Hold on to our dream of peace
Don't stop believing
Our hearts and hands, ever seeking, ever serving
Hold on to the sound
Of our friends all joyously singing
Our voices raised to the Lord our God aboe
Hold on to our dream
.
IJ Spirit burning bright
Fill our hearts with love and light
Light to see ourselves anew
Love begins with me and you
.
IJ voices ringing true
Reaching out and breaking through
Every heart will hear our call
Share our dream of peace for all
.
Hold on to our dream, hold fast to the IJ dream
Hold on to our dream
*
Jasmine and i were singing this song today. It is simply just so meaningful. Sounds a little spastic here and there. But if you were one of us, you will understand the kind of attachment you feel to IJ schools once you've spent your education years there.
I love the IJ Family.

lazy to blog about chingay.
but all i have to say it's so FUN!
i mean, although my shoulders were dying
from the weight of my bell and all.
we had to wave and smile at everyone
ugh. but i really felt ultimate happiness at that point of time.
it is just the feeling of sheer freedom.
like i said.
ultimate strangulation & ultimate pain. but also.
ultimate satisfaction and accomplishment.
i love myself.
i love chingay.
i love my perseverance.
it's so unbelievable.
*
am i going to give up everything i've just received
away, to somebody i don't want to give it to?
for my happiness, i have to.
for my pride of my school
i have to.
do i?

jerallyn, michelle and ii - and not to mention, the stupid ribena cup! 

michelle and ii. pitiful! it's so blur. but it's so nice. i'm not sitting on her lap laas. can't you see the orange chair? 

chingay. chingay. chingay.

-dies-

*

its really really fun!

but we had to wait to perform for two hours.

my back hurt.

6 plus - 8.48p.m

carrying instrument

my bell is so HEAVY.

and the worst part - percussionists can't put down anything.

no one can actually.

but we are wearing the chingay shiny vest above our carrier which equals to

ultimate strangulation & ultimate pain

-faint-

so friggin' uncomfortable

we were supposed to seem like we were having fun

but apparently no one seemed like we were having fun.

half a metre balloon hat ;

mask on the right side of face .

super painful and uncomfortable.

we had to smile.

= how can we smile when we are like 'wind conductors'?

the wind was blowing our heads away.

the stupid balloon sculpt was standardized this time

and it sucked.

gwad.

will blog tonight more.

you and your beautiful soul?
pah no, more like
you and your pathetic soul.
yupp.
*

school kinda rocked today. i've finally solved my slacking problem.

yupp. i've decided to listen intently in lessons and not:

+ drift off to lalaaland or fall asleep

+ dream

+ yawn

+ talk much to anyone

i hope that actually helps.

pe rocked. mr zaman let us play badminton for a long time.

i mean, normally, thursday lessons will be badminton,

then friday lessons will be running or vice versa -

[that's how i got the scar on my knee. roar]

now, it's every lesson badminton.

it's really fun to play with someone who is of same standard with you.

example` jasmine ang.

it's really nice.

my favourite sport - badminton & netball :))

i always support netballers.

no matter how hiao they are or whatever you call them.

and i realise that there are less ah lians in netball and band.

simply rocks.

i'm so shocked.

i paid attention in every lesson.

even chinese. heh.

history rocked.

chinese rocked.

art rocked.

science, er, did not rock as much.

english rocked!

lit [mrs lim used lesson to settle class matters]

*

science ;

we had to give a presentation on our progress on the elementz competition project thingy. seriously, i don't even know what is that about. tsk. when we gave the presentation, mrs yusoff was like so mean laas. kept asking questions which we didn't know how to answer.

simply put,

making our lives difficult. yeah.

*

mrs lim swopped a few of our places to girl&boy instead of boy&boy and girl&girl. hengjie's now sitting with liyan. jiayun with bevis, shengwen with rachel, hwee en with zeus, kenneth with eveline and leonard with raba'ah [!]. haha. she didn't change the rest of the others. thank god.

*

i'm feeling sick, tired, dead and i'm almost dying.

-acts spastic and pretends to conk out-

i'm drinking root beer, feeling so full,

yet so hungry.

*

gosh. my rm smells like someone just farted.

i think 'cause my windows are open.

[like why would i open my windows when i live in a one storey terrace, like everyone can see everything from outside.

especially my room window's facing the outside. goodness. ]

*

i don't know whether i'm going church on sunday. ay. most probably i ain't.

sadd. :((

but at least i don't have to think of what to wear. hrmm.

chingay tomorrow. i still don't know whether tomorrow we need to go to school.

i hope not but i think so.

band starts at 12.45pm - 10.45 pm.

chingay preview. watch your tvs dears!

saturday's chingay.

sunday - heartland parade.

but they didn't put that on the form but it's on the schedule.

ahh. this is annoying. whatever okaes.

aye.

-walks off-

tsk.

`do i love him or do i not?

i'm lost.

i think i should stop listening to norah jones.

`feels like home

it's not about the lyrics.

just jazz.

you get the point.

the only fast or happy sounding song is

"sunrise".

ahahas. like that makes a difference.

hmph.

i'm waiting. i always am. either put on hold on the phone. or waiting to meet someone.

this is really, really getting out of hand.

`pointless.saturnine.dazed.dying.

haha.

*

i just untied my tie-and-dye thing and it's great! [of course, duh la, 'cause i did it. -egoistic- hoho] i did blue. so the part that wasn't coloured was purple.

yepps. it's really nice and i did the circle design and it looks like those windows media player visualizations (bubble!!!)

*

i'm crazy, not to mention in a daze.

too much information or traffic going through my mind.

i feel really uneasy.

it is nearly like a state of depression.

maybe unknown depression? -ponder-

i'm so pissed with myself.

i spend school hours thinking loads, counting alphabets on my worksheets [!] and just brooding and slopping around. i've never been so sloppy before. i practically SLOP everywhere i go. it's not slouching away or anything. i feel like a snail. goodness. slop. you get it. Not to mention, i always nearly fall asleep or just message away during lessons.

crap.

*

today i was walking everywhere.

the last stop - j8.

to my horror, i saw so many people.

i saw brenda. winnie. danny and sarah [i think danny was there?]. vicknes.

i don't wanna think about how many people i've seen.

oh yah. i saw pamela too.

junction 8 is such a scary place.

and you perpetually see everyone there.

don't you think it's rather frightening at times?

*

somebody said i talk loud.

in the train.

yeah right.

it was the pair seat okaes.

what do you expect?

it like echoes! [literally yaas?]

-smack

there goes the someone again.

'getting violent/barbaric thoughts'

*throw slipper.

I give up.

why do someone always seem to burst

my little bubble of happiness before school actually starts?

pop.

*

in the morning, someone went to burst my bubble,

unfortunately, it was done unknowingly. what was it?

someone told me ;

i have sec one band to go, 'cause i'm the friggin' on probation percussion sl.

wen theng was going to the doctor so i had to go.

it can't be possible that both probation sls ran away from band.

that's really nice. hoho.

*

cut the crap. i'll go on to how much i agree with lyn.

she know what she said?

haha. this is really on the girl's side

& not to mention sounds really bitchy.

sorry guys. hahas!

this was what i concluded from our little 'talk' ;

guys have too much pride.

they have to find a date on valentines' day

'cause they carnt bear to be rendered dateless.

and they can't bear to be seen without a girlfriend

or worse, without a flower. ahahahas.

that was the shocking thing.

okay!

then they go to an extent that disgust people.

yeah. i don't wanna talk about it.

er, this didn't happen to me, so don't worry. ahahas.

[i didn't have to be stuck with a guy complaining he hasn't got a girlfriend and

see him resort to... er. THAT. -looks above-]

*

ugh!

i spent my day in a daze. i was counting letters on my worksheets.

like since when did i act SO retarded? -knocks own head-

i was bored, i am bored. -yawn-

*

i really think i'm in a dream.

i accidentally fell asleep for twenty minutes.

suddenly, i woke up and i was in the toilet, bathing.

i didn't bring any clothes in,

so i had to go out in my towel. yuck.

changed.

then my mom started yaddering away,

saying how unthankful i was.

seriously, i was lost.

i was confused.

i didn't know what she was talking about.

i'm dazed.

yes i am.

.

out.

i don't know why, i was hit by this song today.

i just kept humming and singing it to myself.

as i said, i was in a daze.

total defence day sucked totally.

they burned this like fake fire outside MY classroom,

after assembly it totally stinked up my classroom.

like helloes.

air pollution...

we really felt they are attempting to gas us to death or smth.

tsk.

total defence day - this year. lame. lame. lame.

i despise the act done up by sjab.

let's go back to the song.

i end with the song ... [look above]

*

simpleplan.i'mjustakid

I woke up it was seven
I waited 'till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on your own
.

And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight

.
And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed
I'm staring at these four walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
.

And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
.

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
.

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid)
Yeah, I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cause
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that its not fair
Nobody cares 'cause
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight I'm all alone
Tonight nobody cares
Tonight cause I'm just a kid tonight

.

i really feel what's the song saying.

yes.

i'm feel so alone.

happy valentines' day!

*

how fun.

seriously.

my clique was going to visit lin lao shi after school at her house to bai nian.

i wasn't going. argh.

well, actuallie, i didn't really want to, 'cause it's weird yaas.

okay, enough about that.

went on a group date. ahaha.

cheryl and ii have been rendered dateless.

not to mention, jeralyn has sectionals.

whadd great timing.

went to meet them at orchard mrt - 2.45pm.

i reached there at 2.36pm.

everyone was late.

the first one came at 2.51p.m, how early.

the second, 2.56p.m

third, 3.21p.m

fourth, 3.25p.m

and the movie starts at 3.30pm.

whoaa.

went to watch i do i do.

it's so funny. hahas. and i never laughed so loud in the cinema before.

reallie!

marcus came after the movie and nicholas left.

yeah okayys.

went to walk (alot) around. goodness. it was done aimlessly

but i didn't mind, 'cause i refused to go home and i was bursting with energy.

heh.

so they chatted a lott. yes. sat down at yoshinoya.

made fun of cheryl's nose. -always. bwahaha

wait for marcus to finish eating.

walked to cine, walked to heeren then walked to cine again

yeahh yeah. orchard's getting boring.

marcus and ernest - acting weird.

jamin - mingling with cheryl and ii.

commenting every now and then that he always hangs around with girls.

ahahahas. pitiful him.

girls are horrors, nightmares, irrinnoyin and troublesome.

i admit so myself. (",) hee.

went coffee bean, sat for a while then left.

went home. took train to tp.

then jamin, cheryl and ii chatted at the escalator for a while.

then both of them started complaining that they were hungry and thirsty.
so we went to koufu and eat. yepps.
chatted somemore.
then we went home -separate ways.
took 73 with cheryll.
chatted with her somemore at the circus bus stop.
then we walkedd home.
yeah.
bountiful day?
nah.
i don't wanna go out tomorrow.
wanna slack at home.
no.
ah, whatever.

my mom didn't say anything after i went home.

she was in a super good mood. yupps.

gave me mos burger apple pie to eat somemore.

ahahas.

this is great.

*

my dad went for three business trips from the start of the year.

that's a lot.

compared to last time.

first it was germany,

then it was malaysia,

then now, for this whole week,

sydney.

erg.

*

-feels ...-

suddenly guys i don't even talk in church with are sms-ing me

happy valentines' day.

and they're younger than me.

yeah right.

and one not from church. hrmms.

weird.

search me.

guys are the weirdest.

mwaha!

*

`bittensmitten;

ahahas.

`listening: norahjones.feelslikehome album

i'm a changed person, yeah.

definitely.

i'm not mean.

i'm nice.

i do not shoot things out of my mouth.

i provide sympathy.

yes yes.

i wanna be a counsellor.

hahas. kidding.

*

okay.

i'm so annoyed and traumatized.

why are perverts all over the place?

-scratches head in confusion-

aha.

there had to be two at shaw plaza.

after service, after lunch.

we went up to the 3rd floor to buy this little 'thing' yes.

after we went out,

this disgusting guy with his friend was so obviously being pervertic.

i don't wanna describe it.

it's just plain mortifying.

not to mention, it wasn't the sneaky kind.

it was super obvious.

how nice.

yuack.

*

michelle forgot to bring my flower [vday present]

i was ignoring her. aha.

then she yelled so loudly.

embarrassing for her.

nyah nyah nyah.

we took pictures at mac's.

they were adorable.

while some were spastic.

aha.

oh yes, yesterday was a nice day.

of course it was!

it was the fyf reunion dinner.

before that, i went to j8 with jeralyn.

i bought a belt.

-applauds herself-

then went to church early to help out.

we got the job of.... -drumroll-

washing vegetables.

how nice.

it was quite fun laas.

she did the first round then throw it in my basin

then i wash the second round then DONE!

hahas.

housework and domestic stuff is fun to do actually.

i like doing it at home despite me having a maid.

it's just the self satisfaction thing again! nyahahas.

eh,eh,eh,eh.

who has the book - the da vinci code?

i read the synopsis.

i wanna read it.

please tag me if you have it and am willing to lend me.

haha.

i don't suppose any deyi-ans has it anyway.

so i appeal to church people & olgc peeps.

yep yep.

:))

1. what kind of first impression do you think people say when they first see you?
- you'd know, wouldnt you? and you wouldn't like to know me after that. haii. [read 11 and 26]
.
2. what's one thing you like to do alone? - think. about everything.
.
3. are you a giver or a taker?- a giver and taker! haha. i mean its not like i'm so static or something.
.
4. what have you stolen before? - even if i have ever stolen before i wouldnt tell you right?
.
5. how many drinks before you're tipsy? - i don't drink miister.
.
6. do you ever have to beg for sex? - firstly, don't be stupid. secondly, that is plain desperation
and thirdly, it just shows you can't find love anywhere. *pity
.
7. what kind of books do you like to read?- romantic novels. with a lot of action. i happen to like such movies too.
.
8. do you think you're cute? - oh don't be gross.. it'll be b.h.b thank you!
.
9. do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?- if my friends are girls well no.
.
10. favorite communication method? - no pref. face to face probably.
.
11. do you care? - i do, but people think i dont because i like to pretend i dont. but i really do. really.
.
12. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night? - icecream.
.
13. if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? - yuckk. i wouldn't like that.
.
14. do you know anyone famous? - maybe. aha. people famous - were just helplessly talent-spotted. so maybe they're just trying to get through their life without getting spotted as famous and there you go spoiling it. TSK.
.
15. describe your bed? - why should you care? it's mine.
.
16. spontaneous or planned? - depends on situation.
.
17. do you know how to play poker ? - yeah. um so.
.
18. what do you carry with you at all times? - wallet. handphone.
.
19. what do you miss most about being little?- being doted most on. freedom. all the harmless fun and no work at all. just play.
.
20. are you happy with your given name?- goodness knows how glad i am that my father is such a genius to give me the name i have. i love it! (: `quote zeslene.
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21. how much would it take to give up the internet for 1 year? - as long you can entertain me for the whole year, i'll be off the net.
.
22. what color is your bedroom? - purple.
.
23. have you ever been in a play? - uh. if part of the acting no. but part of the whole thing yeah.
.
24. do you like yourself and believe in yourself? - no, i hate myself and i believe in God.
.
25. do homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? - i know this is bad but yes
sometimes they annoy me loads. other times i really feel sorry for them
.
26. do you consider yourself to be a nice person? - i'm really a nice person. not a really nice person. you get the difference?
.
27. do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? - i'm not close to gettin a boyfriend - but i love my girlfriends!
.
28. what's one thing you wish you could do but can't? - play the violin.
.
29. what is your ideal marriage location? - ay, don't talk about that.
.
30. what instrument did you wish you played? - flute
.
31. something you love and hate? - my ever so sordid life.
.
32. what's one language you want to learn? - i wouldn't use it anyway, why bother.
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33. what do you order at a bar? - i wouldn't go there. tsk.
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34. have you ever pierced your body parts? - beisdes my ears, nah.
.
35. do you have any tattoos? - nope. not going to. gross.
.
36. would you admit to getting plastic surgery if confronted? - no.
.
37. what traits you hate in a person? -the inability to amuse but tries too hard, it's annoying. too much sensitivity. humourless. always putting themselves down, expecting people to console them and put them up, that sorta thing. tsk tsk!
.
38. do you consider yourself materialistic? - almost.. but sometimes hardly.
.
39. what do you cook best? - cup noodles and sweet corn. aha.

brandy.haveyouever
have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever
have you ever
have you ever

have you ever been in love
been in love so bad
you'd do anything
to make them understand
have you ever had someone
steal your heart away
you'd give anything, oh
to make them feel the same
have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
but you don't know what to say
and you don't know where to start

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever
have you ever
have you ever found the one
you dreamed of all your life
you'd do just about anything
to look into their eyes
have you finally found the one
you've given your heart to
only to find that one
won't give their heart to you
have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
and all you can do is wait
for the day when they will care

have you ever loved sombody
makes you wanna break down and cry
so, so bad
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't
oh, have you ever
have you ever, ever, ever
what do I gotta do to get you in my arms
what do I gotta say to get to your heart
to make you understand
how I need you next to me
gotta get you in my world
cause baby, I can't sleep

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words
but they don't come out rightHave you ever
have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
have you ever
have you ever, ever, ever
oh, have you ever
*
heard this song on the radio.. erg. they'll playing all the love songs 'cause valentines' day is coming. tsk tsk. the only song i heard that is not lovey dovey is year 3000 by busted. ha. boy, do i hate valentines' day and it's not because i've got nobody spend it with or something. oh please, firstly, i've got girlfriends to spend it with. secondly, i treat it like any other ordinary day so most likely i just go shopping. oh gosh and i hate it also 'cause it's so hard to get birthday presents 'cause everything says - i love you.. blah. truthfully to me, valentines' day should be everyday if you're 'attached' and you two should not only give each other gifts on v.day./be nice to each other. [hahaha! -snort] 'cause that's pathetic. tsk tsk. -yawn- the song above is rather nice.. i'm still trying to find the song that i love so much...
does anyone know the title,
part of the lyric is
'life is a dancefloor
love is the rhythm and
you are the music.'
that's all i know.. hoho. i tried finding it using all the words in the lyrics and guessing the title - to no avail yaas? okay then. i'm so bored. as usual ahh. all thanks to mee pigging out this afternoon..
`ii really don't wanna talk to youu. *pity

gorgiing myself with strawberry flavoured love letters.
erg. i think a day of cold drinks and ice cream and all such has made it stopp.
budd noww i'm having a bad stomachache
actually, i don't think it's because of that.
'cause i didn't eat dinner. aha!
i'm such a lamer. tsk tsk.
i'm getting lamer as the days past.
see how lame am ii? -faint-
i feel like throwing a thousand slippers at myself.
or like the fat lady in kungfu hustle..
slap everybody with my slipper.. hohoho!

i'm getting so frustrated with my haiir.

it's so ugly.

aha. i've always known it's ugly..

tsk-tsk.

i just don't have a choice.

i reallie feel like chopping off all my hair right noww.

the only time i look nice is when i tie my hair sideways

and if i do that in school, i'm gonna look like this sec one ah lian

and that is so totallie gross!

yuckks.

erg. my whole family is pissing mee to ashes,

more like my mom and maid.

my maid is jus like my mom so you get the point.

UGH.

i'm talking to jeralyn and jamin online.

jer and ii are talking important matters - tomorrow's dinner. yepps.

haii. i'm feeling so sick and tired of my doopied hair.

tell me! chop or keep yaas?

help me!

cheryll ; mee! ((:  

jerallyn ; mee. 210105 sentosa youth outing. in the monorail... it's so slow, we had to resort to this.. mwahahas. 

i dont think i care
about all your flowers and candy
about all your love and sweet kisses
cause tonight's the night
i burn all those memories
till they turn to dust
I dont think i care
that you cry your eyes red
cause today's the day
my hand breaks free of yours
and i walk alone down this path
do you think i care?
cause really,
i dont.
-taken from a skin done by justiniechan.

hmm. this really sounds like me. oh gosh. well, i was browsing for skins. i am just getting sick and tired of this 'falling into you' skin. -yawn- i need to go for something more 'independent' and nothing to do with love and boys, preferably. it's just so mushy, i can die. hahaha.

school rocked today but time really passed so fast. rach, michelle, wt, jasmine and i were pissed with kenneth, zhanglin and jinrong. they refuse to pay for their class jerseys. the worst part is that we paid the 'shirt-maker' with our money so they owe us the money and there they go saying that they didn't want the shirt anymore and it's like personalized with their name, so it's not so easy to just 'desert' it just like that. we gave them chances like they can pay a few dollars or even one dollar a day for it. tsk-tsk. why bother begging such inconsiderate people. ay.

forget the pissifying people.

where has jeralyn gone?

haven't talked to her all week, and she hasn't blogged either.

but i just messaged her whether she wanted to go for a movie on val's day. she replied but she has sectionals on that day sigh. later i wanna go meet cheryl at coffee bean. i don't care! my only confidant, of course. I love her much! :)) heh. don't go saying i'm acting lesbian or am lesbian. -begs to differ!- okay. school ended at 12.30 today. geog lesson was fun. yeah, that's all. life's getting boring. erg.

jasonmraz.youandiboth.
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
All things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
.
Oh but at often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
.
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of,
Others only read of the love
Oh the love that I love
.
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words than I had ever heard
And I feel so alive
.
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
oh love, love, you and I you and I
Not so little you and I any more
and with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving
Is the glory of a boy
.
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally, well i'm almost finally, finally,
Well I am free, oh I'm free
.
And it's ok
If you had to go away
Oh just remember the telephones
Well they're working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear them ring
If nothing else
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that's ok
'Cause I'll remember everything you sang
.
'Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, finally,
Well I'm almost finally finally,
Out of words.

ahahahahahahaha.

i'm dying of amusement.

it's nice. really, really nice.

to just be a pain at times.

i just love to annoy you [lynette's pep phrase to me. haha]

-pained laughter/ku xiao-

now i'm just sitting back and relaxing, without a care in the world

it's really good!

your mind is at peace

and then you are at peace with yourself.

that sorta thing.

it's great, that i don't even get angry

or even anything else bad. i'm just plain happy.

it's the self-satisfaction thing.

i don't mind if i piss the world off, and get whacked.

when you're in this mode, you don't feel anything but sheer happiness.

it's beyond wonderful.

*

ay. you know, when you insult me, you can't take it back.

seriously, i have photographic memory and not to mention a good memory.

i remember everything everyone says or do to me or to others.

and i remember all the feelings that rush to my mind at that moment too.

you can't fool me and

i don't give in so easily either.

several people have labelled me icey.

and they explained that i have a very cold exterior but a warm interior.

and added that it's hard to break the exterior. ahaha.

i'm sorry, you made such an effort to put me down, but unfortunately,

it didn't work at all.

you're just hopelessly wasting your time. tsk-tsk.

i think differently so don't use the method you use with other girls.

it doesn't work. yep.

rwahhaahhahaha.

*

ay. today went to uncle's place. watched kungfu hustle during lunch [mee siam] .. yupps. then at night, we had the popiah party. hahahas. no laas. just had dinner with my maternal relatives. they were so funny! cheryl was wearing this adorable so-called-by-joel javanese top. woo. nothing interesting to blog today just that, i'm SO elated, exhilarated, beyond the joy of the Lord! wahhahahahahahahahahaha!

avrillavigne.nobodyshomeextract
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs

my family and i at uncle s.e's house. :)) 

paternal side - grandchildren and great grandchildren. i'm the last grandchild okay. not part of the great grands.. haha 

(from left to right) my nieces & nephew. wei hertz, weiting, joanna and nicola. ((: w.h is totally adorable!  

quote joel` this is what happens when you play too much hip hop gong xi fa cai.  

`dong dong qiangg
.
oh my god. there's this lion dance troupe or something going around my house area... outside. and it's SO annoying. woke me a billion times this morning and i'm feel so tired now. wah lao. still making noise noww. i'm fainting. yep.

`dies. faints. pukes.
oh forget it. TSK. it's not going to change the fact that they're still there.

`old people are monstrosities,

raise your hands if you agree with me.`

-raises both hands like in surrender-

.

i'm mad, crazy, in search of nonsensical people [like lynette]

.

pah. am now at home. tonight there's gonna be a 'party' at my house? yeah

some popiah dinner thingy. woot. all my favourite aunts and uncles are coming [mother's side, basically.]

my favourite cousins too!

i love joel

i love jonathan

i love gerald

i love cheryl

i love bernice

i love abigail.

i dislike benjamin.

. rwahhs .

i know clarissa will comment on how mean i am on the benjamin part. tsk.

he has always been m.i.a in everything laas. so anyway, erg.

i'm so bored.

people say i'm negative, agressive, fierce.

no laas. i mean, at times ya, but i'm a pretty happy person la,

unless -narrows eyes for effect-

you incur my wrath.. hahas. NO!

i'm not that mean.

i'm a nice person and all.

-waves at invisible crowd-

but i've got to still add that -at times only and to chosen people yaas.

i don't exactly like wasting my breath on people whom i don't really like to talk to.

on the phone, i only talk on the phone with people whom i actually am nice to, which are the selected few la.

heard that?

for others, if you happen to call me, and happen to notice that i always seem to be busy everytime,

it's not cause i'm busy. but i don't welcome your chatter. i'm mad. but i don't do that often la. except to really, really annoying people yaa?

pardon mee, i'm mad. so happy yet so negative and ALONE. tsk tsk tsk.

pitiful me, cheryl's eating. no one to accompany my boring self. yawn

i think i'm going to sit back and relax the whole day.

yupyup...

.

`old people are still monstrosities.

-raises both hands and legs in agreement-

hahahahaahahahahahahahaha

.

.

.

i'm such a lamer.

.

.

.

.

.

out.

you know, new year actually kinda sucks for me.
it's so boring. please.
and the worst thing is, when we go from house to house,
you've got to plaster a more-than-fake smile on your face
and pretend you're happily receiving red packets.
i do not like to be hypocritical but still, i had to do what's above.
erg. don't remind me, i was pulling a long face every other time i wasn't
receiving anything or shaking anyone's hands. life was so sucky.
i was the FRIGGIN' photographer - literally. i had to use the
cam to take pics of all the families 'cause my dad wanted all the other
families pictures. like that is so UNimportant. i was super pissed and when
i told my dad politely that i didn't wanna take, he flared and like scolded me, which
is totally equivalent to embarrassing me in public. thanks a lot.
i'm currently feeling SO frustrated with myself and everyone else.
---
at night, i went to cheryl's house. that was the only place i wasn't really
pulling a long face 'cause i was quite happy there, cheryl was annoying me
to ashes 'cause she kept wanting to watch tv. like the whole family there was watching
american idol after dinner - how pointless. seriously. i felt so hopeless! so
in the end, i stayed in cheryl's rm with bernice and abigail playing some
game and chatted on my phone. yes, yes, i know that's rude and all but still,
i had to talk to someone. i was bursting. anyway, turned out,
both of us were pissed at our moms. hahas. [dad only pissed me once. mom pissed
me infinity] unfortunately, we were meanly bitching about parents and -sigh-
i felt better later. then i chatted with cheryl on the bed after she finally decided she
didn't want to watch a.i hor? hahahahahahas. -lays off- okayokay!
---
bored outt. erg.erg.erg.erg. i think i'm going nuts from having nothing to do. no
one's online. everyone's kinda pissing me off and i feel so screwed up. ye-aaww-ouch!
i was thinking A LOT today and observing people too [i'm not a pervert okaes.] i was thinking
about olgc times and how mean i was last time. my clique was like full of nice but also mean people but actually, we're all quite sadly, hypocritical .. towards each other? at times yaas? that's what you get when few bitchy people becomes good friends. -hint hint- you get my point. pah :)) but i love them no matter whadds! muack. but olgc rocks anyway.. heh. then i also thought about my kindergarten [long time ago!] and i realise how similar both schools are. i was brought up in a presbyterian kindergarten and catholic primary school. nice. but now i'm in a secondary school that is in my mind, a dump for those who couldn't-make-it. i somehow wished i went back to sjc. it's english, it's a nice place to call your 'home' and you get what i mean? now, i feel embarrassed when i wear the stupid deyi uniform to orchard. it's so ugly and i look half like a janitor. yeah. erg. and next time after the o's, we've gotta wear our sch u's to the jc/i, i feel so grossed out and those my-kind peeps won't mix with me, because of my sec sch. look how secondary schools make a difference. so i made up my mind, i'm gonna buy an sjc uniform!! the whole set. anyway, i got the chij look. it's okay! hahaha -buay hiao bai- and not to mention, the ij accent. it's our trademark.
olgc rocks.
`nothing to change that. :))

ay ay ay, i blogged the jamm gang blog.

ahahahahahahahaha.

you know, this sounds so bitchified la

but seriously,

i realise i've gotta wait for my 'bogay' teeth to be alright

before i cann take any pictures or neoprints.

thanks alot sgh for plucking out my teeth

i'm so gonna look so ugly for new year?

ahahaha.

planetshakers.big
My God is big
So strong so mighty
-
My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
My God is big
So strong so mighty
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand
-
My God is Big
So Strong so mighty
-
My God is good
He's so good to me
-
There's nothing my God cannot do

oooh. whadd a nice day. woot.

went to school for new year celebration

the dances they put up were so great.

and personally, i love the indian cultural club! hahas.

i liked the performances by the teachers [spasm!!], the malaya, the graduated malay dance group that is so totally cool and also the indian cultural club la.

hahahahahahahaha.

hyper hyper hyper.

I'M HYPER! who can tame me?

so after school, i went heartland mall with jasmine, rachel and nurul.

we were meditating there on the benches 'cause all the shops were closed!

we were supposed to eat pizza hut then it was opening at 11 and we were there at 10.

gosh. we waited a while then decided to kill time by taking silly neoprints. haha.

then okay, we went kfc to eat lunch 'cause we waited so long, we nearly starved to death.

after that, i took train with nurul to dhoby ghaut then change train to orchard. she took all the way to woodlands to meet her dad. so i met cheryl at orchard. i totally love her! aha! we went everywhere. i bought quite a lot of stuff. we chatted loadds and then we walked around aimlessly and i was feeling quite tired. heh. we went to coffee bean and drank white chocolate dream. yumms. we saw ronald with his mum, he looked loads different la, so at first we couldn't recognize him. we can bet 99% he saw us but obviously ignored us la. haha. fyne. then we sat down and chatted loadds again and drinking yaas. after that, shopped more.. hahas. we walked to far east yah. wasted time there but looked at lots of stuff laa. then when we met jeremy, ernest, nicholas and ian. aye. we were walking towards the 'down' escalator, they came up. coincidental. tsk-tsk. ahahahahahaha. ernest cut his hair.. looks even more like a small boy, haha. okay. after that we headed home 'cause cheryl needed to go for reunion dinner at jumbo restaurant -jealous- which is in the middle of both our houses la. we spent an hour chatting about her k.w and k.o friend and even at the interchange waiting for bus so i think we chatted SO much. omg. at the interchange, she was so mortified and grossed out and traumatized by this old man, who sat down and like didn't wear underwear. gosh. i didn't see anything though. she saw EVERYTHING. like yuckks. stupid old man, not enough money to buy underwear i give you la! it's like pollution to our eyes. [imagines whadd jinghan, jeralyn and michelle would do when they read this]. so went home yupp. tried on class jersey. oh yeah! we just got our jerseys. woohoos. fbt. ahhs. it's nice but it's a little on the big side and it's the smallest size so sigh. but it's really NICE. it says : LOUISA - 03. the number's according to index number and i feel quite funny 'cause in soccer or anything, there's no number after 23/24? right. and my class has forty peeps. jasmine was commenting she's the goalkeeper.. hahahas. :))

while walking back, saw siak hui at my house. he was so annoying canns. covering his face with his plastic bag. TSK.

-smackk-

gotta go eat reunion dinner at seven.. woot.

ciaoo.

the year of the rooster
pok pok kairr.
omg, whadd am i doing? embarassing myself in public. hoho.
i'm still on a HiGH.
always high.
-agrees with michelle- skip, skip away.
*kisses my troubles away. :))
it is that sense of self-satisfaction
ilovemylife.

it's the happiest day of my life! :))

i'm gonna scream myself hoarse! i've found myself back! -hugs herself- really, really!

i had so much fun, trust me. my fun level is totally brimming and overflowing despite my maths test results. tsk-tsk. okay, let's talk about maths now - the bad news. mr johari sucks, seriously, i failed my maths test, badly. liyan failed too. i'm so peeved, not with my results or myself, but mr jo, his teaching skills/style is so bad, i'm speechless. firstly, i never ever failed any of my maths test since primary five and the only one i failed was the topic i didn't understand. he is rewarding those with good results and good improvement and you know what, he's using candy and stickers. i felt SO insulted. we are secondary two not primary three and below. thank you. tsk. he's the new teacher and hod for maths - talk about a lousy teacher. he is making people think we do well for our tests to get stupid cheap sweets that we've never seen before, not because they're rare but 'cause they're those chinese-y and weird tasting sweets that are the size of erasers and taste horrible. i know where he probably got them. i saw them sold at two shops in ang mo kio central. oh yes it is from there. definitely. -smacks hand on table for effect- so in conclusion - mr jo sucks to the core. miss chan is ten times better.

i've got this feeling that during sec one they purposely gave all the good teachers so that you won't transfer out then secondary two, you get all the lousy teachers. so pissifying. erg.

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let's go to the happy part noww. miss chan was being such a joker today. haha. she dressed like a bush - rwahhahahass. she wore this black plain top and dark green 'jeans'. it was quite funny but she dresses quite well basically. ah, okay. -fast forward to the fun part- today after school, we celebrated lin lao shi's birthday. her b'day's tomorrow. heh. cool. jasmine, hwee en, michelle and i were holding her back from going home while the others went to buy the necessary products for the party heh. so rachel was the so called lurer. smsed lin lao shi saying she wanted to talk to her and blahdy blah. lin l.s really thought it was serious. it really did sound serious anyway, that's the point! haha. so we had this flour thing. got her caked with flour and whoever else around caked too but i was the only one flourless. skills man! hahahas. okay, after that we went to fix our chingay costumes. so annoying, my costume - mask and vest- were in perfect condition but i still had to stay back to fix other people's costume. tsk. hahas. -brag- talk about sl standard. haha. no la, just kidding. liyana and shikin were coming late so, wen theng and i were unfortunately left in charge of the whole section. we were making a whole lot of noise outside. screaming and whatever else. later after everyone was leaving [without permission mind you]. we sent the masks for checking - failed 'cause we didn't know must tape all the masks. tsk. so that's what the thick tape i bought was for. so we taped it then we passed. woots. we quickly grabbed our bags and left the room, in hope of yingmei not checking the masks and calling us back to fix the spoilt ones. hahas. okay then was wondering whether to meet my girlfriend [not a church person, thank you] , but in the end, I tossed her aside and went home. haha. so here i am ... happily writing this post. okay. done about band and school.

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about me finding myself back. heh

i totallie did today, i realised. i love my usual self. in school, i'm no more the "almost-rebecca". i'm not quiet anymore, i'm not prim and proper. call me the fallen councillor. thankss! i've stop being the stupid pair of goody-two-shoes. i've opened myself up, i've become my usual 'in-church- self.

i dance around, i sing, i scream, i jump around, hop to class, it's almost like the joy of the lord. maybe the joy of freedom ay? cool. i'm back to insulting people or annoying people haha, being mischievous and not to mention, childish yet matured. ahh. that's the word.. hahaha! i was insulting ray today during the fixing of costumes. he had five girls against him. definitely he'll lose. he was like so lame. let me show you whadd we say. it was beyond spasm!

ray : i feel raped.

lou : like who wants to rape you?

ray : you la!

lou : who wants to rape you? excuse me, you're so not my type.

bei yu : yee, then you go for which kind.

lou : oh i'm not gonna explain. hahas.

steph : -laughs helplessly-

wen theng : ray, don't try to quarrel with four girls la, you're so definitely gonna lose.

lou : ya, like precisely. tsk tsk.

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steph asks a question and ray starts blabbering away.

steph : ray, will you shut up? i wasn't asking you.

lou : hey, that's a good one -rolls on floor in laughter-

bei yu : -laughs with pained expression-

lou : ray, i think you need companionship is it? you like to answer even though no one's asking you anything.

steph : -laughs- ya lorh.

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during science lesson, it was really funny. mr wong was talking about how poisonous iodine solution was, blah. jasmine and i were talking super lame 'cause it was boring.

louisa : he said 'don't drink iodine, you will die', haha, imagine if we drank iodine, we'll all be blue in colour.

jas : -laughs so loudly-

louisa : he's so lame. hahahahahaha.

jas : all of us will be smurfs.

louisa : -gets the joke after two seconds and collapses with laughter-

oh that's a good one!

jasmine : -laughs loudly, madly and with a pained expression-

mr wong : -laughs along at imaginary joke- what's so funny.

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lame. you cann tell how happy i am. i blogged SO much. rwahhhahahahahahahas.

i'm mee. finally!

LOUISA'S BACK!

okay. was feeling so bored just now that couldn't bring myself to blog anything. -sigh- i was practicing my piano just now and my mom so like chased me away. tsk. who's the one who wants me to pass my piano exam? HER! okay okay. enough about her. ay. i saw my band senior today! lydia!!! ahahas. she was dressed so adorably so young looking aha! gee. i'm so mad today. she called my name then i turned la [duh] then she waved. she's so sweet! :)) she's the nicest saxophonist canns.... woot. okay. er, nothing much to post today 'cause the day was super drab la. i was dying of unamusement and boredom ...
I am SO unamused with myself.
tsk.