bountiful, bountiful, bountiful.

today is my most fruitful day ever in my history of going out with friends ever! i totally love jeralyn although we sinfully spent loadds of money. heh. let me tell you about the not-so-happy thing first. today, school was kinda fun and I spent half my day laughing my head off or literally rolling on the floor in lame laughter at jonathan, jasmine and ervin's jokes. bwahaha! heh. one of my best days ever! history was so totally boring today, erg. mrs lim was teaching the lesson with those powerpoint slides and you know what, she was so lamely talking to the wall. it was so obvious the whole class can't be bothered to listen to her chatter. the whole class was busy entertaining themselves, chatting away, cutting and sticking their history notes and some, even singing and I was lying on the table, falling asleep. mind you, i do not sleep in lessons, but i just lie on my table with a constipated frown plastered on my face and will be just dreaming away. i shan't talk about the more than agonizing but amusing thing that happened today, bwahhs, it so became my fault even though technically it wasn't la. i don't mind la, i get blamed. people side me anyway.

`little things don't put me down and [little peopledon't put me down too.]

whadd a crybaby, sorry to say. i was too but I've changed already so i believe you can change it!

okay! lemme talk about after school! i left school with jasmine and we walked slowly to the bus stop and waited with jasmine until her bus came. heh. then i went to the mrt and went to meet jeralyn at tp. she was late canns but it was okay la. i waiting for 'bout 8-10 minutes and duh, there was j.k.ps. Oh yarh!! at amk mrt, this disgusting old man so brushed his shoulder against my shoulder SO hard and it was on the escalator, he walked past. it is so totally ergifying and mortifying. he is suchh a true j.k.p (jikopei). the escalator's so wide, he has to brush against me meh?! PERVERT. okay, backk to the story.

jeralyn and i dropped off at orchard and we hung around in wisma and bought quite a lot of stuff. she bought 2 topshop tops [i wanted to buy too but the colour i wanted didn't have my size ..but smaller.. boohoo.] then we went to ig's heaven, oh man, that is one horrid place to go. we were feeling quite disturbed by those dolls. they really looked like voodoo dolls, you gedd whadd i mean? erg. the rest of the things are fine la. we both bought some bag and one box of cute stuff and I also bought a blackk pouch. quite cute and super super cheap. heh! cheapo freakks = jeralyn and mee. bwahahahass!

after that, we went precious thots and jeralyn spent a million years looking for her friend's present. she is like giving valentine's day presents..to girls. she always makes me so pressurized to go buy things. ((: mwahhs. it's some closing down sale and everything is like shupper cheap canns. oh, and jeralyn bought this prince doll at five buckks so adorable! but i prefer the soldier/warrior. CUTER. so after that we were talking about skirts, and we came to the subject of --. we were like so bitching on the way to bugis laa. heh. we were feeling extra turned off by the skirt conflict.

immature, copycat, gross, inoriginal, desperate, typical herself

whadd can i say to describe her?

ERG. like have some integrity please? -gawk-

so we went to bugis and checked out loadds of stuff and of course, bought loads of stuff too! woots. in total, i spent about $40. and I boughtt ... *drumrolll*

`one racer back tank top

`one blue bag

`one black pouch

`one wallet

`three pairs of earrings.

*

oh yeah! i didn't talk about one pair of the earrings I bought. I so got tricked into buying this earring pouch, i feel like killing the sales girl can. she asked if i wanted a pouch .. i said yes 'cause she so totally didn't give me a plastic bag and i had to pay a dollar for it! jeralyn also had to, 'cause she bought a necklace and she so forgot to tell mee loes.. ergg. i felt so cheated. fyne fyne fyne...

whoaa so tired now. am gonna buzz now. =) [not sleep larr]

cheryl's post on friday was one smacking good post. seriously. it was 'touching' in a way and really really full of depth. i never knew she could write that well. i mean, she can write real well but not to this extent of emotional talk and all. what can i say but applaud her. it is really so moving yet so true. i agree with her 'emotional' talk too. it is so good mans. i feel quite miserable too -looks at cheryl and frowns- same here. hey, cheer up! same parents, same genes, same torture, same kind of mortification for us. right?

-sigh-

my mom is kinda driving me nuts day by day and i really, really don't wanna shout at her or scream at her. nowadays, i've learnt to control myself from doing all these not-honouring-your-parents stuff. i learnt to shout/scream less and think positively like that she is scolding me because she loves me or something along that line.

sigh.sigh.sigh

this is just so saddening. i feel so lonely at times.

so lonely, i can cry.

but i enjoy my solitude at times, though.

well, sometimes, i really, really feel like i've got no friends,

i'm anti-social,

i suck at my social skills,

and people think i'm some ill-bred,

proud, boastful, gossipy [er, ok, maybe that's true.]

BRAT.

and I hate it when people start spread it around when they don't even know me as I am yet. all they've heard is just rumours and rumours and rumours with no basis at all. i don't have much rumours in sch going around 'cause i don't really talk much so i'm not quite a bitch there. i used to have them though in primary school and you know whadd? both of us were best friends but friendly-ly spreading gossips about each other. call us best friends. pah.

but it's weird. we can talk to each other (and insult celine. bwahhss!) really well still even though we've gone off to our own separate ways. quite cool actually. i mean, she's a nice girl and all but she's a bitch too. if you don't know her she will be a stone cold object to you. and to tell you the truth, she's colder than mee. brr. -shiver-

okay!

i've been thinking alot today ('cause i had a lot of free time)

somebody has been chiding me, so subtly. but i take it so badly.

i think i suck.

seriously.

if you think i'm gonna defend myself against your insults,

nope, i'm not gonna try.

it's just about me putting myself in other's shoes

and what would jesus do..

i feel so hurt at times, i mean not because of what 'it' said.

i try so hard.

it's working.

but these little things can ruin everything.

-sob-

oh forget it, you're not gonna understand.

i understand the pain of cheryl.

cheryl,

i feel it too.

quote zeslene`we've never felt so, so alone, we are?

yesterday

a good day perhaps

i carnt really say anything can I?

-shrug-

it was exhausting though [as usual]

morning sucked la

the lessons were taking donkey years to pass

and not to mention the lessons were super boring

erg.

after school, we all dumped our mobiles and wallets in our lockers

then we rushed to the band room to have warm up for the lunchtime concert

it's the launch of this new thing on every last friday of the month

and the band is opening it, woot.

we were so stressed out!

we had to move all the percussion insts to the quad

and the band rm is like on the 4th floor!

-flabbergasted-

the timpanis were killing the 'manpower'.

in the end, they didn't bring down the concert bass drum 'cause it was so

heavy and waste of time 'cause we could use the marching one.

so we did.

i carried my bell stand & the concert snare stand

omigod, the snare stand is like twice the weight of the snare itself

ugh.

during the performance, the marching part of it, i so messed up the first part

'can't take my eyes off you', i mean, i forgot how to play ... heh. but i got

back on track after that anywayy. =p after the marching, we sat down and played

three pieces. then the next item came in -

the 5/2 jazz band

thasnim was singing!! and shikin was playing the jazz set!!!

oooh! all from band! i mean the two other guys aren't from band la. heh

after the whole concert, i went to jasmine's house

we bathed then went to some foodcourt and ate dinner then went back to her

house and her dad fetched both of us to suntec.

in the end, the singapore conference hall wasn't at suntec but at

tanjong pagar. whadd a joke! queena gave us wrong directions. roar.

so jasmine and i took the train to tanjong pagar then we saw shahidah

[is it spelt like this?]

then walk together there lo. we were in sch skirt and class tee canns.

so ugly!

but we didn't mind la, we were dying of exhaustion already.

so the concert was quite okay - like whadd cann i say right?

-shrugs-

after that jas's dad fetched mee home. actuallie i wanted to take

train instead 'cause i'll reach home faster. hrmm.

`

today I gotta go to school from 1pm - 11pm 'cause there's gonna

be the chingay media preview tonight at 7pm. gotta have warmups,

a few rounds in our band uniforms and the dumbb vest & face mask.

it's gotta be so sweltering hot and i'm gonna bee so hungry, just like ernie.

ergg.

so dying already. *faint

i dunn wanna go and I'm probably the only person with the vest without

the maskss besides those who hasn't gotten their vests. yupps. i wana sleep.

*yawn

`

^press your belly button to self-destruct ...

ahh. fascinating. *wink

-yawn- feeling quite tired today. actually, i might as well say everyday 'cause i'm saying it everyday! heh. so bored out. there was band today. quite relaxed. we did music and two rounds of chingay parade for tomorrow's lunchtime concert. woots. budd it was so last minute. tomorrow i've also got to go for boon lay band concert. i'm so gonna fall asleep halfway. ergg. well, i'm too tired to blog much today. so tired. yuck yuck yuck. `madd

yesterday i didn't blog about the auditions specifically rights. i'm not planning to really you know, go in on all the details. hmm. for percussion, a whole load of kids, abt twenty wanted to join percussion and the lower brasses - empty! lol. to think that during the cca orientation, for the band booth, the percussion side of the booth was always empty but i think shikin impressed them with her skills huh? and she is a girl and the best jazz set player in the section and the drum majorette too. talk abt great! we split the sec ones into groups of 6-10 then 'auditioned' them. there were few good ones and the rest were lousy canns. -puke- i admit my strokes aren't that good. but last year there wasn't even audition, all the leftovers go to ensemble which includes me. ergifying. but seems like percussion is always the section that is the most difficult to enter. hee. there's one malay guy that is really good while i got a few girls which totally sucked. they refused to play 'cause they said they were scared and lousy. yes they are! why bother trying the insts when you're not gonna try it.. -yawn- when they finally did, they still sucked so it didn't make any difference. some were really keen to join the section but their strokes really sucked so i didn't have a choice but to fail them. oopsie. =p well it's fun having a little authority now. but you also get scolding at times laa. so not that gd anyways. today was such a boring day... ergifying. missed councillor meeting 'cause i got piano lesson. my first piece so sucked and ms koh was on the verge of killing mee in a fun way la. got ting xie, lit test and etc tomorrow. gotta study man!! -whistles- okay. i'm going off noww. bye

hillsongs.free
would you believe me if i said
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today
would you believe me if i said
that all of your dreams in your heart
can come true today
`
would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that you want it to be.
today
`
and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
JESUS.. because of You.. i'm FREE
`
would you believe me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said
that you dont need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith
would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE
for God..
`
just live your life with God inside
you wont regret one moment of it
and give all that you can for God... for God
`
you know, i really love this song so much. it's like so true! LOVE IT! =) today had first band prac with the sec ones.. only sls and excos were supposed to come. the rest were just plain insignificant loe. but anyway, it was good laa? okay! gtg noww. -tired- byee!

hmm. am listening to some christian cd that's already in my cd player. -yawn- i'm so friggin' tired out. still stuck with my dumb total defence poster and english mindmap - actually i've finished the mindmap on storm. hee. the poster - ha! i know if i don't pass up tomorrow, mrs lim will so freak and start trying to make you feel guilty, as usual. i was just looking at phyllis's friendster pics. they're so adorable! esp. the neos of her and michelle. So sweet. they're like twiins! gee. just approved my testimonials too! i carnt stand it, do I really sound like lynette? -resigned frown- stacey, ernest, eric kong and etc. so said i sounded like lynette inclusive of actions. erg! i'm so losing myself!!! grr. =p you know i'm really getting to the limits by my mom, she is so annoying, it's not about me and my transition period okay? she spends her time insulting me whenever she's at home. i just dislike coming home now despite how tired i am, only when she's at home. it's like i thank god i have band and councillor meetings and all. i just really feel like i'm losing it at times. i wanna go out, have fun, forget about studying and all. it's just too stressful. whenever i speak the truth, my mom says i never say anything nice. that is so fine for me. she just expects me to be hypocritical right, or even a reflection of herself. i'm sorry man, i can't do that. tsk. i really am resigning to my cruel fate. -sigh-

`reality really bites man

i'm feeling so, so bushed.

went out today after school with ernie and jeralyn

we met at tp after school.

i spent my day talking so muchh rubbish

just to get the conversation going. erg.

we walked ard orchard/far east and etc.

we all spent money on food only

except for the birthday present, we didn't

buy anything... like whadd a waste! gee.

but it was fun laa. i so like prefer church people to go out with

than school peeps, which their town is like junction eight, like yuck,

don't they travel any further than that... how pissifyingg.

-puke-

okay. so we had fun laa. both of them were either

starving or thirsty... -tuts- i was the only one not getting

tempted by food or smth. okay! maybe the steamed tapioca and

the churros.. oopsie. =p. after that, went home about 6 plus,

reached home at 7.20pm. in the 73, i was so paiseh canns. I fell

asleep la and this lady sitting next to me, she was sitting inside wanted to come out

and then i was sleeping ma, she woke mee up ... erg, more like POKE mee up cann.

she poked me several times loes. ergifying. -griin- okay okay. I'm going off noww. byee.

went to church this morning

i mean, for sunday school first

i was lyke so late canns.

9.20am. i came with cheryl

and

she was so totallie complaining

about her being the only girl. heh

both of us were like wearing the same shirt

erg.

my mom was wearing the pink one

i was wearing the light blue one &

cheryl was wearing the green one

imagine if we took a pic

yuckks cann.

i'm like so peeved with jeralyn and yet so happy with her. heh

i amm going out with herr tomorrow. yeah!

orchard/bugis/somerset...

here we come!! heh

went shopping with clar and mum today

whoa! was spending money like crayzee

my cny clothes were so expensive -

i was so guilty. tsk.

i am so sounding like jeralyn.

whadd's with the tsk?!

i'm losing myself.

`loving it or losing it?

-grant mee peace-

woohoo!

yesterday was great!!!

we were having the time of our lives

that's what I can say..

Cheryl, Michelle and Jing Han so missed out

Hohoss. Despite my knee, I could play all the games

[thank god]

I had a blast with the youths yesterday, it was so, so fun! Well, we met at HarbourFront mrt at 12 yesterday and took our lunch at some food junction, I don't know what's the shopping centre called. Heh. Jeralyn and I sat with Thomas, Lynette, Jael and Jamin for lunch and Thomas was annoying mee to ashes!! I was like fainting from disgustedness, literally. His jokes were so lame, you didn't know whether to laugh or cry or you know, even show an expression. erg. whadd a pain. Then okay, after that we went to Cold Storage and bought water la. It was quite weird, Ps. Lindsey was so quiet throughout, maybe she's going through some problems? Okay, oh never mind. Then we headed to the bus interchange to take the shuttle service to sentosa. I was stuck standing next to Lynette and in front of me was Ernest la who was so annoying, when lynette was talking to me, he kept commenting that "hey, you sound like you're talking to yourself" and you know what? All I could do was scowl in frustration lol. Okay, not frustration ... but after that it just became a face of resignation. After we reached, we took the million year old tortoise aka monorail to Tanjong Beach. It was SO slow canns and the worst part is that we took one whole round 'cause there's no such thing as opposite direction. So we took from station M6 to M5. Oh yeah, Glenn kept sticking out his head out of the cabin and the shutter fell on his head, hohoho. It was damn funny. After that, he came out the next stop and changed to Jireh's cabin which was behind us. We were all falling asleep in there. -yawn- After we reached Ficus Station, I was so lazy to come out of the monorail .. erg. Okay. We walked for ten minutes to Tanjong Beach. Then the fun started! The first game ; you guess a number from 1-100 and you know slowly they'll 'eliminate' the numbers then the one who guesses the number will get poured with sea water by everyone. Haha. Timothy, Jeralyn, Yishun, Ernest, Christina and etc got drenched. Lol. It was quite amusing. Then next we played if I'm not wrong, Dog & Bone ... It was so funny! Watching them powder each other rather than take the bone was silly. I was laughing to my death! =) Rachel Wong was so cute can. She got powdered so much, she looked like an old woman. heh, and they said A-mei become A-ma. So mean! -chortle- Then it was touch rugby yep. So confusing! I was afraid to get touched man. I kept running backwards. I bet I looked silly! +) but it's okay. Then later we had the stupid frisbee game. I dunno what the heck is it called. Erg. It was so funny though. Then we had sandcastle competition. Grace's group won ... my group, lol, we had no ideas at all and nicholas kept insisting to use his 'leaf' idea. Oh gosh. Lynette and Kevin were like fainting. Lol. In the end, we stuck with a flower : idea taken from nicholas's leaf. hoho : okay. after that, everyone just watched the guys do flips in the water and later some people went to play volleyball and jeralyn and I sat in the "center" of the beach where the sand is very fine and we just sat there and so called tanned la. It worked a bit though. =) Lynette and the others went to swim later. Then after all the crapping around. Everyone went to bathe. I desperately needed the loo and the stupid toilet at Tanjong beach had no lock and it was all dark and wet. So Jeralyn and I tagged along with rachel wong, valencia, denise (is that how her name is spelt?) and ammy to the palawan beach toilet. It was so empty and good. Yupp! Later we all met everyone at the bus stop and took the bus to the visitor arrival area to watch the musical fountain.. but in the end we didn't watch 'cause it was so crowded and crap, they asked us to wait an hour for the next show, so we left to the arrival place again and took the harbourfront shuttle back to HarbourFront. Then we went to eat dinner. Some went to Yoshinoya and some went to Pastamania. I went to Pastamania! -slurp- Ammy, Denise and Jeralyn couldn't finish their spaghetti. I ended up eating a quarter of Jeralyn's share and Ernest, whoa, ate his pasta, brownie and ice cream, ammy's spaghetti and denise's spaghetti. Oh gosh. So piggified cannns!! And he wasn't full. I was SO appalled. Ammy kept saying what planet was Ernest and I were from to actually finish my spaghetti when the three of them couldn't. It was amusing, I was feeling kinda bloated after that. Erg. Went to mac after that to meet the rest then aft a while we all left. Took train back to Toa Payoh with Jamin, lyn, jeralyn and glenn. Glenn stopped at Braddell though. The rest, Christina took to Potong Pasir and the rest of the guys stayed at Dhoby Ghaut to if i'm not wrong play LAN or smthh along that line. Heh. Okay. What a long post. I spent an hour writing this. I think I'm not gonna be you know, blogging abt the last two days. Just that on Thursday I fell during PE. Erg. That's why the knee!

life is good

no matter what happens or has happened

i'm sorry to those i've hurt or annoyed

life isn't at all pleasant when you're

misunderstood.

but still,

life goes on.

=)

today, school was great! I was having fits of laughter every now and then. Haha, well, my blog is colourful, jamin is such a blurdo cann. omg. wahaha! jeralyn is so funny! sorry about not accompanying you during RR, you are so cute man. I just love my church friends! *muack*
I was so friggin' good today, well, i didn't have morning duty today. I was in a good mood today, trust mee, rachel and hwee en were nuts in class and I was actually 'entertaining' them, normally I just ignored their excessive lameness... hee. They are suchh sweet people! [see, i'm complimenting everyone! success, success, success!] Oh god, I am really in such a good mood, i'm becoming lame and crappy, uh oh! Anyway, as I was saying, I passed my spotcheck by Amabel/Emabel [forgot spelling] in the morning! She changed her glasses! Today, i kept 'meeting' Simone canns. And I saw her after recess, and I was without my hairband after selling ice cream. erg. So i kinda got 'caught'. My short skirt also got caught by her last week, she is such an eagle! I had to see the UIC after assembly la and I went there and this girl, called Bi Hui, she is a newbie from Ping Yi Military Band - like that is our 'enemy' .. but everyone knows they can't be a threat NOW, 'cause they are a newbie in the grand finals and deyi, tk and bowen hav always been there, i mean for at least 3 or more years la. She is a flautist and she is so ah lian-ish and rude cann. She looked me from head to toe and I was like making a face every now and then 'cause it's quite uncomfortable after a while. Hello? She was looking at mee like I was some vixen or some lousy band member, I'm like an NCO okay?!!! Okay. We had laughs in Mr Jo's lesson today, he like got angry la and his voice got all high and pitchyy and it was really amusing and Jasmine, who was like so rude, kept imitating him and I kept bursting out with laughter. After school, we had to stay back for band for a while, we were doing our chingay masks. It was fun. We had to stick loads of sequins on our mask and I got like SUCH AN UGLY colour, erg. It looked like it belonged to some cannibalistic tiki person. Hohos. My imagination is sure wild. I failed the mask twice by Yingmei, so I went to Chern Ron, haha, guys, they're not so particular about everything and actually he failed Jasmine then she whined then he said okay! Hohos. That scene was cute canns. After band, I walked with Sian Ying and Wen Theng to the bus stop and I took bus with Sian Ying laas. She was so cute and we were talking about Bi Hui la 'cause she had to teach her everything on all the band rules and the smooth dance steps. She was saying Ping Yi was so slack and all, they didn't call their seniors sir or mam, tt sorta thing. S. Y was saying that Jia Yi and her first impression of her was negative la. Same here! Anyway, so what about tt Bi Hui loe, Sian Ying is the upcoming flute SL okay... so she better not piss the members off, cause if not, she's gonna hav to live with us for another 3 years. Oh noo. Bwahahaha. Okay. I was sooo supposed to meet cheryl to go orchard to buy lyn's present and I was so late and I couldn't contact herr so in the end we didn't go. I so totally wanna smackk her face on friday! woots. sentosa outing with the youths on friday, actually I'm quite afraid of the games they're gonna play. whoa, whoa, whoa. Must be sporting. Anyway, if I'm not wrong, Bei Yu said that we hav to take the student leaders pledge tomorrow during assembly, ugh, I'm gonna be like SO stressed. Yawnns. Well. My brain is like still sleeping although I just took a nap. Had Lynette's b'day dinner just noww. Kinda nice. =) hrmm. be right backk!

this morning, hoho, sunday school was about puberty! oh goshh, it's like 'am i missing something? or have I come to the wrong class?' running through my mind, it was so awkward okay. i mean, we learnt this in sex education in p5/6 ... well, i dunno about guys -gives knowing glance- there's like guys and girls in the class... 4 girls and 4 guys, i'm not sure if you count glenn as a guy, bwahaha. he was so totally annoying and gay loess and he was pissing us off ... we were rolling our eyes full force. heh. it was quite funn ya? i mean the rolling eyes part not the puberty part. then we played this short game where we answer four questions and flash our answers out
`what would you like to buy with your ang pao money?
- a pair of converse shoess
`if you really wanna buy this top and you can't find the exact design burt
you find a similar one ... would you a) buy it b) carry on finding the exact design
- a) buy it
`if you had more than enough money, would you spend it on a) food b) clothes
- a & b [i'm a pigg kaes] -griin-

I can't remember the last qnss .. oops so i can't share it with you all. ((: don't blame it on mee.

-bling bling! dropps a whole load of coins into savings- you know, i was so friggin' peeved with myself the whole day, i dunno why, I kept grinning to myself and smiling away at the whole world and I had to keep controlling myself & close my mouth in time 'cause I look totally ridiculous now when i smile 'cause my vampire teeth are gone! Both! Today was my complimenting people day, heh, i was complimenting ppl la, duh. It was kinda fun and also, i was saying hellos and his to everyone, it was amusing mee to the max man!! So basically I was amused with myself today, much to my horror, i realise I have to keep my mouth shut and unsmiling for two whole months until my new teeth move down to where they are supposed to be. -sigh-
I love the weekends because:
- i am sick and tired of my school
- i am so sick of trying not to break the rules
- i am so sick of listening to the school
- i am so sick of getting caught by the councillor exco for my short skirt
- i am sick of being unable to wear ankle socks or push down my sch socks all the way
- i am sick of wearing my uniform properly
- i am sick of being so neat
- i am sick of listening to teachers in class
- i am sick of band
- i am sick of listening to the friggin' councillors
- i am sick of chingay practice
- i am sick of councillor duties
- i am sick of pumping for punishment after band
So basically, I HATE SCHOOL.
`who doesn't ____ *bleagh*
`
grr. i think i'm getting influenced by mr ernest! oh no! heh. i think i've reached the stage that I don't like school anymore. I remember in sec one, i was the only person so called 'hyped' to actually go to school. i remember cheryl groaning away whenever i said I can't wait to go back to school and jeralyn complaining and jinghan making foul remarks abt school. hohos. noww, those days are all gone, they are the ones okay to go to school while I am the one, complaining away, looks like we swopped lives or something. erg. my school friends, to add, are such losers ['cept the ones i'm close withh!] they don't go orchard or anything after school, all they go is amk central and even worse, they don't live in amk. yuckks! amk is like so totally gross canns. all the deyi-ans are there and yuck yuck yuck, mudds and minas are all holding hands, having the time of their lives there as it is less than kilometres from their homes. Urghhs. I really feel like dying, tomorrow I have councillor spotcheck, we will get it if we got something wrong [ya, like *rolls eyes*] hmm, anyway, i better cut my nails if not i will get it *imitates exco*

lyn is so disgusted with mee, i understand why. i burped very loudly in her face twice and it's the gross kind.. like sorry la! I said excuse mee wad. i found it gross too... we were eating some chilli-ful mee pok and kway tiao... hot man! ... haha.. so so bored... *yawn. =) later going yf, i'm afraidd!! ahh, whatever, i'm crapping loads noww.

ryan cabrera.true
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

just came back from SGH, ugh!, they extracted two of my teeth, and in march, they're gonna extract one or two more, MOLARS/CANINES! oH my GOD. my mouth's really numb and I can't talk 'cause I've got cotton gauze shoved in my mouth. This really sucks 'cause I carn't go band 'cause the lady said you can't eat ... or drink anything too hot or too cold. ergo! If I don't eat, I'm so going to faint during band - not really but possibilty and she gave me a one day mc for band and a half day mc for school. oh god, i'm like itching all over - not because i'm dirty okay? - just now a stupid mosquito was on my hand, trying to suckk my blood - yuck and i shook my hand and it came off. erg. like gross canns. I'm not going band again.. erg. i really wanna go, 'cause I still can't dance and play spiderman together, the dance is like so difficult, but i got it anyway. =)) budd I can't play and dance together la. whoa! I can't lie down [stomach on bed] at all, my 'excessive' saliva will stop flooding and leaking outta my mouth, like tt is so gross and shiitty.. erg. well, I'm going to do stuff noww, will be back later? =)

`you gedd the like and love facts right first

felt quite happy today! hmm. as usual, i feel moody in the morning, not because I didn't sleep enough but because the lessons are so damn boring. erg. mr johari didn't come - on mc - and it's so sickening 'cause i rushed through my maths hw in science lesson this morning! erg. ms chan also wasnt here, so i had two free periods... for the even numbers of the class, they had five free periods loe 'cause their home ec teacher didn't come but mine did.. yuckk. so sick. 5 free periods = more than half of the whole day's periods. the class, as usual, was in the state of chaos, and I dunno why, I was appalled at some people, they were like mad, reallie mad. They usually were the ones sitting down, not caring abt anything at all. But then, Jasmine Thian was like running around killing Ervin with the broom and plopping it on his head every now and then [which she normally does not go doing while on classrm duty] and Jiayun, usually she's quite loud but today, it was exceptional! She was cackling like a hyena and 'laughing and screaming' at the same time, sounds like a chickenn. heh. *no offence jy. =) bwahaha.

woohoo! today is jeralyn's birthday *winks and hints to those tt have not wished herr* heh. her present - happily sitting on my table, put in a nice box and tied with gold and silver ribbonn... ooh nice! =) One of the nicest presents I've ever done up. HEH. Am at Friendster noww. Omg, jh wrote mee a testi, whadd a dumb testi - abt us being megalomaniacal people then later we insult the megalomaniacal people. helloss. don't get me wrong jh but since when have i insulted some people with you? All i insult is youu! Okay, okay. Just joking around. We are not megalomaniacal! Today had a lot of homeworkk! erg. Mr Johari was suchh a pigg man! He said he'll only give us 3 qns for maths and you know what? It was 1a,b,c,d..... that sort of qns. So altogether we have to do more than 30 over sums of standard form which i so totallie don't understand a heckk he's saying throughout the whole lesson. So, mee being naughty, am not going to do it! I just can't believe beiyu and wentheng can actually do it during the free last period [assembly period replaced to discuss class decoration but mrs lim didn't come in .. so free period! wahaha!] while I was busy pigging out and just lazing.. After school, I didn't go for band but I stayed back for a while to drink ribena but oh suckyy, i had cramps after that, mee, heck care again.. hohos. So went home from there and later eat lunch then left for the dentist. She cleaned my teeth.. it's so clean now [lyk duh].. heh ... I've been lame and crapping around. Oh goshh.. I'm becoming like Michelle, tan/qua ... works anyway..! Hmm, boredd to tearss. Come back later... BYE.

Councillor duties beginn. erg. I had duty but I didn't do it... oops. I din know okay! It's carpark duty, and I dunno what the hell I'm gonna do there. Duty with Rudy.. OMG, that's totally gonna suck.. erg! Wednesday - linkway duty.. I think I'm going to DIE. 'cause the dumb sec ones are gonna be tryin to push past and everything else.. erg.erg.erg. today i did/helped in duty for beiyu and michelle, just helping .. 'cause they couldn't control the 'kids' .. the kids were being annoying laas.. pains in the butts. wednesday, i think it's gonna be funn doing the linkway one. at least better than patrolling! I'm doing with mirliana... she's also 1/3's class leader... woots. =) gonna stay up til 12 to msg jeralyn happy birthday... yay! hrmm *faiints* tomorrow I got dental appt.. so I carnt go band practice.. half gd, half bad.. I dunno what to do!!! boohoo.. being SL totally syuckks.. LIKE YUCK man. The first job I did, I got scolded by weifong.. roarrs.. ! forget it.. I dun wanna do anything anymore! *dies on floor, tumbless off chair*

Okay. Went church. I was first at sunday school like I was rushing all the way there, and i refused to let cheryl by breadtalk. hee *innocent smile*. As usual, go service etc etc etc. We went lunch together at Loy Kee! Michelle, Cheryl, Jing Han, Jeralyn and I! It was so funn. But during the service Michelle was being really 'dirty' ... yugh. I just carnt bear to think about it. I think I better send her for counselling. ahhs. That's gonna be so perfect. OUCH, stomachache! I wanna shit. Oops.. wrong way of saying. = excuse me, I would like to go to the toilet. Ahh. Hey, I'm busy crapping so just ignore me okay? =)) *huggs!

during service today
something got me thinking
[so I wasn't really paying attention to ps. ong]
but after that
my passion and flame for joy & etc
was extinguished
fine here.

hey, hey, hey. today, hrmm, was quite an eventful day, that's what I can say. Well, woke up at 5.30am, damn early. Just to get ready for school/band performance. Although it's the five-day week thing, this is exceptional - sec one cca orientation. woots. =) - Many CCAs (performable ones. *griins) performed! Band performed first after the CCA talk by Mr Wong. He was so naggy and I totally can't stand him, he's so stubby and fat. hohos. After performance, everyone packed up to go home except NCOs, one of them is me *-.-'* We had to go and attend to the band booth [it's actually a classrm.. heh] for like 3 hours plus. yuck. so little people came to the percussion area except when shikin played the jazz set then she started attracting sec one boys and even sec four boys! +) *griins cheekily and chuckles* Feeling so tired noww. erg. Gotta wake up early for church tomorrow and carn't be late - erg again - if not i'll get punishment... erg. lol. okay. so after band I went home for like half an hour only then left for yf, we reached there early 'cause my dad fetched cheryl and I so we went to shaw plaza and walked around sportslink and etc. After that, bought sweets from ntuc then went back to church, it was 3.50 already. Half the people were already there. +) then we sat down, it was really weird. heh. okayy then we had praise and worship, then testimony timee, then sermon by ps. lindsey. It was about getting your priorities right and et cetera. Really suited for my needs, surprisingly. Gee, after the sermon, we had to write our top five priorities in our life and then find a partner of the opposite gender to share it with and pray for the person. I got Jamin, hohos, 'cause he's sitting in front of me. *griins. So prayed for him and his sister to get along well and strengthen the ties between them etc. After that, socialized for about twenty minutes then went orchard to meet uncle david and auntie veron at jack's place. I ate chicken and mushroom spaghetti. Shawn, Cheryl and I took 130 [which supposedly was supposed to go novena which it did not anyway] then later dropped and took 166 to novena! We took opposite trains, he took to Bradell while we took to orchard. heh. So i think that's all for this day of mine.. Tiredd to tearss.

heyhos! I'm bushed. Band practice was really... exhausting man! We didn't even do music. All we did was drills, drills, drills then formation. But of course, I don't have to do formation 'cause I'm in the formation comm. hee. so tt's half good. Imagine, four different groups of people sharing the quadrangle : ncc cadets, npcc cadets, councillors and psls and band members. npcc was doing baton drills [is that what it's called -heard frm ervin-], ncc was doing drills, band was doing drills too and the councillors and psls, just sitting there, crapping around and occupying space! lolls. before school ended, during lit period, jasmine and i stole ervin's track pants for npcc [he's sitting in front of me, talk abt convenient! bwahaha!] we were being childish laas. but lit was kinda boring and we were falling asleep so we resorted to entertaining ourselves. ervin is so easy to bully 'cause jonathan is not there. [anyway, jonathan and ervin are always bickering childishly but they're best of friends. odd. =)] I was falling asleep in mrs yusoff and mrs lim's periods. omg. i can't believe myself. I've got three ulcers and my mom said it's due to lack of sleep. she is so totally trying to spite me and say 'i told you so.' that sorta thing. yughhs. hmm. so damn tired. I think I'm gonna go and slp at ten .. so early but whatever, i'm beat! Just wrapped my journal in a nicee 'sophisticated' wrapper and made it look sophisticated too! Hohos. Mrs Ong is my art teacher, she's so nice, million times better than that 'gay ah sam' ... [original name: mr sam lim] hohos. he looks gay okay. see for yourself if you don't believe.. hohos. okay. amm going to pack my stuff for art tomorrow! Byee!
`haven't done my children rights artwork..!

michelle.jinghan.jeralyn.cheryl.louisa 

I am on the verge of being very pissed.
alternating between pissed and super happy
is making me feel disturbed.
please.
i'm practically dying already
I was pissed with band peeps today
to be specific, those megalomaniacal people.
SUCKS.
Ernest said tt word was cheesy ... like fyne.
That started the getting easily pissed thing
Yuack. Yuack. Yuack.
Help me.
*dies on floor*

finally proper lessons! I kinda like my chinese teacher! =) although most of my friends prefer mr. ong chee teng, hohos. mr wong is like so totally gay man. yuckks. like *faiints. okayys, nth much to blog today = will blog later!

jesse mccartney.beautiful soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

second day of school - another busy and hectic day. -yawns- i'm tired. The student leaders met up in the morning at seven then we went to the quad to hold those little white cards for the classes to queue up properly. I had to hold it for 2/5 and they were being such baddies, watching me from the second level and refusing to come down immediately. Made me so stupidly standing there waving the 2/5 plank card. Doreen was being equally annoying 'cause she poked fun at me, just because I was holding her class plank card. erg. I was sick today, had a slight fever so after school, I didn't go band, I just went home with Michelle and after I reached home, I ate lunch, took panadol and took a rest. Well, the nap did wonders! I am feeling perfectly fine, inwardly and outwardly. *griins I feel so good now, all energetic and everything, no backaches! Okay, lets go to the fun parts of today's sec one orientation program. The early morning segment was really boring, they had a discipline talk and I heard the last part, handphones are allowed and you can only use it during recess and after school, rest of the time, switched off! I am elated! Oh I love Mrs Chua! No wonder I saw students whipping out their handphones during recess openingly, without a care in the world. After that it was time for doing the class mascot, flag and cheers. Was quite bad, attitude-wise and time-wise. They took their time, didn't take any initiative, totally needed to be spoon-fed and got shouted at by all of us and Sean's brother Bryan was being such a pain, he refused to be the mascot but everyone voted him and he said they sabo-ed him. fine. after that was picking berries aka recess! what a nice name for recess. hohos. after recess, they changed into their pe attire and got ready for the trail. Oh it was so annoying, our class was the last and it was embarassing! Ms Foo kept asking who are 1/3's class leaders. *scowlls There was a problem with the register and everything, the girls were in class, the boys refused to go back to class, so there was a mess! The trail was really fun! Our first stop : the Cybrary. They had to put their arms over each other's shoulders and spell Deyi Secondary School out with their butts! The sight was hilarious. There were couple more stations and we didn't complete all though. There were a few black sheep and a couple of 'act cool' ones, which were all so annoying. Because, the black sheep tried so very hard to piss us off and the act cool ones, simply put, refused to play, saying it was childish and all. But after that, they got scolded by Thapa, quite badly. ouch. Okay, then went back to hall then to the canteen, cheered a lot, shouted a lot today too, at the sec ones. hohos. Student Leaders were excused from assembly like yeah! So we 'played' with the sec ones laa. So that's all for today! I think. Anyway, there's one more new girl in my class : wonder what's her name though. I wasn't around the class the whole day from 8.30 onwards. Oh yeah, the previous post, I talked abt my class's leaders. There's one more - Mirliana and Thapa too! Fang Shuai - I dunno whether he's my class one la, but he's always around so okay!

first day of school

really busy!

first day as a councillor

it's quite fun actually

but it's quite hot wearing the school tie for the whole day!

oh, i got a normal academic class and i'm a class leader.

i nearly died - they are such monstrosities.

they are ruder than me, ruder than me and ruder than me.

Talk about no respect man! *roarrs

Okay, I got class 1/3 with Rainer, Rachel, Joanna, Brenda, Suman, Simone and Sarah [i think that's all?] Rainer was good with the boys la, 'cause he is the only guy in our group. But also he is able to joke and control the boys at the same time, quite amazing!! The boys were totally ignorant to us and they practically didn't give a damn about us! Talk about no respect again. *roarss again. We played a game with them - fruit salad! - it was really funny [it's something like blow wind blow] they got pasang and they didn't snatch a seat like so totally silly! the student leaders are just basically there to be lame and silly and organize the games and stuff. the class was really naughty! hmm, after school, we went to band [so called nco meeting] to make the wire thingys for the sec ones.. my thumb and index fingers are like so totally friction-ised, red and sore. ughh! the wires are totally killers. but they are nice. hee. hrmm. so bored out. so come back later!

I just changed my skin and it totally rocks! Actually, i didn't have a choice whether to change or not, 'cause my previous skin was spoilt - as in the only things tt appear are the blog posts which = no tagboard, no nothing!!! Today, church service was, uhh, a little on the boring side but it was abt why tsunamis and earthquakes[totally sounds like geog lessons!] and yada. Today's worship like no momentum liddat, nobody jumped at all at one way, shout your fame etc. Like only Ronald and Ernest were -obviously- jumping. The rest - hmm, tiptoeing?. Tomorrow's school's reopening, and I gotta be in school at 6.20am 'cause I got some councillor meeting to prepare for the sec one orientation!!! Wow! My mental clock is like spoilt - can't sleep now and then body is used to sleeping after 12 and waking after 10. - totallie sucks man. I half wish that it's still the holidays but I half wish it was school 'cause the holidays - if i'm stoning - is so boring! Today was the first sunday school lesson and they told us the expectations and the first one was 'be punctual' and then sharon said it to specific people - me and jerall!! like whadd rubbish okaess. lols. my eldest sister is screaming outside my rm for whatever reason - hohos. hmm. I gotta sleep soon and 'bank up' on my sleep. *sighhs* I'm quite sleepy now though 'cause just now I was at bugis then later took train down to tp to buy my bks. 2 books still not bought! Like whatever loess. My favourite book somemore -- GeoGRAPHYY! Yay!
`btw, change my tagboard to doodleboard so tt jeralyn can tag! roarrss

Just came back from Cheryl's house at 11.38p.m. It was rather fun. We had like a new year's dinner - three tables of steamboat/teppanyaki. Two tables had both while one had only teppanyaki. It was quite funn and it was filling laa 'cause all I ate was sotong, chicken and mee siam. Cheryl was supposed to stay over at my hse, then tomorrow go early to take bus together to church. yupps.. I'm talking to jeralyn on msn noww. Like finallie she can come online - tt tyme was URL blocked.. sad. I hope can take bus with jeralyn to church tomorrow! But she is like so totallie reluctantt 'cause she wanna take cab and be 'chauffeured' to church - i think. It's like nowadays we are going church so often. I'm bushed mann but I really don't feel like sleeping although I know I have to get up early, yada yada. Oh yeahH!! I went parkway parade just now with my aunt, uncle and my mom. They went Giant laas, as usual. But i got my school shoes and I just tried it on - the socks [they said it was ankle length] , it is totally toot loess. so high, i even have to wear it halfway - tt sorta thing... haiz.. so siann. Yawnns.. I think I'm going to sleep soon. *mwahhs. then later my aunt fetched around and picked up people... Joel and Jonathan came up the car and like squished me on my left and right and mind you, i totally had no breathing space! *claustrophobic* .. they were eating mac's .. and they totally did not offer me, although before tt my aunt gave me like more than ten fries.. hohos. -stolen from their 'dinner'. yupss. heyy! I'm going off now.. so SIAN. Btw, my new sunday school teachers like Thomas and Sharon. *bleagh* I hope I like them.. *prayss*

bored. my comp's nuts man. the post abt the grade 7 thing cannot be seen in my edit posts area and the time is all wrong. it was at 12.52 not 1.48! Like whatever loess. *faiints a thousand tymes

i came back in less than half an hour - 10 minutes!
HMM! I have loads of stuff to do,
+write out ensemble scores for weifong
+buy sec 2 books [leftovers]
+buy school shoes
I think everywhere's closed? 'cause it's a public holiday today wadd..*sigh* so complicating!*faiints

i'm like so totally happy and exhilarated!

I so like passed my grade 7 piano! Like phew!

The marks weren't so good but

anyway, i passed! That's what i wanna hear!

~

I can't believe I slept at 3 last night. after watchnight, we went to yio chu kang/serangoon rd to eat roti prata. i ate two egg pratas. so nice but filling. hey! I was starving since nine plus okay? the indian man that served was kinda dirty like yuk! Really yuk! He stacked the curry plate on my prata and carried it to my table... like the plate is dirty! I was mortified, goodness man. Can't stand unhygienic people, whether chinese, indian, malay or what. hmm, last night was really fun and jh was acting so totally desperate at midnight. possessed or something? hohos. budd anyways, she kept saying I want to kiss her like yuack, yuack, yuack. I don't even want to touch her! My face was in utter mortification when she hugged me - [oh, i'm like being so mean - must change!] *recites 1 corinthians 13:4-7 to herself* my mom was bugging me to go eat my lunch so byee! == Will be back in half an hour. =) *griins cheekily

I'm officially logging off

tired!

find me here

tomorrow

ciao.

goodnights everyone and

a blessed new year to all!

[i sound like a radio host! hohos]

Happy new year everyone! I was at church from 5-12am! Because we went to help decorate the church from 5-7 and at seven, we went to eat dinner then 8pm was the watchnight service. i was practically falling aslp while they said testimonys and jeralyn was totally rude man, she was doing her eng lit homework, talk about rude! bwahaha, and whenever uncle david took a picture, she would start whining[literally], 'cause it provided evidence [like who would actually notice her?] we were sitting down at main sanctuary and it was really weird laas. there was nearly not a soul when we first arrived. hohos. i'm so lazy to tell you the details. i'm currently writing my resolutions. hohos. i want to thank god for a lot of stuff laas in this year. basically these:

+ making me go to deyi sec [will elaborate later]

+ giving me leadership roles in school

+ strengthening the relationship

+ toning me down by putting me in a not so good school

+ moulding me to be a better person

i feel my resolutions for next year are kinda lame, but hey, better than nothing. i think the youths are not going to go home the whole night tonight, they've gone to watch a movie yada and they were planning to walk to town from church, like tt's gonna be so tiring! hmm, i'm bushed man, after tying all the strings to nearly tons of balloons! And during the countdown, they were supposed to burst it [which they did] all 66 balloons [i counted] in the main sanctuary were burst to bits and also, our efforts were go 'poof!' into the air. oh yeah! kevin cut and dyed his hair back to original colour. he looks so young, just like isaac! how adorable.. bwahaha. okay okay, will not say anymore things to bore you out. so goodnight!