Don't judge me tomorrow

By the way I'm actin' today

Mix the words up with the actions

~

You think that you know me

You think that I'm only

-excerpted from 'tangled up in me'

-skye sweetnam

today had band. i was so tired in the late afternoon segment! hey, carnt blame. i slept at like 1.30am. but anyway, it was quite relaxed today although we did a lot of running ard locations 'cause everywhere seemed to be unavailable except the netball court and the quad and it always rained halfway so we had to run in and out of the shade. there wasn't PT today like yeAH! we did formations today then i didn't have to do, i just stood up at the staircase to watch the formations take form. it's so cool. and imagine, the formation comm drew all tt and made the steps and everything possible (i'm part of the fc but i was sick and din come oops) it was so nice. my marching bell (also known as marching glockenspiel) was so heavy after a while and blahdyys. band ended early but beiyu, jasmine and i had to stay back and see weifong sir, coz he wanted us to write ensemble scores!! then nco meeting. we are upcomings. like yuack. i'm upcoming percussion sl with wen theng..
jasmine - secretary!
bei yu - treasurer!
xinru - trombone sl
farhana - french horn sl
the rest i'm not suree.. hee
^so stressed man. councillor - i don't even know whatt i'm supposed to do for orientation. wad class i'm taking.. etc. I"M LOST!.. HELP ME SOMEONE.

Outer Shell - written by jamin
Deep slience of a quiet mind,
Physically fit and outwardly fine.
Never could express the bottled fears,
Never to let go with broken tears.

Emotionless grins of an empty face,
Anger or joy could just take its place.
For the eye is weak and easily tricked,
For a smile can be just as easily faked.

Never judge a book by its cover,
for what is real is what is under.
Both laughter and tears can express fears,
What emotion comes when loneliness's here.

hello! today i spent my day from 1-7 out. i reached home at 7.20pm. it was fun, 'cept tt i was stuck with my mom. yay! my specs are done! i'm contemplating whether to wear it tomorrow for band. i'm just afraid if i wear the old one to band, when we pump then, you know, it will fall out then if i wear the new pair, i scared it will spoil while doing PT. *ponderss!* pt is quite violent - hoho. the new specs looks like it has a lot of surface area not covering my eyes but it is the same size as my previous one. it's nice and dark purple. hee =)
i just finished eating my magnum - yumm! - well. hmm, so i spent the day out. we went to portrait gallery first to return the graduation portraits because of defects so that we can get back a new one. the graduation photos are great and lyn's going to graduate in 2 years then they'll take another graduation photo. so nice although the mortar board makes everyone who wear it look bald - heh! - okay. then we took a bus to orchard then took train to city hall then took the free shuttle service to suntec city to make my specs and go eat .. hoho. we ate kenny rogers! how nice! there was no kopitiam or anything mahh. then my mom offered kenny rogers [coz she likes it] ... so we ate a quarter meal each at $13.90 [the offer not the meal] felt so full later.. *burpp* okay. tonight, hmm, i'm gonna slp at midnight 'cause tomorrow i've got band at 8.45am so gotta catch up on lost sleep already! tomorrows band is gonna be 9am-5pm, can die laa. okayy. gdd nightss now, maybe later i'll blog again. so watch out for mee!

you see, i nearly wake up every morning to smses. ugh. i'm tired you know.

so i woke up at 9.13am because of the sms.

after i replied, i was so tired

i just died out unknowingly.

later i woke up at 10.38am - my phone was blinking away

the next msg was received at 9.15am but i was asleep [remember?]

i'm normally not that porky and glutton-like

but hey, the holidays are going to be over...

gotta enjoy my heart's out now.

i didn't tell you about last night after the concert :

auntie dolly [aka ah boh] and uncle john brought us to eat

at chomp chomp [you know the semi-famous food centre at my house/stacey's house]

tell you what, i ate like a pig:

- 1 cup of sugar cane

- 1 and a 1/2 plates of carrot cake

- 3 chicken wings

that doesn't sound at all like piggish

but the way i ate was gross

hoho. i eat like a pig...

just that i don't look it.

aww, tt's too bad.

came back from meridien's junior college symphonic band concert

it was quite good and the members were colour coded according to section.

cool!

the saxes ; red

the trumpeters ; light pink

the trombonists ; gold

the clarinets ; purple

oboeists ; dark blue

the tubas ; lime green

the baritone saxes? ; hot pink

~

the tubees [tuba players] were so cute haha, during the intermission the girl player was funny.

she and her lime green tie. hoho. so amusing! in the morning i went to my school to buy books. yoho!

when i came down the bus, i saw nicholas eng cycling hoho! the sight was amusing! hoho. buy books, wrap some books. quite boring. hey!! they changed the school pe shorts to some black shitty tyng tt is so big. the size 34 [the smallest size] was like the length of bermudas! so lame! anyway, nearly everything was out of stock and i was quite pissed loess. it is annoying. 9 books out of stock.. why am i so unlucky? yahoo. i'm talking loads of crapp manx. haiz. bored to bits. no one's talking to me on msn except jamin. shawn not back from phuket yet. so quite bored out. [he's annoying but a source of entertainment.. hoho]

okay. bored out. *yawnns*

oh!

last night I slept at 3 am.. how ambitious!

hoho. and i was still feeling hyper at tt tyme

i was talking girly talk with my sis from 2-3

i was supposed to slp at 2.. whoops.

hmm, i dunno whyye i'm feeling quite pissed at everything now

don't pardon me 'cause you might be the one i'm pissed at

i think i know why i am pissed laa, but it's too personal

but also, i don't think it's tt.

see - i'm contradicting myself again.

anyway, lets not talk about unhappy stuff and move on.

2005 is coming in less than a week

and i totally can't wait for watchnight service.

hohos.

i haven't wrote my resolutions

normally i don't

but sunday school or royal rangers make me do it

so, i don't have much of a choice.

now i'm feeling so skeptical and i'm being plain r-u-d-e

to specifically certain people. hoho

i'm mean.

louisa, you're so louisa

and i love you!

heehee.. monologue-ing again.

-smiles-

now i'm happier than ever

was playing pool with jamin just now

oh come on, we were that bored. hoho

i have no idea why shawn's dad is delaying the flight by 2 days

omg. he watched the whole tsunami thing

and he's not afraid. i am for him.

so sorry.

i'm sorry to everyone, whoever i pissed

or scolded or misunderstood

or slammed down.

i'm sorry

-lowers chin-

i don't believe
why do i pretend nothing has happened
although alone i quietly cry
the painted scenes of happiness
are already torn apart
~
i still believe love is blind
no matter what will or has happened
people let themselves be manipulated
and some people just don't have the luck
~
so now i tell you
i don't believe in love
so don't come and comfort me
as my heart breaks into paper shreds
.louisa
`badly written poem

taken from the movie
"the phantom of the opera"
all i ask of you

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me ev'ry waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you, now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

And say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you'll need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, thats all i ask of you

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me, each night, each morning
Say you love me
(You know I do)
Love me
That's all I ask of you

Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me
That's all I ask of you

i'm so bored

bored.bored.bored

i'm dyingg.

now i understand what thomas said :

he said something like my future boyfriend would suffer

because it's so difficult to amuse me.

he was at my house on the 25th and he was horrified

as my whole family, to be exact, my closest cousins - jonathan & joel

are soo r-u-d-e. haha. like we all poke fun at each other and at our own parents either.

cheryl said they were mean. hohos. but tt night, i could say was the least insulting night

ever! hoho.

*remains difficult to please

hohohohohoho

i personally find this so amusing!

pah! me difficult to amuse? [look above]

today was totally funn!

after service. we had dis sunday school thing.

so actually, we ponned royal rangers - ouch.

we went to watch the phantom of the opera

i chose it!

hohos. jh was really bitter about it at first,

cause she couldn't watch her doopied ocean's eleven/twelve [forgot title]

i was so set on watching phantom tt i din care

oh please, the other choice was kung fu hustle

which i think - is a complete waste of my money and time

don't you just agree? [guys probably don't ;) ]

i'm so happy! the show is soo great.

and i'm not so confused already, isn't tt great to hear, jeralyn and cheryl

hohos. - it's a private joke. *griins

the showw was totally great. i have the book.

now i just dunno where it is, i just saw it this morning though.

=)

okayy. my sis is chasing mee away 'cause she wants to use the comp

and i'm hindering her. my other comp's spoilt and i think it's my fault. ouchiesss!

hmm. stomachachee. ugh

okayy. byeee

good night

quote jinghan "smwahh x)"

24th dec

hoho. hii!

backk after a long time, literally.

went to ah boh's house and I was exclaiming everytime

that christmas has lost its glamour to jon and cheryl

they were so unhelpful - jon was complaining too

-about his own house party!!

annoying right?

cheryll was just being lame and being stupid.

we felt so totally dumb 'cause jon like invited his entire montfortian clan

[a.k.a. gay friends, mwahaha]

and joel invited 3 or 4 of his mj friends soo..

the study housed all the kidds and we couldn't get in!

andd we were being suchh idiots, you know the song item we were supposed to sing

i feel like smacking jonathan's face! i told him to prepare

two or more songs and he only prepared one so

we only sang one - erg.

then everyone asked for more - hoho *honoured*

so in the end we sang four songs:

`destiny's child - do you hear what i hear

`christmas is a time to love

`mariah carey - all i want for christmas is you &

mariah carey - jesus born on this day

~

it was really funn, although the atmosphere was badd

i mean, everybody feels quite lethargic - tt sorta thingg. *heh.

~

25th dec

went to churchh!! we were fifteen minutes early

thanks to lynette!

goodness. really. thank god.

when we came, the entire main sanctuary was full of old laddies & ladies

so we moved to the thirdd floor. there was, to our surprise, empty - hoho.

so we sat in the front roww. hohos again. jinghan was totally being a pain

just because i forgot to bring her present - ergo!!

*faiints

now i sound like jeralyn - oh no!

i lost my personality and style and uniqueness. ergo!!!

literally.

then we gave our presents aroundd after the service at the side hall.

funn to just stand there and collect presents, lol.

i mean, i do give people too laa. basically, exchanging gifts.

FUN.FUN.FUN

I woke up 50 mins ago. I was wrapping alvin's present just now. hmm. quote shawn "why spend two minutes wrapping a present and they just take 2 seconds to rip it open?" I totally agree laa. but at least better than him, he didn't even wrap anyone's present except the exchange gift for last night. hoho. jh got an evil present.. goodness! i was mortified and he was still acting like nothing happened. jh is less noisy now. [gives some encouragement to jh. =) ] last night, i was crazy, you can tell me tt again. i cried again, this time, for no reason that i know of laa - maybe i just dun wanna tell you, but i dunno myself. - i'm feeling quite giddy now. i have a sore throat and flu. erg. i dun even think i can sing for the christmas item at my aunt's house or at my own. ergo!! i'm dying already. stupid ernest go and curse me. *tumbles off chair* UGH!

*still on floor dying*

hoho.

hello! i just came back from our sunday school outing at 11.50pm! woots. i was so happy, i didn't even want to come home. [so true] but anyway, i don't want to come home everytime so tt doesn't make a difference huh? lols. yesterday i went out with cheryl and jeralyn to orchard. we walked around everywhere, buying nothing though. we went taka then, paragon then far east plaza. we met shawn and jamin at delifrance at paragon and they didn't know where was it (shawn to be exact bohoho.) okay, then yada yada, shopping til' 5.40pm. then when we were walking towards the mrt, we met christina, rachel wong and rachel liu. they were like terrorising all of us, literally laa. then we took mrt to marina bay, we were ten minutes late but there was not a soul [tt we knew] except michelle. she was so adorable, sitting there alone hoho. then we sat there was about half an hour to wait for the whole world to turn up then we walked towards the bus stop outside the mrt and took the shuttle bus to the steamboat place. we got an inside seat which totally sucked - everyone's smoke was blowing in our direction! everyone ate a lot, but jeralyn and I were not even quarter-full man!! shawn cooked everything for himself [doh] and a lot too was burned. whoops. lol. michelle was terrorising cheryl with her crude jokes. oh, then we had ice cream [comes together with the steamboat]. by that time, jinghan and constance left already. then michelle was making fun of her own ice cream - yuack. tt was totally gross, youu don't wanna know. =) - after the steamboat thing, we walked to the bowling alley to bowl laa [duh]. hey it's my first time bowling! woots. heh. i've been to a alley thrice or so already but never did i bowl laa. it was really fun. michelle slipped on the 'oily ball runway'. it was HILARIOUS! i never stopped hoho-ing. lols. then michelle was loser for both of the games. haha. it was really fun laa. tianle, jason and donovan din bowl, they went to the arcade la. hohoho.

i can't stand my mom! i was playing insaniquarium and she told me, dun play, i dun like. WHO THE HECK CARES WHETHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT! goodness! She expects me to sit home and be stupid and retarded and just sit there and stare into space right? i might just do that man. then she'll regret it. YUACK. so strict. so controlled. sometimes i dun even want to come back after i shop, i'd rather go home with cheryl or something. erg.

michael buble - crazy little thing called love
This thing called love I just can't handle it
This thing called love I must get round to it
I ain't ready
Crazy little thing called love
`
This thing called love
It cries
In a cradle all night
It swings
It jives
It shakes all over like a jelly fish
I kinda like it
Crazy little thing called love
`
There goes my baby
She knows how to rock 'n' roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat
`
I gotta be cool, relaxed, get hip!
Get on my track
Take a back seat
Hitch hike
And take a long, long ride on my motor bike
Until I'm ready
Crazy little thing called love
`
There goes my baby
She knows how to rock 'n' roll
She drives my crazy
She gives me hot and cold fever
Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat
`
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love
Crazy little thing called love

hmm. I just woke up at 10.50am yah? then came online .. okay, dis is boring. everyday, the same thing happens. i think i'm gonna stone at home. ergo ergo ergo. haha. i'm listening to michael buble. last night, i fell aslp to summer wind by buble. haha. the cd is so nice. i stole it from my eld sis laas. her boyfriend i mean - whoops - heh heh. i'm so bored - so lazy - so tired of everything. oh forget it, as if you'll understand. you're just a digital unfeeling tyng. ugh
get outta my sight. bwahaha.

hmm, what a nice day today! I went out with my sister, cheryl, ernest, jamin and shawn. I was quite sure shawn was not supposed to be there as i was supposed to buy his present and *sighss so loudly* the two people whose presents are left are there. ergo. so i din buy anything la. we went to ps for half a day until 5pm - that was where, whoops, ernest shopped like a girl. haha. he was browsing everything, going into every shop. I nearly died frm walking around so meaninglessly. heh. me and cheryl were so lame, annoying each other and oh ya!
doopied shawn and jamin annoying us to death! they were making fun of my bell and cheryl's nose, but the nose was funny ya. haha. nose jokes - bwahahahaha. jinghan is backk. ergo again. i somehow dun miss her yakkiness. i seem to enjoy the silence. hehh. *no offence jh!* then we also went town. i dunno where but we took a bus somewhere. who knew where we went anyway, lyn n ernie were leading the way all the time. haha. so we were just like those stray dogss following along. then jamin n shawn saidd tt only lyn n ern were shopping yadayada*[classified information :) ] okay. we kinda agreed on it anyway. ok. so after town, it was about six laa. then we left and took train to toa payoh - all of us left the train except ernest *laughs bwahaha* then later we split, they went to their cell grp thingyy and we went to eat and lame ard - as usual. so that's it. byee.

`i love tt song below anyway!

michael buble - for once in my life
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
.
For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dreams come true
.
For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once I've got someone
I know won't desert me
'Cause I'm not alone anymore
.
For once I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
.
At least I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
For once in my life
I find someone
I've got someone who needs me

just woke up

to the sound of lynette's angry voice

on the phone.

my mum was on the line.

erg.

always gets us irritated huh?

i'm so mentally tired and I don't know why.

lyn was complaining and telling me tt she talked to ernest 'til 5.30am

Like it's my problem - bwahaha. =) fyne.

i should show some concern.

-bleagh-

Kyra! 

today. goodness me! i woke up at 9.42am to be exact because somebody smsed me, 'boo!' and woke me up and while we exchanged sms, halfway i kept falling back to sleep and waking up to the consistent ringing of the sms tone every nearly 15 seconds or something. That carried on until 12.15 when i actually left the bed to go toilet etc. auntie dolly called and said she was coming to pick me already for christmas item rehearsal at my aunt's house and she said she wasn't coming so soon. she came at 12.40pm. i wasn't dressed, was still listening to music and eating -three quarter done- my lunch. when she honked outside, i realised it was her 'horn', i rushed into my rm and put on the shirt stacey also -red nike shirt- has and my skirt. thk god i already thought of what to wear. i dashed out and she picked me. thk god i live in a terrace house! okay so spent my entire day at jonathan's house singing and singing myself dead. then at ard 4 we went into the study and watched a little tv, cause we were totallie bored. then at ard 5 aunt dolly came back and we sang a round for her. o my god! kyra is so damn cute manx. so docile and so innocent. afraid of nearly everything. kyra is my cousin's dog by the way, there's truffles but tt's not safe to put down unto the flr 'cause she'll start running abt like mad coz she's very active. i'm quite scared of truffles as she growls at everyone and barks like hell. kyra is SO darn cute. i love her! and even bernice = the very afraid of dog kind = said i'd like to have a dog like this! KYRA IS SO ADORABLE.

my life is boring.

always.

my mom scolded me just now = not exactly. she was scolding my sis, rattling on about dunno whad okay? then i thot she was scolding me 'cause i was in the study and she was in here too. hrmms. *confused* okay. i'm peeved. i just posted a nicely written post and the page became - the page cannot be displayed. *scowls*
-went to j8
-bought thomas's, mum's and dad's presents
-ate mos burger
That's the summary. YEAH!

my life is still boring.

always.

I'm so tired
and...
yawn.

i'm commanded to go to my cousin, bernice's birthday party.
erg.

I went to church late this morning - again
ugh. i'm ALWAYS late. so the usual happened, cheryl and I supposed to meet at serangoon garden circus bus stop to take 73. she woke up late. then i took 2 hrs to dress up [i'm not vain okay!] erg. then later my dad fetched me to the bus stop at 8.50 (supposed to meet there at 8, mind you!) then they weren't there. then my dad fetched me to cardiff and you know what? after he fetched me back to circus, they(cheryl's family) appeared(to fetch me to church) and oh my glutinous rice (copyright- hazel, bwahaha)! I got scolded on the way there. I didn't ask for it, hello! I wasn't in a good mood and this guy (cheryl's dad) comes along and mocks me. I wanted to smack him on the face. [cheryl, do not show this to your dad k? bwahhss!] i was so pissed. PISSED. what's with him, doesn't mean he can scold me because i'm his niece. yadayada respect your elders - pah! goodness gracious. my mum is older than him. his sister leh. but they're both as horrendous as each other. exact same genes. Yuck.

today was fun. whatever. i'm not in the mood to blog - at all. although so i'm doing a summary. went to church for christmas party. was so fun. yaas. then I ate a lot! the chocolate cake by ernest's mum was er, so rich and fattening yaas. anyway after clearing up then jeralyn, cheryl, michelle and I went orchard with the entire youth ppl. erg. we were peeved. it started with the four of us then lynette, then thomas, then stacey then the whole world was suddenly going with us and we got no presents and all we had was wasted time all thks to the dodo girls man. erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.erg.!! okay. then 'shop' shop shop until ard 10 plus then went coffee bean to er, lounge around la and drink coffee, chit chat - fellowship..bwaahhahas. ok. then went home. -boredd-!!

today woke at 12pm [whoaa!] then I had to be in church at 2 so had to start dressing up immediately [aft doing toilet stuff. hahas. nyahaas] supposed to leave the house at one but left at 1.20. ugh. so i was late to meet michelle at tp interchange. after that, went church blah blah. wrapped finish the chinese books and tied the bows then it was only 3.30pm. 2 hours early! we finished the two projects we were supposed to do faster than 2 days. yay! but later we spent the 2 hours laming around and glenn's phone was condemned or something. it was sending everyone 'i love you' msgs. bwahahas. practically the whole 'church' got it. mwahhss!! some cursed phone he'd got. after that we left church and took 124 to orchard mrt. the bus was so crowded and full and cheryl, jeral and I were feeling so claustrophobic. we practically had not enough oxygen. it was obvious and after what seemed like hours, finally, we arrived so we waited for ernest at mac. he was late. bwahahas. fifteen minutes. but we weren't so gd either. 5 mins late. i mean, not for the performance laas. then later we went to the place where the stage was then waited for them lorrs. we had to carry bags for them like erg! my sis's bag was a bomb or something. so friggin' heavy. ok. overall the performance was gd but seemed like kenny was so serious and trying to be heard or talent spotted. yuck. carnt stand this kinda ppl. but carnt blame 'cause he couldn't get into singapore idol. haha. *pitys* i'm feeling quite tired noww. my legs are on the verge of falling out - think i need to elevate it. okayys. i think i'm not gonna chat with anyone, even though jas is online. hrmms.

SLEEPING TYME. =))

you know what,

i've just exploded.

again.

i was crying

a second ago.

I dunno what's with it la. I'm so grumpy blah (read prev.post) then i keep exploding. I either start crying and cursing at you or get angry. i think you'd rather the crying one. 'cause if you happen to piss me off or get in my way. you're gotta got shot by me until you die. esp. when i angry with you. i'll shoot you (with my words) until i dunno whadd. ugh.erg. i carnt take it laas. pardon me this week. and don't make me angry too.

*tries so hard to type and lick her melting like mad ice cream* yumm. am eating ice cream now. yay. split to be exact. today's events really made me feel good all over for the rest of the day although I am like pms-ing awayys. dunno whyyes. the last four days have been so 'hectic' for me, literally. i was always grumpy [except when I am with special ppl, the jamm gang, et cetera.], always feeling pissed off and angry with people which is so true 'cause it shows. ya. serious! lyke I just scolded cheryl, 'cause she was annoying me on msn. not reallys but sending a lot of 'msgs' and splitting an already short sentence into like FOUR messages. my nose hurts by the way and my leg disease is recovering. (well, if you mean turning darker instead of whiter in air conditioned places) lames! my eldest sister just cut my hair and i've just finished bathing. it's reall short and I totally love it. So cute. short and bouncy. (don't think dirtyy) today. we went to church early at like 9.30 for christian service. yay. it was so fun. we were at tp interchange at 9am and michelle was like hitting us for being 10 mins late. then jeralyn was so late. we left and took 145 by ourselves. she was left behind. ouchies. it totally was not my idea. it was michelle's then later cheryl agreed with her then I too. I was also grumpyy laas. i hate waiting for people you know. for christian service, so fun! we wrapped the newcomers' christmas presents, cut up and folded the invitations (tt was all done by me!) and service time sheets. then we went lunch together at mac and chatted with ps. lindsey about baptism (she broached the subject ferst) . thenn valerie a.k.a miaomiao a.k.a marcus's sister kakakakakakakakakaka-ed away. blabbing her own nonsense and omg, she was practically contradicting herself in every sentence she spoke which made us totally collapse with laughter as I did the invitations and cheryl n val were doing wrapping. i did a lot of bow-tying and present wrapping and bible study!! omggg!! okay. later in the afternoon, we wenta see two patients at sgh (one has cancer, one has liver problemsss) by cab. it was frightening, the hospital i mean. the woman with the liver problems was really friendly and nice and seemed fine. she was just admitted into the wardd 3 daes ago. her husband had leukamia (no idea how to spell) ouch. really saddening. then the cancer guy. he's only got one month to live. they only allowed 2 visitors so ps. lindsey and michelle went in. while cheryl and I were outside playing with the vending machine (buying drinks and watching the cups be filled and the dispenser and everything else) we were retarded - fyne. oooh. i love my hair. yaya! okay. i felt really sad for the cancer guy anyway, at first it was 6 months to live. now it was cut short to a month. but actually he might feel it better to be earlier for him to expire 'cause he has growths on his body. i imagine it and it looks gross. ouchh. i wish i could do something instead of just watch him die so silently.

that perfectly painted scene
replays ever so often in my mind
so beautiful. so wonderful.
i question myself if it is but not a dream.
extracted from 'dreams so alive. they speak.' written by louisa

another eventful day. woots. i went out with jeralyn. heys. i dunno whadd the heck's wrong with my msn. keeps playing tricks on me. like signing in and out and when i talk to certain people, it closes the window automatically. *smashes computer* and my computer, not to mention. is so annoying. i'm currently using the one in the study (which is faster although pentium 3! ironic! *mine is pentium 4 by the way.* ). i hate using the one in the study laas 'cause it doesn't have my stuff to do stuff. hahas. i'm crapping. okay. my phone inbox is full. stupid phone. my smses from jasmine and whoever that msgs me. carnt delete. Cause, i like seeing my inbox full. lame right. fyne. smack me then. *grins* woo. jason is online. whoops. i feel like i've forgotten about him. the last tyme i was talking to him, i was trying to get him to go to church which was hopelessly failing. he's darn cynical and all i can do is watch him insult me (normally i do retaliate, now, i'm trying my best to get him saved so i don't care!) he's my cousin's friend you see. we really want him to go to church and experience what we do. he's too 'un-open' laas. he's so cynical you can strangle him. but we must be patient. *runs 1 corinthians 13:4 in mind* yes. yes. yes. I pray. I pray. Jonathan pray. Cheryl pray. pleaseee. he's a really hard nut to crack. I PRAYY for his salvation! okay. as i was saying. this morning i met jeralyn at 11.30am at toa payoh. redd circle theree. sod tt. let's go to the more interesting or to us, mortifying parts. =) okayes. big news huh! i met one jiko (old man pervert?) while waiting for jeralyn (half hour!!) he peeped into the woman's (next to me) blouse. well. it was little bit low cut at the back. in fact it was not. but he peeped anyway. don't see any fun in tt. pah. after jerall arrived (after i practically fainted and was pissed off.), we went tp library to return her overduedd books. then here comes along this disgusting bogay [no teeth for your info] who asked us if we had change to take bus in mandarin. i knew he had something up his sleeve 'cause he only singled us out when there were tons other ppl to ask. then we said no. then he kept llike pressing on. i felt like bashing his already like bogay mouth to remove the excess teeth and complete the bogaying job! then later when I stormed off (jerall was like slowly walking behind me, following me!) he shouted, where are you going in mandarin yet again. you know what i did? i was appalled at my actions. i turned behind, said 'huh' in a very mean way and rolled my eyes so hard at him. unintentionally. it just came out. i didn't know. but anyway good for him. harassing young girls when he should be like, getting a dental job. then the third one. at somerset mrt. we were walking and talking towards somerset mrt (through the carpark) then this khaki shirted guy was like tailing us so near LOR. practically stuck to our plastic bags of presents already. then i felt disgusted then i linked arms with jeralyn and walked really fast to the escalator to the mrt. he followed in the same speed. yuck. then down the escalator, he was behind us. STUCK to us. mind you. ok. then when we were walking through the 'corridor' he tailed so near. so jeralyn and i tried to act silly and disgusting 'cause she pointed out the damsel-in-distress whistle the entire jamm gang has (jinghan, michelle, jeralyn and i) then i pretended and i said, 'wah, your boyfriend give one ah. let me see. so nice. wooo.. ' *tries to be annoying as usual so as to lose the pervert* we then slowed down because of the so called so nice whistle then he walked in front of us laas. wadd a freak. and he kept turning behind and looking at our faces. I felt like smacking him!!! ugh. tt's the fun part laa. the rest are history la? okay. peace out.

i just saw yong liang's display pic. yuck.

*faints*

*really faints*

*dies*

todayys so FUNN!! I went out ard 11.30am. Uncle David was going Tampines Mall with the Hongkong relatives, granny and Justin then Cheryl and I tagged along. I din know we were going to eat lunch at Crystal Jade Restaurant. hoho! We met Aunt Esther there, who already booked the table and seats yada. Then there was no place for cheryl and i then the lady dragged along two other chairs. we felt so totally like EXTRA. yeah. we ate so much and aunty esther ordered so much and cheryl and i reallie felt like we were gonna explode or something. granny ordered a char siew rice thingy and omg, she couldn't finish and asked us to share it. we were dying by tt tyme. whoaa. after tt, ha, my stomach really felt sick. then we walked ard with justin for a while, while uncle david was drawingg money then the old people [granny, hongkong relatives (couple)] took him away. *scowls* anyway he was dragging me along [coz he didn't want to hold cheryl's hand. bwahhaaas!] i feel so loved!! justin's a PERVERT man. trying to like touch cheryl's boobs all the tyme.. yuck. babies just have a fetish with tt just because they drink from it. [dun get grossed out by dis plsss - facts!!] haha. and oh yah. justin is always laughing or smiling to himself when he sees any woman in reality or on tv. PERVERSE!! haha. later after that, walked ard tampines mall then took a train down to orchardd! So FUN. then went to heeren then saw wen long. omg in jean perrie. yuck. after tt felt so disturbed. thk god i din go out with jerall and she like bankedd out on me too! THK GODD! eh? before heeren we went takashimayaaaa! then bought like SO many christmas presents! wooh. yay! then okaes. took train to toa payoh then went koufu to chat and drinkk sometyng coz i was dying of throaties. [dry throat la. my name for it!!] then later msged ard then went home lerhhs.. wadd an eventful dayy!

hmm, i really would like an mp3 player for christmas. hrmms. mom probably won't allow says i'll become a slave to it yada yada. you know, sometimes she can act really holy but sometimes she also can act unreasonable and totally ungodly! I don't get it. I will not give you the details but still. Last tyme, all the aunts and uncles joined to give me one present. A sony radio. okay. Really nice! More expensive than my two sis's ones. bwahaha. (tt period of tyme la. tt was the newest wadd) haha. it's still here though. i don't really use it 'cause lyn got a big one and nice one for her birthday from my dad (those players and plugs and blahh) really nice. looks a little like a long pancake. haha.

heyys! i just woke up (like duh!). Last night although I slept really late at like 2.30am but as usual, i'm still hyper! I'm just afraid I get bad eye bags laa. My family, *sighs*, is known for eyebags like for some people, when they sleep late everyday, nobody even knows. For my mom, when she sleeps TOO late for just one time, her eyes will look like a panda in the morning. BWAHAHA. That's the funniest part! For Lyn and I, still quite okay - haha - we have eyebags (quite bad actually but compared to a panda. nah) i'm eating last night's cheeseburger. my dad saved it for me and i din eat it. i was talking a short conversation on msn with mevis just now. after we talked a little, she said she had to go. *makes weirded out face* I'm supposed to go out with Jeralyn at 2 today, after her band. But this morning, sad, she msged me and said, i can't go, need to see doctor yada yada. I let her laas. 'cause I'm so nice. bwahaha. She's really sick laas.

my dad bought an entire feast of like mcdonalds'. i aimm eating a mcflurry - cappucino. haven't heard about it.. suaku!! msn messenger beta is so nice. =)

i changed my skin. again. i reallie like it so much. although i have no idea whyye my tagboard is purple. i tried all means to make it, er, black but anyway i love it. so purple then so much blog post area [from reading, you should know i usually blog more than maybe 100 words or far more than tt ya. so yarh. finally found the perfect skin that is purple, has big blog posting area. oh yeahh!!!

Jamie Cullum - Everlasting Love
.
Hearts gone astray, deep in her when they go
I went away just when you needed me so
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you
Won't you forget, welcome love we once knew
.
Open up your eyes, then you'll realise
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side.
Girl, to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love
.
From the very start open up your heart,
feel that you've fall in, everlasting love
.
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
.
I need a love to last forever

i am so boliao.

i decided to just tell the whole world

my likes and dislikes ya?

omg!

lykes//*

-playing the piano [music is my life!]

-listening to music

-laming around

-goofing around

-insulting people [hoho]

-observing people's actions [eccentric ya?]

-intelligent conversations. [heh]

-intelligent people *grins*

-making people laugh [my fav]

*

favourite music/ songs//*

-richard marx and donna lewis : at the beginning

-skye sweetnam : tangled up in me

-selena : dreaming of you

-destiny's child : do you hear what i hear

-jamie cullum : everlasting love

-counting crows : accidentally in love

-linkin park : numb

-avril lavigne : nobody's home

-hillsongs : one way

-nearly all hillsongs =)

-planetshakers

*

dislykes//*

-mushy talk *yughh*

-mushy songs [some are okay]

-papa roach

-offensive songs

-the osbourne family [they all look gross]

-hot weather

-being cold

*

always//*

-laming around

-contradicting myself

-laughing at cheryl's blurness

-pitying old helpless women ['cept those with attitude prob]

-want to help those donation thingys

[but sometimes don't, 'cause they might be lying.]

-always trying to be nice but people misunderstand me

['cause i'm basically not, all the tyme]

-when i'm really concerned, people think i have a motive

*scowls*

-scowling! *grins sheepishly*

Frozen Emotions
Winter comes the river freezes
Out cold with chilled sneezes
Water under a winter's spell
Upon the ice some children fell.
*
Upon dead logs the parents sat
Watching children and feeling glad
Little knew they could not grasp
A young boy sat alone and wept
*
Skating shoes and warming gloves
Did his parents sent with Love
However far his parents were
All he could was wear his gloves.
*
Tears rolled down he's wheelchair bound
Firmly locked wheels on ground
He was sad, yes he was sad
Until warm hands touched his back.

-written by jamin choe

being happy and positive really paid off.

i'm not having a fever no more.

praise the lord!

37 degs!

yay!

i have a fever at 37.9 degrees.

ouchies. i felt it this morning and when

i took my temperature. oh. i hit the nail on the head.

oh yeahh. i feel like dying suddenly. must be strong.

bwahaha. must keep myself happy. argh.

yughh.

i'm dying. hey! must think positive.

i'm strong. *faints on table* guess i'm not.

haha.

i am not fatalistic!

mind you

=)

helloe! do you know what time i slept last night? 7.30p.m unbelievable! i was supposed to take a 'nap' lah and wake up at 9 plus and omg, i woke up at 2 in the morning then went back to slp then woke up again at 7.30am, with my eld sister coming in and out to do make-up *-_-'* yahh and finally i woke up at 9.30am. Woohoo! thenn i came online at 10.15. bwahaha. i'm madd now. err.

I miss jerall!

I miss the pastors!

I miss youthh camp!

; mwahhs ;

helloes again. i hav been online since like erm, 2 plus. i am listening to skye sweetnam - tangled up in me. yuck. the lyrics are so lame. ugh. she is like so b.h.b! anybody readin this pls read the four previous posts... haha. dun count the youthiee camp pic la. so nice. shawn sent it to me yay! haha. i'm madd. i'm so happy. can't wait to come online later in the night night night to chat with cheryll n et ceteraa.. bwahaha. hols are so boring. now tt band has stopped for christmas yah? i'm not sure whether i'm going to the band 'excursion' to sentosa. whadd is there to do at sentosa anyway, that is free? boring stuff rightt - the beachh etcc.. we just pay 2 bucks for admission tt's all. whadd better can we do? team-building games - get a life. ppl in the saxophone and percussion section are like so bad to each other. percussion juniors to sax seniors laas & vice versa. they are like so bossy and everything else. pahh! *piak face* hrmms. okaes. bye again! Hurray! Jing Han is in China - wow, so quiet manx. =) bwahaha. *evil laughs* byeesss

Combined camp with Sembawang A/G and Faith A/G! Youth camp rockedd! 

i love my youth camp grp

: the pastors :

i love rachel wong.

i love louis.

i love ernest.

i love pamela.

i love myself.

i love lynette.

i love christina.

i love jireh.

i love kevin.

i love bernice.

i love sophia.

hmms. i've just changed my christmas-sy skin to this urm, very me skin?

sorta la. although i'm not that wild but i kinda like it.

i am SO BORED. save me. last night i slept at around 1.30, 1.40 'cause i was chatting with ernest on msn then i transferred to him the song he wanted [selena-dreaming of you] then it took so long. i think it probs is 'cause of his comp laas. 'carnt be mine right. heh heh. i was also chatting with cheryl, shawn, clark and audrey online too. wow. i din know they were hell of a fun!! audrey was farnie. shawn was farnie and lame.

clark was weird but funny too. cheryl, as always, blur and funny, nvr fails to amuse me. i am hysteric!! I don't know the reason but i think i got influenced by jerall. today during service, we sat at the main sanctuary not the usual third flr a.k.a. balcony. haha. it was really cold but i 'stole' cheryl's jacket

[not exactly, she offered when i asked... *why am i contradicting myself?*] the sermon was by rev. humprey choe [jamin's dad, bwahaha.] and translated to english by ps. lindsey. er. i was quite surprised that he was preaching coz he was a chinese service person. yah. i was nearly falling aslp in the service all thks to jerall's sleepy brainwaves tt made me feel sleepy too. haha. she was practically lying on my shoulder most of the tyme and i was like dying too. btw, shawn and jamin joined our sunday school class today. i was second in class [i mean, the time we clock in. mwahhaasss] they came round 9.30am then jamin came in last so he had to do the closing prayer then he said it's a blessing and all of us were like rolling our eyes out. haha. okay. lets go to lunch [i am so darn talkative man] we ate at loy kee. porridge with egg. ergh. i like it tho. *contradicts herself again* then jamin was like annoying cheryl saying she does everything with her nose. sing with the nose, yada yada. then you know the egg in her porridge wasn't really cooked (the egg white rather) then it looked like mucus then jamin said tt since she eats with her nose, she'll have mucus in her porridge. well i agree it did look like mucus laas. but it's gross. haha. i've got nothing to say. well. i'm bored to bits. okk. gotta run. = )

`ffruitella

oneway.hillsong

-

i lay my life down at your feet

you're the only one i need

i turn to you and you are always there

in troubled times, it's you i seek

i put you first that's all i'll need

i humble all i am, all to you

-

one wayy, Jesus, you're the only one

that i could live for

one wayy, Jesus, you're the only one

that i could live for

-

you are always, always there

every how and everywhere

your grace abounds so deeply within me

you will never ever change

yesterday, today the same

forever 'til forever meets no end

-

you are the way, the truth and the life

we live by faith and not by sight, for you

we're living all for you

ugh. cheryll was at my house just noww slpin, coshh i think her house was emptyy laas. i wanna goee christmas shopping after church withh jerall tomorrow. i dunno whether she's free laas budd just thinking coz during the camp we hadd thought aburt it laas but never confirm (as usual) ... yada yada. okaess. aimm feeling reallie boredd right now. hmm. i lost interest in a lot of stuff dis tyme. i'm not reallie sure. i mean during the camp. bwahahas. stacey (my dormm mate) kept asking cheryl, jerall and i who we liked. we weren't even interested. then they(hazel, stacey,clara) said we liked wen long like *barfs* yuCk! okaes. budd had fun and happy being in their dorm.. *although i slept like a pig on the last nite at ard 3

heyyo!! i'm backk from youth camp!! yay! was so great and spiritually reviving. bwahahas! it was soo great manx. it was at the boys' brigade at zion road. reallie reallie nice!! ok. i'll give you a summary of the entire camp kaes. woots.

*

day one

we went to church at 1030. woots. uncle david

fetched me n cheryll. woO! okays. then we left for camp at 1.30 plus.

the BB was reallie nice. haha. after we reached then we had to split into our grps

then we played the game - familiar strangers- budd it was quite

lame. we played 'bomb' in our grps lah. so our grps were called according to

the five-fold ministry. lyke the grp names were teachers, pastors, evangelists, prophets and apostles. cool manx. i'm glad i didn't bring anyone along although the worship n everything was great cause they will hinder me in worship n activities n stuff coshh they'll be like clingin on to me and liking n flirtin wiff all the guys. carnt take it. okaes then we washed up after the like warming up gamess n then dinner then night service by ps. eileen. tt night = the first night= was the praise n worship night so had a lot of singing n dancing. cool. then until leg painn! numb larx. okaes then supper then lights outtaa!!! woots.

*

day two

6.50 wakey wakeyy haha. then devotion n breakfast then morning service entitled 'surfing emotional tides' by rachel hee. the service was reallie gd abt love n then gender thingys bwahaha budd of crse gott spiritual stuffies too larx. ok. then was dirty games in the afternoon aft lunch. we played like a relay. we had to pair up guy girl (ppl in the same grp) then crawl under the rope n not hit the coconuts/obstacles then spin ard 10 times then slide across a soapy table wahaha. then carry his legs thenn he crawl to the other line. bwahaha. being gurlls so fun. haha. then the whole grp mus do the same thing. bwahaha. then the usual budd the service was by ps ronald reallie nicee and reallie gd. then the usual again.

*

day three

same. same. same. then workshop by ps. lindsey called scoring goals in life. then usual then R&R then liquid tension and reallie reallie wet game(s). lyke soapy dog and bone. bwahaha. then nicholas dislocated his arm.. ugh. it was reallie reallie gross then casualty marx so then we go n make water bombs for the next game-bombyss!! then okay yah the day b4 i fell off the lower deck of the bed n injured my last toeee.. ugh. it looks rotten nows.. okay then after that usual larx.. [shawn was aiming at me the whole tyme of the water bombing game coshh i was dry] then USUAL.

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day four

ALOHAA!! today is banquet night n the theme is aloha! okay. morning service and then night service change to 3pm. then we had to think of the skitt.. ours was like based on battle royale . ugh. gruesomee. then chioin urpp then boy meet girl. i got joshua who is lyke nearly twice my age. bwahaha. then cheryll gort yishun ugh. oh yah. in the skit i had to act lovey dovey with lyke ernest[i love you, you love me stuff]. ugh. then it was so funny coz the moral was like everyone was killing each other so(after ernest 'killed' me he got killed too) ughh abt the rhythmm n passion blahhs. okay then later really fun tyngs happened. the presentation of the skits n all. then after eleven no lights out can do anytyngs so the guys go play soccer thenn the girls have talk n lorxxxx.. very funny. then i fell aslp while everyone was out. I know, i slpt like a pigg. budd it was like 3 am lerx. the other ppl slept at five plus lorx.. haha. okays nites.

*

day five(today)

yay. go home lerx. woke urp damnn lates brkfast already over somemore. wahaha. clean up. thksgiving. wah. almost everyone mus give testimonyy then homE SWeET hOmE!! yay! So HApPYY!!!!

r we reallie changing class? 1/6 to 2/9 sounds nice budd i reallie lyke our class! mwahhs *sob*

heyy.so sadd manx. couldn't go to dah sleepover. actuallie could lahh. budd my mum was preaching awayy and i thot best not to go. budd anyways, i'm not reallie ready wiff the aloha! thingyy. i love the neos i took wiff jerall//* nice!! today had band. jasmine came today! she told me eighth then comee back, tt lil' liar. budd anyways, i hope i can still go to the sleepover. lyke a miracle if my dad comes home, you know, you know. yada. hmm. boredd to bits. =)
sighh. aimm reallie sadd carn't go. they both broke up. wakakaka. *laughs myself to death* you know, two days i was saying - his nick was "only true love lasts forever". factually, true love does not last forever, coz nothing lasts forever. dunn you get it, when you die. you either go to hell/heaven yada. do you think love exists in those worlds. my ans is no. so, true love does not last forever. seriously. i think tt the one tt lost out was the guyy 'cause he doesn't know tt she actually flirts with every senior in band and more. so i feel sad n happy for him at the same tyme. she's probs reading this. budd never minds. it's kinda a fact. erica knows n actuallie told me.. two ppl told me too.. so it's kinda the news. budd i dun think it's really a gossip story .. i think it more like a sad story. exploited boyy. flirtatious/flamboyant girll. pities

`carntt goo. all dah effort gone to waste

todaes was a funn funn daee! churchh was so funn. we were so hyped abt the jamm gang thingyy then michelle got us souvenirs fromm korea or japan? *confusedd* a whistlee n some hp keyy chain. the whistle (we named it the jamm gang help call.. bwahhaha) was so cute! i got red, jerall got purple n jinghan gott bluee. later, aft rr, thenn jeralyn n i wentt novena then walk for abt an hourr then we go heeren take neos n oso shopp lah [altho we hadd no money so windoww shop] my mum practically ditched me n left me stranded in church - mwahaha. tt's why we decided to go shoppinn!! woots. haha. i'm not going to pon band to go for the partyy at jh house - so called. - i'm jus going at nights 2 slp n playy daideex n morees.. then do the jg [jamm gang] blogg.. bwahaha. amm madd lerhhs.. so.. gd night. gort no tyme to packk my youth camp stuff you knows.. hmmph!!
{dis entry goes into bothh my blog n the jamm gang blogg plss}

`__i love jerall//*

i aimm a weird gurll

umm. woww. it's late now. burtt i'm reallie hyper coshh` took a nap frm 4.30 to 7.. i think i'm going to slp lerhhs.. just now was talking to jamin on msn.. he lamer lah.. u knows, the jamm gang(made up of our b'day months n names) consists of jerall, me, jh & michelle, then he say he wanna join, he so childish for sec 3 going sec 4 ahhs. denn youth camp for the last night service, i aimm support singer with him and my sis - ughh! he's prob gonna like blast my ears off wiff his dreadfull voice. bwahahas. they actuallie arranged all four of us (except michelle, the jamm gang strikess again!) for each night for support singing, which is so damm dohh.. i carn't bearr goin to youth camp then leaving my comp at home n stuff! ; heartbrokenn ; burt okay lorhh. i mean i come online everyday which is nort gd lahh.. but i'm so bored thenn coshh always got band so too tired to go out on tt day lerhhs.. so jus come home n use comp for a long long time b4 dinner or take a nap or somethinng.. i was looking at cheryl's blog (jerall's lookalike fwen) so cute. haha. budd it's become so typical to have pictures on blogskins tt show lil' children kissing or going to kiss.. actuallie, it's quite disturbingg. lyke how do dey take the pics.. ughh, carnt imagine, and the kids are probably doing it without knowing, tt sorta tyng yeah. todae hadd band, practically standing the whole morning, we din even sit in the band rm once (except for announcement la). denn percussion nearly died, morning started wiff a lil pt, then later a bit of drills wif inst somemore!! denn later do 'carnt take my eyes' new dance steps. omgg. denn convention then chingayy. the usual lahhs. was so tired then was so dirtyy n sweaty coshh mus run here n theres if not shikin mam will pump us. haha, talking abt tired.. i'm feeling tired toos... okiee.. gonna runn off soon. urms. was quite funny lah today and fun. supposed to go kfc wif doreen n steph after band, but in the end steph n i ditched doreen coz darn sleepy. i reallie wanted to go wiff doreen lorx. budd so tired. haha. nature's call (does nort apply.. mwahaha) i aimm going noww. tomorrow will be busy packing liaox then monday got band n maybe i going to jh's sleepover aft tt then youth camp! woots. so miss mee!! =x

today actuallie wantedd to go out [ i did ] budd hadta wake up at 8.30am coshh must go and meet the formation comm at 11. i wenta meet beiyu first at the school bus stop denn we went to find kfc, to be exact, we spent half an hr findin the dumbb kfc. we met at 10.15am then later found kfc at 10.45am. we reach there then sit aroundd then abt five minutes later, haowen 'appeared' with foodddd... he was such a pigg, eating and ugh, the soundd!! we were asked by haowen [ dahh stupidd headd of formation comm. ] to copy the four formations for chingayy thenn we hadd no graph paperr, then he gave us one stack ok then yada yada. next sylvia then syarif then jezebel thenn bixia camee. wow. i tink bixia got lost. she arrived flustered and red and seemed like she ran a few miles before arriving - bwahaha. okayy. then did formations, numbering, grping for a longg longg tyme til' 1.45pm. thenn finallie finish so we left then i went home. later then go out wiff my mumma n auntie dolly [ my fav aunt!] then we went to the concourse to get christmas stuff then later went rivervale mall to do stuff then later go homee then when she fetched us backk then i ask her to support dmb! she donated 6 bucks. woots. lovee herr!! btw, changed phonee! haha to another ah pok but colour phone.. samsung onee!! okiee... gotta goeee... byee

`wooh laa laaaaa

Ughh, i just wrote a post then when i published it, it went to the page - the page cannot be displayed - and no matter how much i refresh, all it gave me was this empty post page. *smacks computer!!* Okay. i was saying, there is no one online and everybody's still sleeping. I thought Jing Han (JH) would be awake coshh her mom actually forces her to slp @ 10pm n wake up around 7-8? Wooh! Someone's online - phyllis!! - Lols. Well, just now when i was bloggin, it was 7.50am. Now it's 8.21am. Ughhhyys! Anyway, gort's nothing to say. So Ciao!

`wooh-la-laaa

helloess!!! hmphh.. today had band - okayy not really but a band 'meeting'? - We went there at 10 plus then started twisting balloons - liyana mam was like twisting the entire balloon hat and the rest of us just sat there n stared - SERIOUS! Okay, there was this one balloon tt ended up lookin like a swollen caterpillar all thks to bihui n beiyu haha. It was hilarious, doh! It looked so stupid, i nearly thot it was CC's head [*Private jokee!!] Imagine tt, tt swollen little piece of inflated pink lardd.. HAHAHA! Feeling madd now. Today, hwee en, jas n i in band rm sit together then super farnie coz jas like mad then me n hwee en were exchangin knowing glances all over. *grinns* Woots. Miss jerall!!! Dunno where she went anyways - didn't go outta the country but okay, wdv i'm kinda talking loads of crapp here. Jinghan is so damn annoyin, keep saying i spastic - you know, patience has its limits. You know when you make fun of someone, you say once or twice then the joke's over then okay! story's over! She repeats it every Sunday and I'm on the verge of tearing her little bitty body into little strips! She is so darn sensitive but so tactless! Come on lah, be more tactful n simply grow up, you damn lubber!

Heard dis on MTV this aftnoon.. found it real nice. U know now i believe what my mum always says - "Don't eat too much chocolate in a day"- . I ate a huge chunk of white chocolate just now and before tt, a small cube of dark chocolate. Ughh. I feel sick now. Hmm, I blogged six times in total today. Okay. Here's the song.

Ryan Cabrera - On the way down
Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Tripping over myself, going nowhere
Waiting, suffocating, no direction
I took a dive and

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you

Been wondering why it's only me
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yet,
I'm alive 'cuz

I was so afraid of going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no nothing(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted(down, down, down)
You're all I needed(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted, all that I needed now

heyy! i'm back [frm laming around, yeah?]. Seemed like I had no choice. I was so bored. I watched Home on the Range. To those who've watched it, all the lame stuff about the three ugly cows and Patch of Heaven and Alameda Slim .. yada yada. Ugh, the show was gross man and typical. Like, yay! cows save the day, hurrah... *makes sarcastic face and scoffs* and the farm family lives happily ever after. Omgg.. !! That is the lamest storyline evarr!! The first part was really boring only until the Willie brothers were trying to stuff the three cows into the train compartment then it was funny coz all the fighting and 'hae yahh!' here and there.. Haha. Oh, btw, that is like ONE HOUR later!!! Hmm. Feeling really bored. Aimm checking out Gerald's band's website. Kinda nice but their drummer ain't in the pic. Sodd! Aimm listening to Mariah Carey - All i want for Christmas is You. Haha. Arhmms. Actually, carn't wait to go back to school. Feeling really bored and 'wasteful of time' coz I'm practically nort doin anytyngg. Tomorrow can't go out. All thks to some dumb meeting after band by the band editorial comm.
Btw, I found out who the hate msg person is already. You know, the one on the class blog, insistin i copied Jasmine Thian's little totey language when i sure didn't. *rolls eyes* She actually used her own kinda language to mock me huh?, which kinda pointed out so many things pointing towards her. Sigh. I have nothing against this person tho. Jushh gotta tell her to grow up man. GROWW urPP! Lousy diguiserr... Haha...MWaHahHahahahahaA.

`prayinn for you -

bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
*
am i being tested for patience here? goodness! so darn bored. i almost think it's written all over my face. there's no one home now except my maid [dunn count]. Sucky. Actually i can watch Home on the Range coz i got da dvd but sian larhh.. been online for like a million years man. listening to music noww. ughhy. last time didn't put finish the almost love lyrics so here it is.
-) > dis is a one eyed smileyy ahh, copyrightts mee!!!

almost love - billy gilman
What aimm I going to gett you girl
I wanna buy you the whole wide world
But all I got is a leather jacket and a mood ring
Sometimes I see you standingg in the hall
And I can't say a tyng at all
Deep inside I'm writingg you poetry
Yes I aimm
-
I almost love you
I can almost feel your kiss
I almost promised my heart
With a promise that's more like a wishh
I don't know what all this means
But gurll I can't get you out of my dreamms
Everytime that we get close
It's almost
-
Yesterday I saw you on the hood of a car
With an older guy he was playing his guitarr
And you gave him your smile I could have criedd
But I just froze
Should I standd up to him
Should I pick a fight
Should I get you to run away with me tonight
I don't know how to get there
Or where we'd go
Don't you knoe
-
Love
It's almost
The right stuff
It's almost
The flight of a pure white dove
It's almost
True love
-

`ever forever prayinn

Rotating Christmas Tree with white lights! Soo darnn nicee man! 

A lil background i made for my own desktop. HAHA. 

so darnn boredd manx. haiz. i blogged like a million times in a few minutes, literally. but anyways, holidays really suck. was supposed to go out today but decided not. tomorrow gort band. *reluctant yay* okay, it's nort really band practice. it's balloon hat. omg, and i hate the sound of balloons bursting. firstly, it's frightening and secondly, i feel like my eardrums just 'popped' which is also sorta scary so i hate balloons!! lol.

x.tWistt.liCkk.dunKk.x
aimm nort eatinn oreo cookies but eating Lay's bbq potato chips. heh
So full.... nearly finished halff the packet. wadd a pigg i am!
totallie carn't wait for youth camp. yumms.

yay! i changed a new skin. haha. i really hated the previous skin until my blood was practically boiling! so i spent about an hour looking for a skin i like. nowadays the skins at blogskins.com are getting uglier = basically more typical teen and more girly and more abt love n et cetera. = which aren't my type, ugh. this is one of the most ok ones = coz it's christmassyy = . Wow. i have celebrated christmas since infancy and this is one of my greatest christmases ever - preparation n all. - i thinkk it's gonna be so damn fun. i haven't bought presents for a lot of people still 'cause of my busy schedule n lack of financial support *haha! grinns* Feeling really happy now. Haha. As i will repeat, last night's show was g - r - e - a - t! Jonathan [muhh cousin!!!] wrote me a real sweet testi - haha! - in a brotherly way, dun worry. So sWeeTT!! Haha. We actually went to give him moral support for his little skit which was wonderful anyway n typical himm 'cause his friends weren't comin after so much proddin. Haha. My dad came back from Shanghai last night and bought dis little bouncy thingy tt when you hang on the ceiling, it'll bounce [duh] and bounce and it's 'windmills' will rotate and rotate. Kinda giddy after a while huh? haha. Okay. gtg noww.

Today was a great day spent on quite silly things and gd things lah. Okayy. I went church in the morning. It is RR's 10th Anniversary! Yay! Too bad I dun hav the uniform and too bad i didn't go for the camp. But after church - after cheryl changed n all the messy stuff - we took 145 to toa payoh mrt then took a train down to Admiralty then later took 913 to LightHouse Evangelism Church!! Woots! The youth service was great then we kinda made friends with da ppl there! They are so darnn friendly man!! Anyway, after the service we hung around til the rain stopped then went to koufu next door and ate - I didn't eat lah - . then later, candice - new friend, j1 - walked us to the 913 bus stop tt takes us to causeway point. Okay. SO we went Causeway pointt then watched The Incredibles with Jonathan and Cheryl. Jonathan already watched it but watched it a second time coz
~ we didn't watch it yet
~ he loved it so much
We bought stuff to eat - popcorn etc. It was so fun. My fav character is Violett..!!! Haha. Okay. So next week probs going to the youth service again... haha. Interesting!!!

`prayinn ever so hard

you know what?! i slept for like 14 & 1/2 hours straight! i slept at 5pm last night and woke up at 7.30am! Oh muhh goodness me! WahMms. So darn funny. Thk God my maidd woke up me up if not i would hav missed band! Today was quite fun but became tanner lah...- all thks to the chingay prac in the field [[with all the mudd!!!]] -and dirtier.. Jas's dad changed carr... haha. so funny. wow, i think i'm mad. i din go to the RR camp frm today to tomorrow coz I just came backk frm councillor camp and today got band. I'm so very tired anddd i gott no proper 'camp' clothing to wear [[camp clothing are my ughliest set of clothings to be specific.]] coz all bring to councillor camp lerhhs... Wah. Verryyyyy tired now. so see ya!
*
`prayinn fer yoo
*
lastt dayy

i'm back! councillor camp [[combined with psls]] was basically great!

Except for yesterday afternoon, they made us learn

drills [[haha, easy peasy for me! coz i'm in uniformed grp - Band]]. woww,

their drills suck to the core man. it was so gross! hmm, oh ya, happy birthday

Liyana mam [[Percussion SL]]! i bathed for 35 mins just now, one of

my longest. coshh i was so damn dirtyy. ugh. oh yeah, the camp - one night you

slept in the bunks[[tell u more abt it later]] on safari beds then one night in tents outside. thk god it did not rain at night last night. The bunk was previously the

Maritime Museum. ugh. there was dis two life-sizedd male figures looking

like they are goin to kill someone in there at the extreme left corner in the part

where there is no light! so friggin' freaky. zixin screamed when she saw it [[we were havin station games, were supposed to find tennis balls]] and i was behind her and

i also stopped in my tracks and gave a little shriek. it was quite ughhyy.. the bunks are spooky! they had a lot of space in the whole bunk (we only slept in three quarters of the rm [[all thks to the freaky figures - no la]]) Oh and the guys and girls slept in the same rm, jus separated by a white curtain .. lame right? dis morningg, we went 2 palawan beach [[the camp was at camp HA at Sentosa. yay!]] and then just watched the scenery while we ate our breakfastt there. yumm! i missed my bed and toilet so muchh while i was there. This camp is the best camp i've ever had [[the only one i enjoyed ya?]]. Urmm, listening to Celine Dion & Andrea Bocelli - The Prayer. hmmm, bored lahs - talking to jonathan (tan) now. MMmm... nothing much to sayy already.

`prayinn ferr yoo

billy gilman - what's forever for

I've been looking at people
And how they change with the times
And lately all I've been seeing are people
Throwing love away and losing their minds

Or maybe it's me that's gone crazy
'Cause I can't understand why
All these people keep hurting each other
When good love is so hard to come by

So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for

I've been listening to people
And they say love is the key
And it's not my way to let them lead me astray
It's only that I want to believe

But I see love hungry people
Trying their best to survive
While in their hands is a dying romance
And they're not even trying to keep it alive

So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for

And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for

almost love - billy gilman [excerpt only]

I almost love you

I can almost feel your kiss

I almost promised my heart

With a promise that's more like a wish

Oooh, I don't know what all this means

But girl I can't get you out of my dreams

Everytime that we get close

It's almost

Love

It's almost

The right stuff

It's almost

The flight of a pure white dove

It's almost True love

Today had band. woots! it wass soo fun! we hadd prac for chingay and then broke for sectional. hrmph! today was quite erm, exciting? jasmine, beiyu and I for the jap bell solo for convention(nort chingayy) all play different part. thenn queena subtly chided us. haha. today she was really nicee!! *all smiles* well, i was playing the right part and then jasmine gort really pissed 'cause she gort scolded. thenn later, during announcement i was sitting with sianying and jessie then beiyu was sitting next to jessie thenn later she go and change place! hmph. soo looking forward to youth camp, heard there r gonna be ppl frm sembawang a/g. woots! soo i dunno larhhs. i was very tired today 'cause slept at 1 last night/this morning. now listening to dreams by diana degarmo. boredd to bits man. oh yah. youth camp is gonna rock and councillor camp is gonna suck. haha, pity jasmine couldn't come (actually she is, but nortt quite sure but my sis doesn't need her participation anymorree anyway.. =)) SO as i was sayinn, woots. after band then had announcement then i hadd to see queena coz i was somee co-editor with 5 other ppl for the deyi band mag or something.. 25th anniversary iff i'm nort wrongg. *'somebody' gives jealous facee- sure wan.* i'm in formation comm. with beiyu. oh ughh. it's gonna suck man. stuck wiff her first tyng then *she probs readin my blogg now. haha!!!!* drawing silly formationnss - yuek! hmms, jas told me somethingg tt was so friggin amusing that me n doreen burst outta laughin immediately coz what she said was such a liee lorh. it's a quote frm someone else. haha. after band jas's dad dropped me off at compass point to meet my mom n my aunt and we went ikeaa!! so funn. I bought a gazillion decorativee stuff *bet tt 'somebody' has never been there* then later aft shoppin for 4 hrs pluss we went to the ikea restaurant n ate the usual.. - Swedish meattballssss!!!!!!! MY FAVOURITEEE! yay! okayys, after tt came back lorhhs.. do usual stuff... *makes face* okay. i'm so lazy right now n my neckk hurtts.... ughhh! byeeeeee... nightss.. cheryll, he's online horh!!!

~now i dunno whyy but i feel somebody's so nice to me, a bit odds. likee normallyy she wouldn't give a damm abt me and my teenage angstt but nowadays, she actually cares!

Today had band. woots! it wass soo fun! we hadd prac for chingay and then broke for sectional. hrmph! today was quite erm, exciting? jasmine, beiyu and I for the jap bell solo for convention(nort chingayy) all play different part. thenn queena subtly chided us. haha. today she was really nicee!! *all smiles* well, i was playing the right part and then jasmine gort really pissed 'cause she gort scolded. thenn later, during announcement i was sitting with sianying and jessie then beiyu was sitting next to jessie thenn later she go and change place! hmph. soo looking forward to youth camp, heard there r gonna be ppl frm sembawang a/g. woots! soo i dunno larhhs. i was very tired today 'cause slept at 1 last night/this morning. now listening to dreams by diana degarmo. boredd to bits man. oh yah. youth camp is gonna rock and councillor camp is gonna suck. haha, pity jasmine couldn't come (actually she is, but nortt quite sure but my sis doesn't need her participation anymorree anyway.. =)) SO as i was sayinn, woots. after band then had announcement then i hadd to see queena coz i was somee co-editor with 5 other ppl for the deyi band mag or something.. 25th anniversary iff i'm nort wrongg. *'somebody' gives jealous facee- sure wan.* i'm in formation comm. with beiyu. oh ughh. it's gonna suck man. stuck wiff her first tyng then *she probs readin my blogg now. haha!!!!* drawing silly formationnss - yuek! hmms, jas told me somethingg tt was so friggin amusing that me n doreen burst outta laughin immediately coz what she said was such a liee lorh. it's a quote frm someone else. haha. after band jas's dad dropped me off at compass point to meet my mom n my aunt and we went ikeaa!! so funn. I bought a gazillion decorativee stuff *bet tt 'somebody' has never been there* then later aft shoppin for 4 hrs pluss we went to the ikea restaurant n ate the usual.. - Swedish meattballssss!!!!!!! MY FAVOURITEEE! yay! okayys, after tt came back lorhhs.. do usual stuff... *makes face* okay. i'm so lazy right now n my neckk hurtts.... ughhh! byeeeeee... nightss.. cheryll, he's online horh!!!

~now i dunno whyy but i feel somebody's so nice to me, a bit odds. likee normallyy she wouldn't give a damm abt me and my teenage angstt but nowadays, she actually cares!

*woots uncontrollably*
hmm, today had band.. OOPS. I thought today had full band
but actually it's only half-day then I have Percussion workshop that is
by this guy that actually trains the drumline in the movie - DRUMLINE. WOOTs!!!
His strokes are supeerrrr!!! It was so great I bet most of us were
droolin our mouths outt!! Fast and he never hits the snare rimss. He gave us
3 exercises and split us into two grps.. my grp lost.. Yuck.. coz gort the two
'something wrong' peepx that cannot keep rhythm and blahsss, etc. Was feeling
so gd just now. He's a New Yorker called, erhmms, Benjamin Ironside. Haha.. Has an iron backside eh? Joking!! Nahxx. Okayys. I'm starting to talk and type just like jeralyn n jh, they're frightening me!! Ugh! Feeling reallie hyper altho I'm feeling tired 'cause I slept at one last night.. more like dis morning! Coz I was reading a really interesting book about a girl in the rock band. Cool. think cheryl will knoww the title eh? Hmms. So bored. Bei Yu was fine today, didn't scold any juniors for doing wrong things today. [[B.Y. is a junior and a sec one too.. Ironic right? *dun giv me hate msgs for dis, H.J. it's a darn fact.*]] Hrmms.. Not angry today. Woots. Actually I was quite scared to play marchin snare today. I mean, i usually play the marchin bell. Marching snare? Big diff manx. It was muchh much heavier than the belll.. i understand the pain of the new snare drummerrrss... [[reminds me of the christmas song 'The little drummer boy' *grins*]] Chatting with jerall// and jh// and melanie now. Nort melanie.. stopped talking to her just now. Hrms. Okays. gotta run dearies! Miss ya!! *makes spasticc faceee*

`lovin yoo-

Hmm. What shoulda say?
Mother's saying I never accomplish anything. Da usual.
Went out with cheryll again. We went ta Bugis then went
laming around haha, there were so many 'act cool' guys lorh. So gross! Cheryl and I watched the video of Edison again and again just now. Ugh. We saw Timothy L.M. hooting and jumping with laughter in the background.. Jokerrss!!! I love the part where this guy puts a empty sch bag over Eddie's head then he started screaming....!!! That's the funniest part!
Just watched Singapore Idol. Olinda out... Sad larhh.. I know
evrybody in Deyi loves Sylvester. But you imagine him
representing Singapore a bit yee... with his lousy diction. Don't worry. I have nothing against him larh. But must be more factual
a little. I don't hate himm lahh.. I bet someone will post on my
tagboard some hate msgs after reading it.. Grow up lah. Okayys. So Jonathan (not malau) just started like supporting Oli and she's out. What a joke for him... Must not aggravate the situation.. Actually Olinda looks like Ki'ern [[cousin's sibling who is a LIME writer. Hmphhs... Unbelievable rightas?]] Haha. Hmphh.. So bored today. I like watching Survivor Vanuatu but now must prepare for Band. Whoops. I haven't bathe yet. Da dirtyy gurll*// blehhs. *makes a face.* So boreddd to bits. Thank God have Band tomolo but full band.. and then, haiz, it's gonna be TIRING.. ugh. Then have to carry marching bell 'til back breakss *makes a 'grandma' face*. Ouchhiess!! You try larhh.. Marching bell is like 5 kg. Then Snare drum is like 8 kg... Tom, ha!, is like 10kg. Wanna dieee arhhs... Marching Percussion Ruless.. But all have back probleemmss... [Just supporting my verdict?]

Today woke up at 12pm. Actually woke up at 7.30am to go for councillor meeting but I was having such a bad headache.
Then went back to slp. Lazy pig me. Haha.
Ouch. Doesn't hurt now tho. Whoa! At 1 'o clock,
I was talking to *Jonathan(my cousin) and Jason in the
same convo on msn. So funny! But they dare say I
like George Puff from American Idol. [[George
Puff for amusement. Original name George Huff.]] We were talking
abt Fantasia Barrino and Diana Degarmo and they, the two hilarious bickering boys, were fighting over who is better? And I was supposedly
the side-taker. Currently waiting for Timothy Lee Misso [[Not Timothy Chow.
Misso - German surname]] and the video of Edison* to quickly finish transferring
to him. It is like 28000 kb. Such a big file. But it's a worthy wait. The video
was hilarious - of Edison and his sissy self. Haha. What a disgrace to the male race! Hey, I just remembered, Jeralyn is gonna be back now!!! Today to be specific.
Haha. Not being very specific. Must sms her. Yay! She's finallie BACK! Wonder if she bought anything for me. That giRL. Lol. I'm not lesbo, i say again.
Hmm, currently listening to "The Conventry Carol by the same girl.. Charlotte Church. Nice larhh. Cannot blame. Anyway, I dunno whether I should go
to michelle's church Matthew Care Grp thingy tomorrow. 28 Nov I have a
short church camp and I'm also going to my cousin's church, Lighthouse.
Ugh! I'm feeling so pressurized. I'm supposed to go to the Salvation Sunday
thingy at LightHouse so that to accompany Jon's friends. Ugh. They're nice people
tho. Hmm. I'm gonna watch Singapore Idol. Yay! Feeling So HAPPY!
I baked Shortcrust Pastry just now. Was wonderful. So GREAT.
The cookies were 'heavenly'... [[makes it sound so wonderful to eat. It was what.]]
Okayys. Gotta go now, literally.

Toodles.

*Names mentioned in between the two asterisks are all from Montfort. Except George Huff. Haha.

`lovinn yoo too-

Erhm. Hmm.
I shouldn't be here at this hour. Haha. Can't wait for dear
Jeralyn to come back. Haha. I was sms-ing Julia just now and we
were like disgusting ourselves at the stupidity of all the councillors, literally.
[[with their dumb forfeits and more. Ask Chern Ron or Bei Yu.
They'll understand]] She is from 1/8.
Quite nice people in my councillor grp. Too bad they change
grp again for the councillor camp.
They actually torture/humiliate you for their own entertainment. IDIOTS!
Omg. I can't believe it!! Councillor camp is 1 week away and
I'm totally not looking forward to it. Yuek! Oh no! I can't remember all the impt people in the student council. You're supposed to
memorize all their FULL names. How? I can't even remember anybody except Norimah who is the next president. Bei Yu doesn't like her.
Always telling me how much she hates Norimah and more.
Dunno why. Haha. Amusing. Jonathan (not malau) asked me go to his
church for Salvation Sunday. Hmms, I duno whether i should. If I'm going, then i
guarantee Cheryl is going too. DUH.
Okayys. Oh yarh. I just finished reading a book called 'Bish Bash Bosh'. Quite cute a bk. I read it in an hour! It's not as thin as our sec 1 lit texts lorhH! DUH!
Haha. I should be slping now. Coz got councillor meeting early in the morning tomorrow. Sigh. =)
Piex!

`lovinn yoo-

I'm feeling so happy!
Christmas is coming!
Yay! I'm so happy! Presents and more!
Meeting up with old friends.
I really pity those people who are brought up not celebrating Christmas!
Sincerely! Christmas is truly a time to love and more!
And my favourite holiday too!
So, you guys out there that don't celebrate Christmas can join me - my christmas party with all my family n friends. [[If you dare, haha, no larhhhs]]
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LOVINN CHRISTMAS
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`lovinn yoo too-